CheeringCJ

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About CheeringCJ

  • Rank
    TT Master
  • Birthday 10/04/1966

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  • Gender
    Female
  • Location
    NJ
  • Age
    52

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  • Height (ft-in)
    5-04
  • Start Weight
    241.5
  • Current Weight
    156.4
  • Goal Weight
    170
  • Body Mass Index (BMI)
    26.9
  • Surgery Date
    11/06/2017
  • Surgery Type
    Vertical Sleeve

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  1. CheeringCJ

    11 months.....

    Thanks for reminding me how fastatic I have done....and that darned time line I am forcing upon myself is kicking me in the gut! I should be kinder to myself (since I would tell you all that too!)
  2. CheeringCJ

    11 months.....

    I love how you think!!! Thanks for the perspective!!! I AM 150....if I could just get the 8# of skin off...haha! Love it! That old diet mentality is really a bugger!!! Arrrgh!
  3. CheeringCJ

    11 months.....

    That is the funny part, Jen, I DO know the pep-talk I need and I could give it, I just can’t receive it. I don’t know what is wrong with me..I just have to get beyond this funk! 1. I know I DID great, I just want to continue to DO great 2. I know it isn’t the end, yet it “feels” like it is...totally irrational I know. 3. I did and I should be super psyched. If the old me was sitting in my place a year ago today I’d slap myself for being so hard on me for still being 157!!! Right??? Geesh, how silly is that? 4. I AM. You are so right! I had new students come in to campus today and I had booked a computer lab for them and I had to get to one that was way down the row and the rows are very close, yet, I easily went right down and didn’t even worry I wouldn’t fit! I also had to go to my clinical simulation labs for a class I run and they needed to practice taking vitals....mine are AWESOME....116/68, 62 BPM, and 12 resp! And I wasn’t afraid of the scale....all very very very different than last year at this time! 5. I guess the old dieting mentality dies hard! 6. Pat given! Thanks for reminding me!
  4. CheeringCJ

    11 months.....

    Thanks, Tracy. I should do that, I will go back and read my journey so i can be proud of it and not be annoyed w/ my lack of progress at the moment. Thanks for the advice!
  5. CheeringCJ

    11 months.....

    So I hit 11 months this week...and it is a surreal feeling. For some reason (probably because I am motivated by results!) I am very driven by my 1 yr surgiversary....and I am not thinking that is a good thing! I guess it goes back to my dieting days where you needed to lose a certain amount of weight by a certain function (reunion/wedding/vacation/etc) and when you were drawing closer but not making it, you gave up knowing “it’s never going to happen so why keep trying?”. I have that very feeling this month and in keeping it real, I am sharing it with you! Part of me is motivated by that “Golden First Year” crap (as if I will wake up on Nov 7th much like Cinderella at 12:01 with the realization that all the magic is done and though it was a great ride, it is over). Which is really just ridiculous (which is what the other half of me is trying to convince the irrational half!). As if my body had an alarm clock placed in it last November that would go off in one year and grind all weight loss to a halt! However, you can’t convince my irrational half that that isn’t true and that “it’s over when the fat lady comes back” in Nov!!!! Such weird mind games that go on in a previously fat, desperate not to back brain! There are days I wish I had had a lobotomy last November also! Here’s the stupid thing....last year I was so gung-ho and couldn’t wait to start this journey, hoping desperately to get to the 170 pounds my surgeon “promised” me in the first year!!! I couldn’t wait to be 170 this November so I could be the lowest I have been since 1989!!!! Life was going to be GREAT!!! Then I hit 170 way early (just into my 7th mo) and was over the moon excited. I saw my surgeon and he was excited and said go for more, so I felt like it was a guarantee and secretly decided I’d be 150 by my surgiversary. Now that is such a stretch because I was that when i got married over 34 yrs ago and it was unlikely i could get to (and maintain) my high school weight when i was in my 50s! But I had seen so many superstars here do it and be wildly successful at it. So here I sit at 11 months post surgery fretting over the fact i am STILL 157!!!! As if that was a curse or something. Last year it was going to be a BLESSING to be at 170 and now my mind sees 157 as a PLAGUE! What is wrong with my head? Geesh, get a grip! I want to rejoice for myself and yet I am stressed over the whole thing and I don’t want to be (which is the worst part, I want to talk myself out of the discouragement I feel and yet I can’t seem to do it right yet). I was thinking this weekend how I could really ramp things up and still make 150 by 11/6 but then the sober part of my head said “as if!!!” and I gave up my plans to head to the gym! (Ugh, this girl has got to stop sabotaging herself!). So.....how stupid of me to be this way, right? And the dumb thing is if I was here all the time like I used to be and one of you said what I am saying, I’d be the first to jump on the bandwagon and talk them off the ledge bc I know what reality is and I can easily point someone to theirs but I can’t seem to find my own! I am hoping it is a temporary insanity and I will get a grip (especially after 11/7 and I don’t instantly turn back into a morbidly obese person so I can just get on with my life as a new normal person!) This month I did have good things happen....I went down to 155 by losing 2.8# in one week...the week I started strength training....i lost ounces every single day and it was awesome like before. Then I went away for a long weekend and i’ve been working late at work and been so super busy and skipping my lunches (where I walk 1.5-1.75 miles every day) and not making it to the gym or if so, just for 15 mins! So I know if I buckle down I can get that momentum back I just have to do it (right, Nike?!?). I did still lose inches though I didn’t lose weight (I did lose weight but went back up to 158 and got back down to 157 but am stuck there now). The inches I lost weren’t phenomenal but at least i am still shrinking slightly. So how is that for a “cheering” cj inspiring post? *Sigh*. Just so you know i am not giving up, i am just not feeling it (which really is scary bc feelings got me into this mess in the first place). I am trying to be rational and not eat my feelings but it is clear how irrational i am that i am upset at my victory not being bigger when it is actually BIGGER than my dr had ”promised”! Gee, I need to slap myself upside my head and force me back in to reality!
  6. CheeringCJ

    It finally happened.....

    I sooooo get that! I HATE the word skinny as much as I HATE fat!!! I don’t like judgements like that EVER!
  7. CheeringCJ

    34”

    So i went to my PCP last night and she was thrilled with my progress of course, but best of all, I was having my work PE and one of the things they measure is waist circumference and for women it needs to be 35” or under, and my previous 50”+ waist was now only 34” so I MADE it into normal and healthy!!!!! Just had to brag!
  8. CheeringCJ

    What brand of yogurt do you all like

    I get ONLY Greek yogurt bc I like the extra protein. I also look for lower carbs in it. I like the Great Value 80-90 calorie Greek yogurts from walmart (my favs are coconut/vanilla and peach) and they are only 76 cents!
  9. CheeringCJ

    It finally happened.....

    I know you didn’t enjoy the comment you were dreading BUT really, inside soak it up! When in your life were you EVER called TOO SKINNY??? Enjoy it a little (they are probably jealous and for once you ARE the skinny one and they aren’t so savor it for a moment!)
  10. CheeringCJ

    What Are You Wearing Today?

    You are so stinkin’ skinny now, @Cardamom77!!! Can you believe it, you’re a totally new woman?!?!
  11. CheeringCJ

    Six month anniversary

    AWESOME!!!!! 100# ago, did you think you’d ever be a runner???
  12. CheeringCJ

    Super Saturday at all Goodwills in my area...check yours

    I went to 3 of them and ended up with tons of new clothes! I needed all new pants as mine are way too big so. They were $4 so they came to $2 except one that had a purple tag was already marked down so it came to 75% off (just $1.00!!!) I even got a few that were too small so i can work my way down to them. I got a new jacket too and quite a few new sweaters (all $2). My husband always loved thrift shops but I was never a fan...and now he laughs bc I am there longer than he is....he has to wait for me to finish! I just go through the racks and look for brands at the top...anything Ann Taylor LOFT, or J Crew, or Banana Republic, etc, I just pull off the rack and check out. I get lots of sizes (try them on)....L, M and S...but mostly M (I got 2 larges and one small today, the rest were M). I never liked clothes before but now I can’t get enough!
  13. All the goodwills in my tristatearea are having 50% off EVERYTHING today only. See if yours does and go check out smaller clothes ;)
  14. CheeringCJ

    I fell down and went boom, but it all worked out...

    You are now a girl of NO. EXCUSES!!!!! You don’t give up for ANYthing now,, do you???? You are amazing! Congrats!
  15. CheeringCJ

    Century Club Day!

    Wow!!! What you’ve accomplished in such a short time is nothing short of amazing!!!! Congrats on the 100#!!!! You are one incredible woman...and YOU, my friend, ARE one one of the TT heroes yourself!!! Also i am curious, is that from an app or did you have to think it all out and figure it out with real MATH?