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About AliPat

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  • Birthday September 30

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    Central Valley California
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    Horses, gardening, writing
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    Kaiser S Sac
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    Vertical Sleeve
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    Starting BMI 42.4

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  1. Aww thanks! I stopped weighing myself daily. I only do it once a week now. It has helped with the mental madness for sure. I too have 30+ ys of yo-yo dieting, and I definitely will get discouraged in an instant....when I don't see "instant" results on the scale for my mediocre efforts. Once a week weigh-ins are forcing me to put forth a larger, more consistent and sustained effort before making a judgment on myself, my decisions and my actions.....and the results. (be they good or bad)
  2. aww thanks, so true..... It's so hard to remember when looking at nearly the same number week after week.
  3. AliPat

    15 month post op

    Thank just helped me realize just how close I am to my goal. I've been focusing on a goal of 135 just so I don't sell myself short. My actual "goal" is a size 8 pant....what ever weight that ends up being. there's a pair of pants I've had in a box for 25ys..... I would be ecstatic to put them on again. And a pair of jeans I've been hoarding since high school. If I could get those on...... OMG I think I would drop dead on the spot... I could finally throw them away.
  4. Sunday 11/25/18 -- I haven’t been saying much to anyone for a while now, because I have only lost 5 pounds in the last 3 months, for a total of 7 pounds since last posting on here 4 months ago. I am/was embarrassed at my lack of progress. I hadn’t taken any official progress pics until this last weekend. And that was only due to an odd incident that prompted me to measure my body. I had been a bit depressed for a while due to stalls, but I started to notice I was fitting into more and more size 12 pants, and more and more of my size 14 pants were getting too big for me…including some size L shirts. All of this seemed very strange since the scale wasn’t really moving, at least at a pace that corresponded to the size difference. Since mid march, at nearly 190 lbs, for 8 months I have been in a size 14 even though I proceeded to lose 20 more pounds. Compare that to going from a starting size of 22-24, and after losing just 15lbs pre-op, I was wearing a 18-20 at the time of surgery. That’s 2 pant sizes in 15 lbs. Then getting down to a 14 in less than 8 weeks post op. That’s 2 more pant sizes with 25 more pounds of weight loss. One would expect that if I lost another 20lbs I would naturally go down 2 more pant sizes…..but NOTHING….or so that would be my “perception” as I did squeeze into a size 12 pair of shorts a few months ago. Every time I put THOSE shorts on, they seem to fit exactly the same, so I assume I am not yet a “12”, because even though I’ve been fitting into OTHER size 12 pants, I haven’t fit into THAT pair of size 12 shorts. Any ways, I woke up on today, my official weigh-in Sunday, and yet again I was 168-9ish, for the 8th week in a row. I almost couldn’t take it, so I decided to get the tape measure out and try to give my self-esteem a bit of a boost. I haven’t measured myself since late July. To my shock and happy surprise, I lost quite a bit of inches, way more than the few pounds lost would suggest. I lost 20% of my “total inches lost” during a time that I only lost 5% of my “total weight lost”. I’ve heard of that, but just couldn’t see how it could be true, that you could lose inches while losing little to no weight…..but it’s true! Here is what else is true….I haven’t been as good as I should be, but I also haven’t been as bad as I could be. Of course I have lots of “excuses” ….lovingly called “reasons”….psychologically called “justifications”. I have been going through some personal emotional struggles learning how to set boundaries for emotional self when there is no way to set/enforce boundaries to some of life’s horrible certainties. Of course, I have to try to deal with those things without my old friend the cigarette and less successfully my very good friend “food”. My pcp told me she could no longer give me Xanax due to new FDA/DOJ guidelines, and when I called to schedule an appointment with my counselor….she no longer works there. I have felt like a fox with my foot stuck in a very painful trap, writhing and spinning and screaming to no avail, until I am left with no choice but to gnaw off my own foot, you know…sacrifice the foot (my pity party) to save the body (my sanity). Depressed and out of options I acquiesced to the reality that my surgery got me this far and the rest is up to me. I have 2 choices. 1. Keep doing what I am doing and get nowhere. 2. Take responsibility for EVERY thing I put in my mouth, and while I am at it, put LESS in my mouth. And….see a Psychiatrist and get help for my PTSD and anxiety/depression. I admitted to myself that I did things my way for 48ys and all that got me was Fat….It’s time to get help with the psychological pain that I spent a lifetime covering up with food. Wednesday 12/5/18 – What a difference a week can make….I made a decision last week to have a protein/vitamin shake for breakfast and soup for lunch maybe with some chicken, and salad with meat for dinner. I followed this pretty well for most of the days, and to my surprise (eye rolls) I lost 2.6 lbs last week. The calories were low enough for my meals to allow me to have a 150 calorie ice cream dessert most nights. Imagine that! Oh, and the Psychiatrist put me on Zoloft. In case anyone is wondering what that week looked like by the numbers: daily average: 1123cal, 72g protein, 95g carb, 49g sugar, 50g fat for perspective, the 2 weeks prior to that daily average: 1229cal, 70g protein, 106g carb, 46g sugar, 59g fat daily average: 1357cal, 75g protein, 111g carb, 55g sugar, 77g fat My Stats: Weight loss - inches Lost Starting weight 230 on 10-5-18 Pre-op - 14.6 lbs Surgery weight 215.4 on 2-5-18 Post-op Weight loss on 5th of each month Month 1 - 19 lbs 3/5/18 196.4 Pre-op- month 1 - 33.6 lbs lost – 16” inches lost Month 2 - 6.4 lbs Month 3 - 5.2 lbs Month 4 – 1.6 lbs Month 5 - 3.4 lbs Month 6 – 5.6 lbs Month 7 – 1.8 lbs 9/5/18 172.4 Months 2-7 - 27 lbs lost – 22.5” inches lost Month 8 – 2.2 lbs Month 9 – 1.4 lbs Month 10 – 2.6 lbs 12/5/18 166.6 Months 8-10 - 5 lbs lost – 11” inches lost Month 11 – TBD 1/5/19 PS: The pic in the black sweater is this morning, the green shirt is pre-op and the orange shirt is about 6wks post op pps: I feel AMAZING today!!!
  5. AliPat

    One year surgiversary pics and celebration

    You look fabulous! love the pics!
  6. AliPat

    15 month post op

    Good Job. I remember reading all your ups and downs during my pre-op and early post op....and honestly think of you often in my non-online life...when I am experiencing one kind of set back or another....and how in the end, you always come out on top! Thanks for the inspiration! I am doing this now, and am experiencing the same thing. If i eat breakfast, I have less restriction at lunch, and even less at dinner. If I drink breakfast (coffee w/ vitamins and protein) I feel very restricted at lunch and still feel some restriction at dinner. My window is from noon to 8pm. I'm sure my breakfast "cocktail" is against the "rules" and not exactly "fasting" but it works for me and is the only way I can get my protein in for the day. It also helps me with getting my fluid in for the day and getting my vitamins in for the day....I have had compliance issues with both. The one thing I like about the "fasting" is that the self control is easier. it's easier to just not eat, than to try to stop myself in the middle of eating. with the sleeve, honestly I don't "feel" hungry if I don't eat. Hunger is an imagined state of being that mostly only exists in my head, and the surgery helps me live with that realization. it was only in my head before surgery too, but there was no way I could wrap my brain around that pre-op.
  7. AliPat

    New here

    Wow...those are awesome numbers. I started at 230 5'2', sleeved on 2-5-18. I'm lucky to get an average of 1lb per week. In the beginning, I too thought I should be losing more. But I figured (at the time) that one pound a week would get to 165 by my birthday next month. I'm slight a bit behind with 5 more weeks to go...but I should be within a few lbs of that goal. Today I was 172.4.... our bodies don't always do what we want, mostly does.....most of the time. Chin up, you're doing great!
  8. Thank you!!! I wanted to first get my whacky thoughts out and leave here with your kind words in my head instead! You're looking great too....cheers to us!
  9. so, my final weight loss for month 6 is 4.6 lbs....thanks to attempting the 5dpt. I say attempt because I never made it a single day of liquids only....But............... it DID shift my eating habits and thoughts back to closer to where they should be. I attempted it again the following week, and I can't really even call it an attempt. pathetic really. So, I had thoughts of trying it again this week, and I ruined it with breakfast. My thought now are this..... I attempted something and failed. While I may have finally broken the soft stall with the attempt and lost 3.2 lbs in one week.....I did in-fact lose that weight not by doing to the 5dpt, rather some sorry quasi excuse for it. And since I attempted something and I am obsessed with (the thought of) doing it. I am determined to do a two day liquid diet followed by the rest of the 5dpt......but I have to make it a whole day of liquid first. In the mean time, lots of obsessive thoughts followed by some really wild excuses and justifications. One minute i'm a glowing success story, on top of the world in my head,,,,,then the pendulum swings the other way and i'm a dismal failure. I feel like surely there has to be a pill for this!!! UGH Here's to getting into a 12 soon.....
  10. Thank You! I hope someone else can benefit too. I can't imagine that I am the only one freaking out "in the moment" and then seeing the truth on future reflection. It's not just weight related perceptions..... its time, portion size, food type, the face in the mirror, the "size" of my pants, the "size or weight" of other people in comparison to myself....the list goes on and on. I'm coming to realize and believe that the perceptions obese people have are REALLY skewed and have very little to do with reality. But then again, a great quote.... "perception IS reality" so I think that's why we are so screwed up mentally and possibly a good deal of the "why" we BECAME overweight....which brings me to...... which came first.... the faulty reality or the obesity...??????? The chicken and the egg don't matter....they are both protein that I need to eat.....LOL .... Blah ha ha ha
  11. STOP... drop the bread.... put your hands behind your head ... and back away from the loaf!!!! Seriously, you don’t need all that &$$(()$. You can get all the “fiber“ you need from vegetables. Now that I’m six months out, and I understand what my sleeve is about, I can say this with confidence. Since the moment I was off stage 1 liquid diet, I have been eating one bite of vegetables for every bite of protein. Bite of chicken, bite of zucchini, bite of chicken, bite of zucchini… Etc. All of those carbs are going to ruin your weight loss, and you’re still not gonna be able to poop right. Cooked vegetables, steamed vegetables, sautéed vegetables, Raw Vegetables… Forget shredded wheat… Buy the little chewable fiber wafers, Costco size MiraLAX, and vegetable laxative. Just like your sleeve, you’re going to have to get to know your new colon. If anything, you can get your protein in places other than your food if necessary, so eat, eat, eat those vegetables, and stay away from cheese and flour. This is going to be a little long but here’s your science lesson for the day, as it was explained to me by a doctor.… here goes..... Your your mouth‘s job is to start the primary breakdown of food, the stomach’s job is to break down the food further, your small intestines job is to extract nutrients, and your large intestines job is to extract water…. Slow down and really think about what I’m about to say… The more processed and the more refined a Food stuff is before you put it in your mouth, the less work your digestive system has to do and the harder it will be to poop. Let’s take a raw carrot for example... your teeth really have to work to break down that carrot, it’s so hard that your stomach can’t do too much more to break it down, your small intestine will pull out as much nutrients as possible… But since it’s so hard the Carrot moves through quickly.... now the carrot hits the large intestine and since it’s still chunks of Carrot It can’t pull out too much water so the carrot moves through quickly. Now as this Carrot is moving through quickly, it is taking a lot of the other food in your intestines with it… And you have a bowel movement rather quickly from the time it entered your mouth, to the time it exits your body. Now let’s take a hostess mini chocolate covered cake donut for example. Flour is not a food... It is a food by product. If we can started as A grain of wheat. And that tiny little grain Went through a looong process of pulverization after being cooked, and the end product looks nothing like the original. To take that even further, Cake flour is more refined than regular flour, the particles are a finer dust. So when you put it in your mouth, your teeth don’t have to do anything to break down that grain of wheat, and your stomach doesn’t really have to do anything either, other than to let your gastric juices moisten that dust and turn it into paste. Then it goes into your small intestine, where it moves rather slowly as the intestine tries to find nutrients that don’t exist. Then it sits in your large intestine having every last molecule of moisture being pulled out....because it CAN, so as it sits there, and sits there, and sits there… It is literally being turned into a brick. Now as it’s trying to exit your body, you were having to put forth a great deal of effort to expel it… And you are putting a great amount of force on the walls of your final bit of intestine, and that force is also being put on the veins in the area. A hemorrhoid is nothing more than a varicose vein on/in your patootie. I am myself, had 12 inches each, of two veins, completely removed. That’s how far up inside my colon, I had been putting pressure on those walls, trying to extract, a plate full of Colby cheddar and three mini donuts!!! So now that we have that information, you will never look at a loaf of white rainbow bread the same way again! And while a whole grain slice of bread is better than a slice of refined white bread, keep in mind that all of those “whole grains” Are surrounded by refined flour that just so happens to be Brown. And it is brown because, in the processing of that wheat, they stopped short of the last step of bleaching it. To add insult to the injury of a lifetime trying to expel whatever food stuffs we put in our mouth, most of the women here, had already previously put the maximum amount of pressure achievable in “that” area, when we gave birth to a minimum of one child. And while we may have healed to the naked eye, on a cellular level, that damage is still there. Now add to that....after bariatric surgery we are not to drink for a half hour after eating. I understand the "bariatric" need for this rule, BUT.... now you have even less water IN the food at the time it hits the critical larger colon....less water to extract...means it will sit there longer trying to exctract what isn't there, creating a BRICK! So now I will repeat my advice. Lay off all of those “fiber “ carbs. Get the benefiber chewable wafers, Some generic Senokot, and a lifetime supply of MiraLAX. Stop eating “all”your protein first, and instead eat it at a 1 to 1 ratio with your vegetables. Get a good balance of raw vegetables and cook vegetables. Get some flavorless protein powder to put a little in all your liquids (coffee, tea, soup, pudding etc), and/or Half to a full bottle of Premier protein as needed to get your 60 g of protein a day. You have two primary goals in life now… Number one you must always be able to poop, what goes in....absolutely MUST come out. And number two, don’t screw up your sleeve surgery and put weight back on, because the rest of your body needs you to not be sick... as we all know obesity comes with a very long list of co-morbidities! And doctors… Bless their little hearts… Don’t friggin know everything! Right After my hemorrhoidectomy, I was brought a cup of coffee, a banana and a croissant… Oh yeah… And a whole bunch of Vicodin ! Oh yeah, and on that note, for the rest of your life, when you are given pain meds, suck it up and get off of them as quick as possible, Nothing will constipate you like a little bit of opioids! I ended up back in the hospital 4 days after Hemorrhoidectomy surgery, having two nurses give me a 3 gallon hot soapy water enema to, again, help me go poop.... !!!! It was after that that I took my bowel movements into my own hands and left nothing to chance. I took a senekot and 15 FiberCon capsules a day for the better part of a year! Problem is...after bariatric surgery, I don’t think it’s a good idea to take fiber pills. The risk of them swelling and causing a different kind of blockage is too great. Raw veggies are your new bff. ps, i had to edit this as I dictated it with siri....god bless her...but she has no idea what a carrot is!
  12. So this WLS journey sure can be an interesting ride! I’ve been thinking lately about our F’d up perceptions in relation to reality. A lifetime of dieting, self hatred, restrictions, punishment, giving up, binging.... you name it... we are f'd up. case in point...the above quote. I am now days away from being 6mos post op, and looking back, I don't recall THAT "stall". I have been one that has weighed myself everyday for almost a I looked it up on my weight log. The log showed no stall..... hmmmmmmm. A mystery that requires a better memory than mine. I looked in my scale ap, and there it is 12 days of the same weight. now it's been a minute since I was in kindergarten, but I know a week only has 7 days. If my weekly weight log shows NO stall, how could I be the same weight for 12 days? The ap doesn't lie, and neither does my weight log. So how could both be true? That's when it hit me..... I started that weekly log BECAUSE of that stall. All I had been doing at that point was looking at my daily weight, and I was just too close to the action to see the magic. Once I picked a day....sunday...and went back to write down all my sunday weights since surgery..... I saw that in fact I was/am losing a pound a week...and that above mini melt down was for nothing. Once I started my weekly log, (still weigh daily) I could see that the "stall" was just the regular daily ups and downs with a little more down than up Then I hit a REAL hard stall at week 19 that lasted 3 weeks, but if you asked me at the time, I was saying 6 weeks! the second 3 weeks was a soft stall of severe ups and downs. I broke through that and now things are moving along. But, I'm not holding my breath. I had to get real with myself about my eating, that my surgery honeymoon was over, and that it is now up to me to put in the work and quit relying on the surgery alone to lose weight. And lately I have been thinking really hard about only weighing once a week. I'm addicted to the ritual of weighing daily, so I'm trying to get ok with it in my head first, or maybe just diving in head first..... I don't know, probably something I should talk to my therapist about first before finding myself in some crisis ptsd attack.... still thinking..... This REALLY is a mind game, and a long one at that! So here are my REAL (not perceived) stats since surgery: starting weight 230, surgery weight 215.4 month 1 - 19 lbs month 2 - 6.4 lbs month 3 - 5.2 lbs month 4 - 2.8 lbs month 5 - 3.2 lbs month 6 - 4.6 lbs I've lost 55lbs since the begining and 40.4 lbs since surgery. I've gone from a 3x shirt to a L/XL, and from size 22 pants to size14 (and...just squeezed into a pair of 12's last night )
  13. AliPat

    New Sleeve

    Welcome aboard! it all gets better and in no time you will forget all the discomfort. Soon enough you will "desire" food.... only to find out, just because you're "allowed" to eat something....doesn't mean your body will let you. AND the other sharp edge of the sword....things you're not supposed to eat, your body will tolerate. but once you start dropping will all be worth it!
  14. Oh my.... I know what you are going through, or better yet, what you are going to go through for the rest of your life. If you remember, what first brought me here to TT was to find out what I could take Before WLS to ensure I would poop After WLS..... I too had a hemroidectomy (double to be exact) 16ys ago . Mine was VERY invasive, and it took a year before I could poop normally. I have NEVER again looked at cheese with the same adoration that I once had. Every bite of cheese requires 1oz broccoli chaser. steer clear of refined white flour to the best of your ability (if not, your body WILL punish you) EVERYthing that goes in my mouth has to pass a litmus test..... "if it goes in.....will it come out?" If you have any questions about it....I'm here for you. HUGS
  15. AliPat

    Confused Eating/Drinking

    the "bloated/swollen" belly may be from the air they filled your abdomen with so they could see/move around easily while in there, combined with gas produced inside your intestinal track. try some liquid gasx. As for the water retention probably need to MOVE around more and then get your feet up when you're sitting. it will eventually go away. I felt like i had alot of fluid retention in my belly, even though I was dropping a pound a day for the first 14 days. I'm the queen of "fear of poop related issues" and miralax has saved my butt (pun intended) many times since surgery. My first two BM's after surgery went ok, the next two....almost required intervention, and that is when i started with miralax. I forgot to take miralax with me to hawaii and barely lived to regret it. Never again. I put it in my morning coffee. as you can see, we are all a bit different, yet somehow it is all normal PS...welcome aboard!