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About leigha

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  • Birthday 03/21/1986

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    Seattle, Washington
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    TV, Reading, Tarot
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    Dr. Brian Sung
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  1. leigha

    I DO Take 2

    I didn't end up being able to wear my orginal wedding dress so I go a different dress, I am at work right now and I can't upload any pics through my work computer so when I get home today or tomorrow I will upload some new Ones.
  2. Mercy y'all.. I hadn't realized that I haven't been on in a while! I am so sorry! I switched jobs about a month ago. I LOVE IT but I am working crazy hours

    1. rt21212


      how are you doing?

  3. leigha

    I DO Take 2

    So I have started my new job and I LOVE it. I now work at an involuntary evaluation and treatment center. It is basically a psych ward. I do admits and discharges. I have lost 117lbs and and 3 lbs away from being under 300lbs. I have been going to the gym regularly and swimming. Aside from my back hurting I am starting to feel like I have a new lease on life. Yesterday while at the gym my trainer put me on a leg press and put it at 320lbs and said "Hey that is more than what you weight now!" That was surreal, so she wanted me to leg press my former weight of 419lbs, I did it, it was hard. She wanted to try too so she sat her small self down and pressed with all her might and couldn't move the press. She just looked at me and said I don't know how you carried all that weight around. Neither do I, but I did for years. My tenth wedding anniversary is in a couple of weeks, 10 years ago we didn't have any money so we don't really have any quality wedding photos. Literally there isn't one picture of us both facing the camera. A couple of weeks ago I was able to FIT into my dress! I wore it around the house for like an hour. So I have contacted a photographer, she did family photos in December and let her know what I want to do. She is excited and I am in planning mode. On my wedding day I went to get my hair done and came out looking like a alien, my hair was pulled so tight. I ended up going home after and using baking soda to pull all the hair spray out. and then just wore my hair straight and down. This time I want to do victory rolls, my hair is red now, and used to be brown, so I think the dramatic hair will rock! I am planning to do a classic cat eye and red popping lips. I am making a few mementos for our pictures too so that we have a prop in the photos that show 10 years. I am so excited to have this opportunity My work schedule is weird so I am not on as much as I used to be, but know that I am rooting for each one of you and here if you need me!.
  4. you look great! keep up the excellent work!
  5. so close to being under 300lbs!

  6. I am loving my new job in the psych ward. I am up and moving alot...last year I wouldn't have accepted the job, when I was 419lbs I would have wanted a sit down job.

  7. leigha

    Back Pain

    So Ive lost 112lbs since I started this journey. I joined a gym and started working out and swimming almost everyday. I put all my vitamins into a pill organizer in an effort to take everything I need to in a day. A couple of weeks ago my back started hurting. It has gotten progressively worse and more difficult to bare. I can't stand to sit for a long period of time and if I am laying down I have to move almost every few minutes. I called my PCP and he gave me a very mild muscle relaxer with instructions to continue the stretching I was already doing and apply heat 3 times a day for 10 mins. Nothing has helped. I am going to the dr this afternoon. I am almost certian it has everything to do with the fact that I have lost so much weight so rapidly and my back is trying to figure out why it is not having to support a 400+ lb person anymore. I am so tired of my back hurting, it has kept me from doing the things I want to at the gym, I most do a standing foam roll to releive the pain and pressure in my back. It is my middle and lower back that is hurting. I have scheduled my first ever chiropractor appt for next week as well. I just don't know what to do with the new pain, it is not something I have ever had a problem with. If you guys and gals have had similar situations or have any addiontal advice I would be very grateful!
  8. Started a new job this week sorry haven't been on much I have been training !

    1. rt21212
    2. leigha


      thank you I think I am really going to like it. I have way more time to focus on myself since it is now a part time job.

    3. wyominggirl
  9. leigha

    Body Dysmorphia

    I'm starting to understand body dysmorphic disorder. Being a 419lb woman I never thought I was as big as I was. When I see the pictures now there is more pain than I like to think about. I look at my old pictures when I thought I felt beautiful, and now I just see how delusional I was. I have always been a big person. I softened the term to fat and sassy. However, now being smaller and starting to "fit in" to society I realize that I was a few pounds away from a "my 600lb life" episode. How did I get that far gone? One thing that I have noticed since I have lost weight and my ability to eat is lets say compromised is that I know I can't run to food, I want to, but I know I can't do it. So I get angry. My temper has been ingnited to the millionth degrees. I try everyday to remain calm but when I look at what others are eating, so completely wreckless with no respect for what they are putting into their bodies, I almost lose it. To top it off I realize that I use to be that person. Now I am extremly cautious about what I am eating and drinkning. When my daughter wants something that is unhealthly I cringe and then have to talk to her about eating well and staying healthy. When did this world become so engrossed in food? When was it ok to just eat yourself into your grave? Why is there so many people that just don't care? All of this brings me to my real point. I have lost 109lbs, but when I look in the mirrior I still see they same big person I was. I see fat rolls and a slight double chin. I see how my upper arms are 22" in diameter and envy the wing span of a 737. Then there are moments, that I can see that I look different. Like, my stomach is not protruding anymore and I have a neck, but I lived so long in a body, say it day in and out that these changes while drastic to most people, pail in comparision to me. I want to so badly get passed the mammoth of a person I was. I haven't bought any new clothes, save some workout pants, underwear, and sports bras, but I don't currently own a pair of blue jeans that I can wear. I have one pair of black work pants that are almost too big, I've worn them since I was 419lbs. I don't know how I will bring myself to buy more clothes when I know I will have to wear near the same size. I have started wearing a 22/24, I came from a 30/32, but I can still wear the same clothes, they are loose and a little big, but I still can wear them. That to me is discouraging and plays into my body dysmorphia. I am just complaining, it is insane because there are so many people that want to have this surgery and can't because of lack of insurance coverage, complicated requirements, or lack of money. I should be grateful and know that I am 109lb less than I was last year. I don't have to use a motorized cart in the grocery store. I can walk a mile without dying, swim continuously for over 30 mins. I can jog up the stairs. I can tie my shoes, move the seat in my car without opening the door. I don't have diabetes or sleep apnea anymore. I have a new Lease on life, but living the same way for 29 years then dramatically changing it is alot more challenging than I ever bargained for. You can never be prepared for this, it is about how much you really want it and how you can teach yourself to respond a different way.
  10. I have Major Depressive Disorder, PTSD, and anxiety. It is true that it is even more heightened now that I have lost 109lbs. At first I thought my medication wasn't going to do it but I take the same thing I always have. There is a medicaition called Viibryd. It is not very popular, especially where I live, however it is my miracle drug. Without it I will and can not function like a respected human.If you haven't looked into that, you might try, anything is worth trying if it may possibly help. Best of luck!
  11. I thought about getting an IUD, but I just can't do the forigen object thing. I will tell you that in the last month I have had a period for all but 2 day! weightloss has cause my hormones to become out of whack.
  12. So my NSV ... my panties are too big for me, literally they fall off all the time. I went to the store and thought I grabbed 22/24 but when I got home I realized that I had gotten 18/20. I was like "well I'll fit into them eventually." Just for kicks I tried on a pair and THEY FIT. I almost passed out in the floor! Also Today I am wearing a shirt that I haven't worn since highschool 11 years ago! It is a 22/24... coming from a 30/32 its super exciting.!
  13. II am a very non-judgemental person, so I would never say that you don't want to hear what I think. I don't know if you are a follower of Christ, Budda, or Mana, so I couldn't begin to say "what your doing is wrong" . I live by a quote by Walt Whitman that says, "Re-examine everything you have been told and dimiss what insults your soul" The last thing a person needs to to feel judgment durning a extremly emotional time. So I would say, if it feels right in your soul then presue it. If any part of it "insults" you or hurts you then it is time to walk away. This is the time in your life to focus on yourself. Don't sell yourself short.
  14. I have noticed to that by hiney hurts more if I sit for a long period of time. It is true, I am losing the cushion and I can't stand it !