Esouza

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  1. Esouza

    Let's go surfing

    Sorry the event funneled guys. Had to do the rehab thing. It was bad until I just couldn't take it anymore. Talked to the doctors about it. I was blacking out after 2 drinks and I couldn't figure out what was happening. I became physically dependant and had the DT's and the whole thing. It took 3 weeks for the shakes and scatter brain to go away. According to the Docs I was having reverse tolerance to alcohol. My liver was being taxed and not functioning correctley to handle the alcohol. Thats why I was begining to blackout on so little and the DTs hit me hard even when I was cutting back. So.. long story short no booze for me anymore. After WLS I just can't handle it. We'll try again soon. I was in SD this weekend and the water was warm and waves perfect. I went to OB and walked on the beach. Nicw to be back home if only for a weekend. Talk to you guys soon.
  2. I shared this with anonther support group I'm with. There was great responses so I wanted to share this with you guys. In rehab I had an assignment and a presentation. It was a really short one but valueable. The assignment was to write and ad selling yourself like you would in the classifieds. The only paramiters was that it would have to be under 100 words and no negative statements. The focus was to get used to saying positive things about yourself. The one I presented is below. I invite you guys to write one about yourself and post it here. It really was thought provoking and made me see myself in a different light. Unbelieveable price on a human being. Male with cosmetic and mecanical flaws but easily repairable. Features: A child that any parent would love. A man that evey little girl dreams of marrying. An employee that every employer wishes for. A friend for a lifetime. Price: Just a chance, understanding, and patience.
  3. Esouza

    Let's go surfing

    Sorry to hear about the complications Marie. The revised List. Ed Jennifer Rain Rain's Daughter Brittany Nancy Sheri Joe
  4. Esouza

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    Is she hot? lol Joking Of course you can.
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    Bump... Anybody else want to join us at surf camp? For those of you that are going can I get a firm commitment from you? Thanks
  6. You know Marie you hit a lot of things right on the head. The PTS you talked about is pretty much the same with me mixed in with some other stuff. Pretty much just Borderline Personality Disorder. Going to therapy is the stuff. At least now I can understand where these emotions come from. For me I think I rely too much on others for an idenity. If people love me I love myself and when people don't like me I begin to question if I'm a good person or not. I know better and I'm working on it again. Someone told me yesterday that I was looking for victims to buy into my pity party. It was a terrible thing for someone to say. I reach out and ask for help and someone I trusted layed that on me. It weird because avoided help my whole life because I didn't want someone to see that weakness and use it against me. So it happens and I want to shrink back. Makes my stomach hurt to think about it. I began to wonder if I really do that. I keep working on it but like Barb I get tired of having to do the self help stuff all the time. I just want to sit back and breathe. Marie we've met a couple of times and I really didn't realize you had all that going on. I feel for ya but also I think you're doing such a great job getting thru it and sharing with others. Take care peeps. Ed
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  8. Esouza

    Let's go surfing

    ok.. Here it is. I booked a group of 10 for 1pm on July 21. We can meet at the surf shop at 12:35 so we can pay and sign waivers. The surf shop is called Surfari and its located at Mission Beach. It's $50 a piece and just bring a bathing suit and a towel. The address is below. Surfari 3750 Mission Blvd 858-337-3287 Talk to Rick if you questions or you can PM me for my Cell # Take care peeps Ed
  9. Esouza

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    Come baby! Dig deep. lol
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    Let's go surfing

    Ed Jennifer Marie Rain Brittany Nancy Sheri Joe I'm Gonna call Rich and lock us in for a group of 10 at 1pm on July 21st. We can add if we need to. I'll get info from him and what we need to do to register. We need a group name. Any ideas?
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    Name please? Yes there is space. We really don't have a limit. They just need to know to add more instructors.
  12. Esouza

    Let's go surfing

    On a side note. Use this event as motivation to drop a few more pounds if you need to. The boards will be sensitive to weight and the lighter you are the better it will be. Also this can be a workout on the upper body even tho we will not be that far off shore. So work those shoulders and arms. Take care peeps. Can't wait! Edited to add: Hey.. Is Callery's support group meeting on the 20th?
  13. As much as I hate to admit it yes. Not often. It's only happened twice over the the last 5 years. I really hate it when it gets that far. I'm usually a really peaceful person.
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    Ok Babs is out and Sheri is in. We will book the 1pm time. Ed Jennifer Marie Rain Brittany Nancy Sheri
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    I agree 1pm is it