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About Kio

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  • Birthday April 9

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    Boston area
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  • Surgeon
    Scott Shikora
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    Brigham & Women's
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  • Surgery Type
    Gastric Bypass

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  1. @CheeringCJ got it all right! I had zero problems from my gall bladder removal, and haven’t noticed any differences afterwards - except the lovely lack of pain!!! My doc was really happy with how easy the surgery was. And my weight is still totally stable! I don’t eat any differently (but I was eating really well before, so there’s that. )
  2. Hi, welcome! Congrats on knowing your surgery date! What are you planning to do over the summer while you get ready for it? Just a suggestion, but maybe start a blog here to share how you're feeling about your life and your body right now. It's been almost two years since surgery for me, and now that I'm almost at goal, I find that I sometimes struggle to remember what my life was like back then. I mean, a part of you will never, ever forget. But the details do start to blur, and I wish I'd written more about myself then to make sure I always remember to be grateful for (and vigilant with) my new self.
  3. You look amazing, Trish! Just look at that narrow waist! And you're on your feet! GO YOU! I've broken into the medium size range myself recently, doesn't it feel awesome? I know it's problematic - we really shouldn't let the sizes and numbers on the scale control us the way they always seem to - but after a lifetime of only seeing the big sizes and big numbers, it's just really great to get that validation of being "normal," isn't it? We are middle-range average-type ladies! =D I find that I'm actually embracing the form-fitting factor. I never thought I would, but I tend to go for the fitted look more often than not these days. I bet you'd STILL look amazing in something that conforms along the waist line and down over your hips. Just a thought!
  4. I've been saving some up! For a while I was a little - I don't want to say disheartened, but maybe resigned? Because I felt like my weight had bottomed out, and I wasn't going to lose any more, and I wasn't 100% happy with my clothing sizes. Even though I was wearing a size I hadn't been in since college - at that size in college, I'd already felt like I was overweight. So it has been a super happy surprise to learn that my sizes are still changing! I felt for a while like my pants were getting a bit baggy, and even my smallest shirts were a little shapeless. So I took a risk and ordered a whole bunch of Eddie Bauer long-sleeved t-shirts in Medium, and they FIT ME PERFECTLY. It's actually kind of amazing! They've got a close fitted shape through the waist and make me look really narrow there. I LOVE IT. And I honestly can't remember the last time I wore a medium in ANYTHING. So, that done, I thought I might as well see what was happening in the land of blue jeans... my 14's had been feeling a bit baggie in the butt, too. So I tried on a bunch of stuff at Target the other day, starting at size 12. Which was TOO BIG!!! I actually walked out with three pairs of jeans and one pair of shorts, a mix of size 10 and a couple of size 8s!!! If you'd told me before surgery that I would ever in my life be able to fit into a pair of size 8 pants and a medium t-shirt I would still be laughing today. But here I am, totally comfy in them, and it's just the best feeling in the world. My scale only goes down every now and then these days, but the NSVs keep coming! It's probably related to all the time I'm putting in on the treadmill. We have a treadmill desk, and about 3 weeks ago I started using it really regularly while I'm doing anything I would normally sit down for. Reading, writing, watching TV... I just hop on and go. I don't go very fast at all, because at higher speeds it's hard to type. I usually go 1.5 mph for just hanging out and doing stuff, and around 2.5-2.7 mph for watching tv or seriously working on exercise. Most days, I get in around 2, maybe 3 hours of walking that way. Which is an NSV in itself for a lady who could barely make it to the kitchen and back two years ago!!!
  5. Given the time they went down and the time they came back up, I suspect there was just a glitch on the servers sometime Thursday, and nobody was around until this morning to notice and fix it - thanks to Good Friday.
  6. I'm so glad it's back, I was in withdrawal all weekend! I even went to a few other forums just to read, and it was not a great experience. TTF is the BEST.
  7. Sooooo adorable!!! Can't wait till we get ours, whatever type of mutt she may be - but we're looking at August now, since our reno doesn't start till mid-May. I guess that will just give us a lot of time to make sure we get the right fur kid.
  8. Emotional eating is something that always seems to be waiting there for me. I'm so, so grateful that my WLS gave me space between my "want this" and "get this" and "eat this" to think about my choices. That doesn't mean I always make the right choices - sometimes I really, really don't. But I always know what I'm doing now, and I think that makes it easier to get back to good, when I need to. I struggled with this a lot when I lost Sadie - some of it was just sadness, but also guilt, because she was my dad's before mine, and his greatest worry was whether someone would take care of her when he was gone. I managed it for a while - but not as long as any of us would have liked. Plus, animals just grow on you - they make you theirs just like you make them yours. There's really no way to avoid falling in love with them, is there? It will take time but it will get easier. And I agree that another fur-face to love can help the process, when the time comes! We're on that path ourselves - just waiting until our Summer of Renovation is over before we bring a new pup into the mix. I think we're also looking at a non-puppy sort of pup - maybe around 6 months to a year - because we're not as young as we used to be, and chasing after a puppy is hard work!!! I'm thinking of you, and wishing you lots of good memories without too much sadness. *hug*
  9. Kio

    well hey!

    Hey, @bellamoma - so sorry to hear about the ongoing GERD issues. The regain sucks too, but if it's partly muscle you probably DO need it! And it will help you ward off any greater regain, so there's that, too. Just wanted to say, as a person who had such severe GERD before bypass that I had Barrett's Esophagus (precursor to cellular changes that MIGHT have led to cancer) - it's really nothing to mess around with. It absolutely ruled out the sleeve for me (I went in knowing that, and my surgeon told me he wouldn't have done a sleeve for me under those circumstances anyway.) And I'm kind of glad, because a sleeve would have been my first choice and I think for me, it would have been the wrong choice. I know revision surgery is serious business, but if it's what it takes to get you off the acid meds, I think you should go for it. As you said, ongoing GERD meds are nothing to play around with, and ongoing GERD is such a horrible and stressful thing to deal with anyway. I remember that misery well, and you deserve a better life than that!!!
  10. So glad to hear the new post-op is going well! I'm heading that way myself eventually - a little too much droop in the arms and chest area to be comfortable most days (though I do have this one amazing bra that helps immensely with the chest part . Sadly there's no such thing (that I have found) as a "triceps bra!"
  11. Aww, thanks, Jen! I'll take it! I feel like I'm in a good place, too. Even when I slide off the wagon, I feel like the wagon is right beside me, waiting for me to jump right back on. Before, the wagon would just keep going when I got off, and after a while it would be so far ahead, it felt pointless to try to catch up! You know, the funny thing about this place is that even when I'm not posting daily, I'm still thinking about it daily. It kind of gets in your head! You guys are like my better angels, sitting on my shoulder and keeping me on the right path. It's really awesome to have so many great friends and such amazing support here!
  12. Thank you!! And yes, it's SO much better! It's like a whole world of worry and stress (and emotional distress) I don't have to have sitting on top of my OTHER life worries. Work is still stressful, but it's not "Oh I have to go to the office and do work AND I'm going to be in pain+look awful in my clothes+be too tired+eat all kinds of crap I shouldn't to deal with the stress"... it's just "ugh, time going to the office is time not doing my own fun things"... and then I move on with life.
  13. Hard to believe it's been such a long time since I last updated! I never meant to let a month go by without posting here. WLS was such a huge point of change and disruption in my life (in the best possible way) that I didn't think there would ever come a time that I didn't need to talk about it endlessly. But truth - after a while, the machinery of normal life grinds on, and other priorities begin to reassert themselves. At 19 months out, I feel pretty evenly-keeled about my surgery and post-surgical experience. I have a lot fewer questions these days. I have a pretty firm grasp of how my new digestive system works, and how to manage its little quirks. I do still need this place - it's a touchstone for me, a reminder to keep doing what I'm supposed to do, a reminder that I didn't set out on this path alone and don't have to travel it alone. I think I'll kind of always need it. But I don't check in multiple times a day anymore - or even every single day. I think that's a good thing, because some of those check-ins were out of fear. Now, I mostly check in because I miss you guys, and because I want to help answer questions for n00bs, and because I want to know how everybody is doing. I can still say this, though - even though I'm not here every day, my WLS is still almost always at the forefront of my mind. I'm thinking about it when I get out of bed (easily) in the morning, when I go to sleep (without my CPAP machine) at night, when I put on my medium-sized clothes for the day, when I look at my new thin body in the mirror, when I'm on minute 20 of a long hot shower because it doesn't hurt me anymore to stand up that long, when I park at the back of a parking lot or walk into a mall for a few hours of shopping, when I'm first out in the morning to grab the snowblower and spend a few hours cleaning off the driveway, when I'm walking up and down the stairs without holding on, when I jog from one room to another for no reason... there's literally no part of my life now that doesn't remind me that I am a new, happier, healthier, stronger person. Maybe that will fade someday, but at 19 months out... it's still front and center, all the time. With regards to weight loss, things are still going well for me. I see you guys who had surgery around the same time I did sneaking off into the Maintenance Cafe, and I'm jealous! But I'm not quite there yet, myself. I toy with the idea sometimes - I'm at a weight that I could be happy maintaining long-term - but I'm just not quite ready to call it yet. I'd really like to make it to the goal in my sidebar (140# - normal BMI for me) -- which is arbitrary, super ambitious, and probably not a great weight for me to maintain long term... but which I'd like to see at least once before I say I'm done. Getting into the numbers: In September 2018, at my last update, I was 173#. My weight loss has been slowing down as I go, and at that time, I was fairly sure I wasn't actually going to lose much more. But today I weigh in at 158#, so as slow as the going feels lately, it's still actually going. From my highest recorded weight, around April/May 2017, I'm down 197# total. I can't believe I'm within 3# of losing 200 total -- that number just feels insane! And I'm down 15# since my last "official" weigh in, which at this point was about 7 months ago. (I no longer compare my weight to my sister's, because I'm now 12# less than the last weight of hers that I knew for sure. I feel like I officially live in crazy-world - I'm the smallest/lightest person in my household, and the new designated "person who does all the hard stuff" like climbing, lifting, mowing, snowblowing, etc.) In terms of how it works... after the first couple of crazy loss months after surgery, I used to have a "loss week" each month. I'd maintain within a pound either way of a number for three weeks, and then in the 4th week I'd drop everything I was going to drop for that month. I don't really know when loss is going to happen now. It doesn't seem to happen on a schedule. It's more like... I hit 169, and was pretty happy. Then a while later I realized I'd hit 166, and that was nice, and then I went back up to 168. Then a while later, surprise, 165. It's just sort of a two steps down, one step up kind of thing - but the trend is still generally down. (Honestly - I suspect I may STILL have one loss week a month- but the losses are so small, maybe just a pound or two, that they can easily be masked by how much water and salt I consume on any given day. It doesn't mean it's not happening, just that it's harder to see exactly when.) As for what I'm doing... I still weigh myself basically every day, and I still record new "low" weights here for my signature and my profile/sidebar. The only time I'll skip a day is if I know I won't see a loss - generally if I've had any kind of a "splurge" the day before, like on a holiday or something. I find the scale keeps me honest, and helps me decide how strict I'm going to be with carbs on any given day. I still eat mostly on program, but I do have periods of a day to a couple of days where I'll vary the percentage of nutrients in favor of carbs. It's not exactly optimal, but my keto days far outweigh my non-keto days, and I feel like I'm still on track. I've eaten some stuff I shouldn't have, but I'm proud to say that none of those things are Doritos or Mike & Ike's . And I still can't eat very MUCH, which is a blessing. So when I do go a little overboard, it's kind of like... falling out of the boat into shallow end of the kiddie pool, instead of into the ocean. Yesterday, for instance - as a treat, we went out for lunch, and I ordered a grilled cheese sandwich and a bag of chips. Then I cut the crust off the sandwich so it was actually a pretty tiny sandwich, and maybe ate 3 or 4 chips, and felt totally satisfied and full. It's not something I would do as anything other than a rare treat, but it didn't trigger cravings or set me off on a crazy carb spiral, so I'm not too worried about it. Most days are still the usual - coffee with Fairlife, protein bar or shake, yogurt and/or cottage cheese for the daytime... and then something mostly protein for dinner. I find that having a "usual" makes the usual that much easier to get back to. (My nutritionist is fine with all this, but would like me to incorporate more fruits and veggies into my meals. I haven't quite managed to do that yet. Maybe it'll be easier now with summer coming - that is prime fruit and veggie time! ) For most of the winter, I honestly didn't get a lot of exercise in. I stopped going to the gym or using the treadmill, and only did outside walks on really nice days - which are few and far between in Massachusetts winters. But I've been doing more lately - mostly on the treadmill. For the past couple of weeks, I've been doing long and slow walks while I either work, or watch stuff on TV, or read. By "long" I mean I spend 1-2 hours on the treadmill (usually divided into 2 sessions if I do 2 hours), and anywhere from 1.7-2.5 mph depending on how hard I'm working. I like it - it keeps me off my butt. As I've said here many times, the one failure of my WLS is that it did not make me magically less lazy! My commitment to exercise is still half-hearted at best. Other good stuff, though: I had gall bladder surgery recently, which relieved a lot of sort of ongoing stomach pain. I had my WLS surgeon do it, and in my pre-op appointment I was stunned when he pointed out to his little student doctor person that it would be far easier to do this surgery on me now, because I'm now normal-sized (NORMAL SIZED?! YES. THAT IS WHAT HE SAID!!!) I can walk as long as I want and as far as I want now, without pain (except a touch of foot arthritis, which is a lot more manageable than it used to be). And it it occurred to me just the other morning that I was just BOUNCING out of bed in the mornings - literally bouncing off the edge and onto my feet! This compared to the many, many overweight years where I would swing my legs carefully to the side and sort of slide to my feet, testing all the way for pain and balance. For any of you out there still in your decision-making phase, I can truthfully say that my life is unimaginably better now than it was before surgery. You know that saying - that money can't buy happiness, but it makes misery a lot easier to bear? I feel that way about my WLS. Being smaller hasn't magically solved all my life's problems - but it does make ALL of my life problems a hell of a lot easier to face!!! And now finally, because it's been so long... here's proof-of-life, from about a week ago.
  14. Sorry, @tracyringo - I've been away a bit and just saw this. Before surgery, I didn't have problems with anything. I could eat a 3-egg omelette or a huge plate of scrambled eggs and never worry about it. Now it's mostly white meat chicken and eggs and tuna that give me issues. I would say mostly the white chicken, because just recently I've found I can eat tuna or a single scrambled egg if I'm careful about it (lots of mayo on the tuna; soft-scramble the egg with a bit of cream and add a bunch of cheese). Definitely still a learning process, and definitely still a process...
  15. Kio

    still here!

    Yeah, and it's especially a mistake for those of us who lose a ton of weight, right!? Clearly mine just could no longer be bothered with doing the fairly simple, mundane task alotted to it!