Cindy Lou Who

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  1. Cindy Lou Who

    I'm going to change things up - Wish me luck!

    @Aussie Bear, good for you, and hope things continue to improve! Way to take charge in your health!! You're rocking this!!
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    Day one

    Welcome to the loser's bench, and congrats on doing so great since surgery! So glad things are going pretty well. Take care of yourself each day. Don't you love the no hunger thing?! I remember wanting to shout (quoting Gone With the Wind movie), "As God is my witness, I'll never be hungry again!" Haha! It felt SO good not to be hungry especially after Feeling starving and grumpy on the liquid diet leading up to surgery. Good on you to watch and force protein and liquids in, though. You definitely need to push both of those to stay on the healing track. Very important. And speaking of "Gone with the Wind".... sorry you're still windy. Haha, sorry, couldn't resist that terrible joke. All my post-op pain was wind related. For me walking around helped the most. And walking outside a little further every day showed me I was healing and helped with the wind at the same time. That may be what is making the stitch in your side as well. Hope every day keeps getting better! I'm sure it will! I'm so excited for your future!!!!!!
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    17 months post op

    Tracking is an interesting subject, thanks for asking about it. I like reading what others are doing. I tracked on MFP very well the first 8 months, and it really felt good to regulate protein and calories each day. I definitely think it was a huge factor in my weight loss success because it kept me on the straight and narrow. I especially liked using it to decide on what I would eat for dinner based on my calories and macros through the afternoon. I slacked off over the holidays and plan to restart this week as I need to figure out how many calories per day I'll need in maintenance. But it's a Catch 22. I too get over obsessive when I track and it makes me think about food many times per day. But it also makes me relax because I know I am getting the quality of food, protein, calories, and macro mix that I want. So which is better for the long haul? I'm still trying to figure that out. My NUT suggested doing it 3 days a week. I haven't tried that, but maybe that's a good compromise?
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    Food stuck :(

    Papaya enzymes have saved me when I feel like food (always meat of some kind) feels stuck or if I've eaten one bite too many. It's happened 4 times in the last 10 months since surgery. Even under normal circumstances liquid after solid food really hurts my pouch, so I've never done tea, but alot of people find tea helpful. I'm only 10 months out, but I still do about 3 protein shakes per week. They help me to get all my vitamins in. And if you see Dr. Matthew Weiner and Dr. V on You Tube, they recommend protein shakes for life. My NUT wants me off of them eventually. Different advice from different folks so read everything and do what's best for you (Telling your doc of course).
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    Knee surgery

    Thank you, Ma'am! So sweet of you to notice. To be honest, I've reached the "uhh, when am I going to quit losing?" stage. Very weird feeling. My DH thinks I should've stopped a few pounds ago, so I'm trying to stop. But I have to admit part of me is enjoying being lower than optimum. I mean, when has this ever happened before? NEVER!! I'm so glad your surgery date got moved up! Only one more week! Hope your health regime is working at keeping the flu out of your house!
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    Officially maintaining!

    This thread is very helpful to me, so thanks for starting it. I'm a couple months behind you so I'm now having all the feelings you were having when you started this thread. I've kept losing, slowly, through the holidays even though I upped my calories. It's not a terrible thing, but kind of weird. Half of me is afraid I'll keep losing, and the other half of me is afraid I'll rebound and gain it all back! So my food intake changes every day with my mood! Now that it has been a couple months since your last post, how are things going? Have you found a calorie amount that is good for you? Or are you still trying to find it? Is the weight stabilizing? We're about the same size, and I'm pretty active, so we might be pretty close in optimum calories/day.
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    Knee surgery

    Good luck, Dearie! So glad you are on the schedule and will have a solution soon! We are all cheering for you!!
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    Questions galore

    Welcome to the loser's bench! So glad you joined us! There are lots of very supportive people here. As to your bruising, I'm afraid i can't answer because I had vertical sleeve so a different procedure. But I would call your doctor today and send this picture. They should be ready and able to tell you what is normal or not. As to my first foods, I remember liking the thicker soups. (But soups without solids). First was bone broth, and then butternut squash soup. (I often mixed the two together so I had a thick soup with protein.) I bought them ready made at the store. I also liked yogurt and protein shakes at this point. And sip, sip, sip the water all day long! I didn't really lose alot until the second week. Try not to worry about it. IT WILL COME OFF if you stick to the plan. Just concentrate of healing, drinking, and following your doctor's recommendations to the letter. You are on your way to your new life!!
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    Month 2 - Holiday month

    No worries, I understood what you were saying. But I liked this post. I think most of the time I was "assuming the worst" about saboteurs in that their intentions may not be good. That's not really fair, as they are often acts of love, though maybe misguided. Thanks for that!
  10. I almost titled this blog entry "Too skinny"? I am NOT complaining, but this month has been a bit of a trip into the Weight Twilight Zone. I hoped to get down in the bottom of my weight range before Christmas so I could enjoy holiday treats without fear. Also, we're going with 5 families for a week to a ranch in Arizona starting tomorrow so the eating/drinking will be tempting there too. Sooooo, I wanted to be at "fighting weight" when all that started. All good. I did that. But then a weird thing happened. My husband said that I didn't need to lose anymore weight. My 25-year-old son home for the holidays said I was too thin and needed to eat more. He tried to pump me with fatty foods, carbs, and candy in an attempt to get high calories in with low volume. And I have to admit, when I look in the mirror, my extra skin looks worse, and I can see my ribs on the front of my chest. I feel like I am in an alternate universe! This can't be me! Even though I look a little gaunt undressed, for the first time probably ever, I think I look really nice in clothes. I'll never be tall and thin, but I'm short and thin-ish in clothes! Yay! So, I'm a little unsure of where exactly I want to end up. Still trying to figure that one out. I have to say that stopping losing weight FEELS REALLY WEIRD. I've been losing for an entire year. Accepting smalls gains and losses is a mind trip. I still feel like I'm trying to balance on a tight wire. Exercise-wise I'm toying with running. I've been walking 4-6 miles per day 5 days a week, and this month I've run three miles a few times. It feels so good! But I'm trying to be careful so I don't injure myself. I've only let myself run 2 days a week, and take a rest day after. My "gifty" for staying in my weight range this month was a new pair of walk/running shoes. I've had the old ones for 5 years so I was REALLY overdue! The real treat was going to a running store, getting fit into the best shoes for my body, feet, and exercise regime. Running is a cheap sport, and I figure shoes is the only real piece of equip't I need. As a final note I'd like to say that I am SO grateful for 2018! This year has been a transition year to the rest of my life with a healthy future looking very real. Successful VSG surgery and 115 pounds lost. What a gift this year has been! I will always remember 2018 as being the year I was physically re-born and given a second chance at a happy life! And thank you, my TT heroes for holding my trembling hand along this journey! Maintenance Diary - 1st month - Range 135.4 - 140 pounds 2nd month - Range 133.0 - 135.4 pounds 3rd month - Starts today!
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    Month 2 - Holiday month

    I loved that you asked that question. I hadn't thought about it, but it's very easy to compare to year's past. We meet up at this ranch with the five families every year for a long weekend. I am (I mean was! :)) the only adult that is overweight in the group. The past couple years: Last year - I couldn't go at the last minute. And I was SO relieved after it was all over because everyone went on a huge hike up a mountain and I knew I couldn't have even attempted it and I would have been so embarrassed. I felt so sad that I felt "lucky" to have missed out on a family trip. Year before that - I hated packing for it because I hated all my clothes. I hung around the ranch house instead of hiking around with everyone because I felt sluggish, tired, and just wanted to rest and relax. I kept telling everyone about how stressed my life was - as an excuse for my obesity really. This year - Was excited about packing, even though most were just grubby ranch clothes. I enjoyed all the hiking and was practically the first one out the door! It was so easy eating small portions of the huge breakfast and dinners. I ate until I was content and just left the rest on my plate. No one cared. At night I dressed up in clothes that my DH gave me for Christmas! I think he was proud to see me in them! I'm already looking forward to next year!
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    Month 2 - Holiday month

    I bet that was really bizarre! I always assumed most healthy-weight people walk around completely satisfied with their weight. So weird to think that they all were wishing they could lose a few pounds. That gives me so much incentive to logically decide the best size/weight for my body, and then be happy and satisfied in it! I think you are REALLY on to something! Is it possible through this journey we could actually become mature, self-loving people? What a wonderful concept! Sound like you are well on your way if not already there. I think that's a HUGE NSV!!!!!
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    Month 2 - Holiday month

    "So onward we march, to stand still"...... Yep, the new game! I'm still so new that this feels very strange and scary. I'm trying to get used to exchanging the thrill of losing with the calm of being satisfied in my clothes. It's hard after a lifetime of negative body image talk! Sorry you're having hip trouble! Hope it goes away soon! And yes, I love the "Treat Yo'self!" from Parks and Recreation TV show. That's what the new running shoes feels like.
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    Month 2 - Holiday month

    @Aussie Bear, I thought alot about your thoughtful words this week. I appreciate so much your honesty about your opinion of my son's sabotaging. I guess I think sabotaging is somewhat underhanded, and my son was doing this above board, as he truly is worried about my continuing to lose weight. He was trying to stop the weight loss because he thought I was below where I needed to be. He has always been thin, so I know it's not a personal reaction, but comes from a good place. However, that doesn't mean that he is correct. He lives in a different state, so his pushing was short-lived. I think it's also harder for him because he doesn't see me that often so my weight loss appears more dramatic. He'll get used to it. And he'll settle down when he sees me staying healthy and happy. My friends at the ranch were incredible. Our friendship is originally with the men, who my husband and I have known and loved for over 30 years. They were SO SWEET. They kept repeating how great I looked, and how proud of me they were. They are like my brothers so when they told my husband and I how awesome I looked and how "hot" I looked now, I can honestly say that it didn't feel weird, it felt SO GREAT!!! And even the kids (around 10 of them ages range 20-27 whom I've known since birth) said many kind comments to me on how great I looked. The wives/moms had nice comments too, and no sabotaging happened. It was like they all were so amazed at my change that they didn't think they had any advice to give. Overall, I just felt so supported and loved. Now I'm SUPER motivated to maintain! Obligated even!
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    Month 2 - Holiday month

    Such sweet words, thank you! I don't feel at all "grown up", but quite the opposite. I feel like such a newbie or like a little kid learning all new skills. But I feel SO GRATEFUL for the new challenges with this new tool! Yes, the wiggle room helped me managed my nerves when I couldn't weigh on a scale for over a week! We walked a TON around the ranch so that helped too. When I got home I hadn't gained any! Yeahhhhhh!!!!!
  16. I have several so if I'm hungry but feeling lazy, I can have options. Here are a few: 1) Can of sardines with chili pepper. (Sounds gross, I know, but I've been craving this lately, so I figure I must need the fish oil or something?) Lots of protein!! 2) A whole grain cracker (like Mary's Gone Crackers brand for example) and Laughing Cow light cheese (only 30 calories per wedge) 3) I always have deli sliced turkey to roll up. Low cal and high protein. 4) hard boiled egg and two prunes 5) 5 or 6 frozen grapes if I have a sweet tooth 6) 7 walnut halves - I make baggies of these so I have them in my purse if I'm out and about and get hungry 7) 80 calorie Greek yogurt with frozen blueberries or any other fruit 8) Muscle Milk protein drink - I can always find Muscle Milk at a convenience store. Good for keeping protein up if I'm driving long distance out of town to a jobsite. Hope this helps! Other than the Muscle Milk, the main strategy is to get them into the house (and your purse) and available so when you get "hangry" you have something with high protein to turn to. Good luck and let us know what works for you!
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    Seeking post Sleeve Buddy!

    Sorry I didn't get to respond before your surgery. I was traveling and just got back online. Hope it went well today! Let me say, "Welcome to the loser's bench!" It's a great place here, and we are all in this together and all here for you. Check in and let us know how you are when you can. I had the Vertical Sleeve last February and it was by far the best thing I have ever done for my health! You have done a very brave thing, and I hope your healing is as easy as possible. My thoughts are with you.
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    The Ups & Downs of New Clothes Shopping

    Your angst reminds me of what my mother used to say about stores' sizes. She always said that the more expensive the clothes the smaller size I would wear. She said the reason was two-fold: the cheaper stores want to save on material, so I would wear a bigger size, and the more expensive stores would try to woo me to spend more money by my being able to wear a smaller size. So don't be bummed by size anywhere! It's all a sham! You are DOING AWESOME!!!!
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    Drinking Water Post-Op

    I was a gulper, and drank lots of water pre-op. I did have to learn to sip all day right after surgery. Once, in the first week, I accidentally swallowed a huge gulp of water after brushing my teeth out of habit. OOPS, and OUCH!! I carry around a SST thermos that can have either ice water or warm tea. I have noticed lately (I'm now 10 months post-op) that I can gulp about 3/4 of a cup if I have to. Also if I forget to take my thermos, I'm okay. I still like the habit of sipping all day as it not only ensures I get enough liquids in, but it probably helps with hunger. I've read where alot of times we might think we're hungry, but we're really just thirsty. I've also read recently that the reason it's important that we drink water is because people get alot of required liquid from their food. Since we are taking in so much less food, we need to drink more water. That makes sense to me. I have found I can take the thermos ANYWHERE. This includes into a movie theaters, ball games, grocery stores, etc. I like to drink my drinks with ice, and I've also found that convenience stores are willing to give me free ice since I have my own cup.
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    Nervously waiting

    Welcome and good luck tomorrow! It's fantastic here on the loser's bench! I just wish I had done it sooner. Don't fret about the panic voice. That is normal. Just try to concentrate on your logical mind and all the reasons why you are doing this, the research you did thinking about your choice, and your preparation. That will help quell your panicky thoughts. I remember thinking that I could always change my mind up to the minute of anesthesia if I wanted! Just remember, You are doing this for your future health. Check in with us afterwards when you can! We are all sending good thoughts and prayers!
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    How long did it take for your weight to stabilize?

    Thanks so much for the update! It sounds great that your skin has changed and is disappearing. With the last 5-10 pounds, I feel like suddenly I have tons of loose skin. At first I was able to stay positive about it, but I'm feeling self conscious these days. Thank goodness for leggings and pants with lycra/elastic being in style!! And thank goodness for winter! But I still have loose skin on my back and arms that is a bit annoying - makes me look old. OF COURSE, it's better than fitting in my skin like the old days, but I'm hoping for some skin retreat in the weeks and months to come. Maybe I should take some pictures so I can measure improvement? It's also helpful reading that you mainly stay in a five pound range. I have set my goal in a 10 pound range, but maybe I should really strive for five. Seems easier to recover if I go astray. I'm finding I'm afraid to add calories back at meals or designated snacks, but I'm grabbing little bites of stuff throughout the day that I didn't do before. The result is that I don't know exactly how many calories I'm eating. NOT GOOD! I'm still weighing every day, and the holidays are here, so I'm thinking I will hang in on the weight range, and then get more scientific about counting the calories added in January. I'm looking forward to that too. Feel very unsettled at the moment, but trying not to stress if my weight stays good. As for muscles, my arms and legs are pretty good, as I'm naturally muscly/chunky. But my butt has vamoosed! It's so flat from the side now! My motto now is "Flat bottomed girls make the rock-n-roll world go 'round!"
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    Regret this surgery!!

    @Sueling, I'm so very sorry that you have had such a hard time. And I'm even more sorry that you are depressed. I'm not in Toronto, so don't have any info for you, but please know my thoughts and prayers are with you. Can you look for support groups through the area hospitals or bariatric doctors? Sometimes they can also recommend therapists who are used to dealing with weight loss surgery issues. You are on the right track to reach out. Keep doing that. Find some help. You are SO worth it! And we are here for you too.
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    10 months and counting....

    @CheeringCJ, I had to add to this blog because it finally happened to me today. The thigh gap! hahahahaha!!!! Miraculous, and hilarious! I wore tights to church this morning, and when I went to change, I saw a flash of light in the mirror. What?? So funny! NEVER IN MY LIFE! Had to share!
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    Hair Loss

    I wanted to add an update for those researching about hair loss - I know I read alot about it and was very fearful! I had significant hair loss after my dad died, so I figure I'm probably susceptible to it. I started losing hair at about 4 months out. I was eating 70-90 grams of protein every day and keeping up with vitamins. But my NUT said most people lose hair anyway. I only washed my hair every three days (don't know if that helped), and that made it easy to see how much I was losing each time. It was alot, and very disconcerting. I'm now at almost 10 months out, and I have lately seen a significant slow down in hair loss. My post shower hair glob is MUCH smaller now, and is probably now just the normal amount. I also have a 1" halo of new hair coming in all over. Yay! My surgeon told me that almost everyone loses hair, and it almost always comes back. That's proving right. Temporary trouble. Meanwhile, I've lost over 110 pounds so SOOOOOO worth it. There is light at the end of the tunnel!
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    NSV of the Week - whats yours?

    TERRIFIC TIGHTS AND TERRIFIC LEGS CROSSED! I can't stop crossing my legs now. Feels so good every time! Congratulations!!!!!