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    Raleigh, NC
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    Photography, cooking, walking, working out
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    Dr. Moran
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  1. Does the pain worsen if you move a certain way? Can you put your finger directly where it hurts? Do you feel a knot or tightness if so? If you work out regularly, then it's common to get knotted muscles, which fortunately can be resolved with massage,heat, and/or medication. To be safe, you may see your primary care doctor to rule out something serious, especially if there's a history of heart disease or high blood pressure in your family.
  2. I'll trade having some loose skin for the misery of obesity any time. I'm dealing with some extra skin now, but it doesn't get in the way and hasn't caused me any physical problems to this point. It's more cosmetic than anything. Mostly my thighs and boobs are the biggest annoyances and most noticeable. In the meantime, I've started up a savings account to help me pay for plastic surgery in the future.
  3. I was so ridden with anxiety over going to a gym. I had visions of finger pointing and snickering or taunting, but thankfully none of that happened. Instead, I found a very warm, welcoming, and yes, supportive environment. Many of the regulars have told me I'm an inspiration to them because they've witnessed the transformation I'm undergoing and just can't believe how different I am now from when I started. Most of the anxiety is in our own minds. Yes, there are insensitive people everywhere, but you'll find them far more the exception than the rule. Most people are too involved in their own workouts to really pay you much attention. Plus, everyone is sweaty, so you don't have to let that make you feel self-conscious! Heck, you fit right in. LOL. I chose to find a personal trainer initially to help tailor a routine specific to my needs. There's really no difference between WLS patients and regular exercisers, but you should have someone assess your physical capabilities and show you proper form, technique, and pointers. Trainers are expensive. If you can afford it, I strongly recommend using one. Just check out their credentials and ask around first to be sure you get someone who knows their stuff. Experience is a must as well, so look for someone with a few years under their belts. If you're still concerned, you might look into a gym or exercise center related to an area hospital. Most of them cater to clientele that have little experience in the gym and all of them should have very professional and well-trained staff on hand at all times. Many, but not all, of the clients have special health conditions which makes that sort of environment less about peacocking around and more about focusing on health and fitness. In any case, get thee to a gym! You'll soon find you can't wait to go to your sessions.
  4. I lived for years on metformin, actos, and glymeperide. Then it progressed to Byetta. Then Lantus. Then I went to an insulin pump. The whole time my diabetes was getting worse and worse and my body was showing more and more of the side effects of the disease. They gave me two insulin injections in the hospital the afternoon and evening following surgery. I've not needed it, nor oral medications, since then. That was over a year ago. I still check my BG intermittently and it's usually around 100. My HgA1Cs have been 4.5 and 5.0. In a word, I'm thrilled that I'm no longer having to deal with diabetes. I don't take it lightly, though. I realize that the disease is in "remission" or that I'm still a "non-symptomatic" diabetic. I have to take care of myself and always keep that in the back of my mind and follow up with testing with my doctor. For me, the surgery was a godsend. No diabetes, no high blood pressure, a totally new way of life. It has been, and continues to be, amazing. I know it doesn't work out this way for everyone, but even if surgery doesn't resolve your diabetes, decreasing your excess weight and eating smaller portions will radically help get it under control. Good luck!
  5. Thanks, guys. Esob: You've done AMAZING!!! Such great progress. You're right, our paths are parallel, right down to our surgery dates and initial weights. I'm glad to see you've had such success.
  6. Ha! Let's chalk it up to temporary insanity, then. LOL. In some ways, the backsliding was a sort of letting my hair down. Sometimes the constant vigilance and self-monitoring grows tiresome and there's an inner sense of rebellion that crops up. I suppose that's okay from time to time. God knows we're all human here. So, I guess the trick to it is to get over it (and over yourself, for that matter) and move on. The upside of all this--if there is one--is that due to the increased calories and mass gain, I'm dominating weights that were seriously challenging me just a week ago in the gym. What was a struggle just to bench press just 3 reps now flies up for a strong 7. And last night I was practically throwing around the weight I had been struggling with. We even had to add more weight. A silver lining, I guess. Or an iron one at least. I'd rather have the weight loss on my big behind than a weight increase in gym right now, however.
  7. So, I managed to gain around 13 pounds over the holidays. Yep, 13 big ones. It seems that in my case, it takes a LOT of sugar to prompt dumping syndrome. I gave into the temptation of trying cakes, pies, bonbons, cookies, etc. A little didn't hurt. A little more didn't hurt. Heck, soon I was eating as much of them as a non-WLS person. Didn't help that I also came down with the flu on Christmas Eve and was out of commission for two solid weeks. No workouts, no exercise. Just misery and bonbons. So yeah, I'm disappointed in myself. Obviously this was my own doing, so there's no one else to make the culprit here. But I move on. Instead of wallowing in self-pity and beating myself up over it, I've decided just to pick myself up, dust off, and move on with life as usual. I'm homing in more seriously on my nutrition and stepping up my excercise. I can handle 13 pounds. What I can't handle is doing this again. Clearly having just a little doesn't work for me. A little leads to a lot. Say hello to my little binge. This is something that has plagued every single weight loss attempt I've ever made, so it was unreasonable to think WLS would have changed that. My behavior is just as important as my altered physiology. Lesson learned. If I don't stay focused and keep my mind as reorganized as my stomach, then I will gain weight and likely return to the point that got me here in the first place. I refuse to let that happen. I know all the sayings. "No cookie (candy, treat, pie, whatever) is worth my health." "I'm stronger than chocolate/cake/honey buns." Now I know I need to take them to heart. I'm not really looking for support or sympathy here. What's done is done and I know how to undo it. I just wanted others to know that while yes, overall I'm very happy and my weight loss has been dramatically successful, it still ain't easy and I can never take it for granted. It's up to me to control my behavior and recognize when I've strayed from the path. It's also up to me to know when to kick myself squarely in the butt and get my act together if I want to continue succeeding.
  8. Good responses and definitely food for thought. I actually agree with HollyAnn, MarteP and HarleyRidingGrandma. Interviews are about the job and reasons why you're better suited to a position than the other candidates. I can see why intimating WLS would be a red flag. Besides, it's probably best not to do/say anything would cast you in a bad light. I suppose, however, that the newfound confidence and empowerment that accompanies WLS would be a great plus in the interview.
  9. I worry about it, but I also temper it with the knowledge that I've established a whole new set of healthy habits to keep me in check. The Christmas Goody Season took its toll on my weight loss (gained 4-5 pounds, maybe). I'm back on my normal routine and started losing again, so I'm satisfied. My strategy is to enjoy things occasionally and then return to my baseline diet. Exercise is a constant factor regardless. I'm pretty confident that that, plus keeping an eye on the scales and not letting extra pounds gain momentum, should keep things in line.
  10. Small steps, Liv. I could barely walk from the car to the grocery store at my heaviest. I went from a few steps to a tenth of a mile to a quarter, a third, a half, three quarters, one mile, and so on. Now I routinely walk 4 miles several times a week and actually look forward to it. You'll get there. Just remember, anything worth having is worth working for.
  11. I wondered. Would you mention having had WLS in a job interview? For most of us, it's a huge accomplishment which we are very proud of. In my case, it's given me a whole new perspective on life, not to mention a LIFE to go with it. Thing is, the interviewer only sees the current "you," not the version from which you evolved. I wonder if there would be lingering fat prejudice if the potential employer discovered you used to be morbidly obese or if they would see the grit and determination it takes to overcome obesity and realise the strength of the candidate? What do you think?
  12. Hi, Flooter! I'm still around, just lurking more often than not. I find now that I'm more active, I spend much less time at the computer and more time out enjoying myself. Plus I made a conscious decision to focus more on my first love--reading (and not just on the laptop).
  13. Oh yeah. I'm constantly freezing. I had to get a space heater to put under my desk at work and I have blankets and throws I regularly snuggle with. The up side is that now can wear layers and effect a style of dress that I've always envied. Plus I can walk around stores in winter and not break into a full sweat. I bought myself an M-65 field jacket and moisture-wicking socks to help keep me nice and toasty too.
  14. No what you think. I found this touching and very inspirational. Think about it the next time you're feeling intimidated about starting an exercise regimen.
  15. I drink a couple of cups a day, usually diluted with soy milk to make a latte. I reckon it's gentler on my pouch and upper intestine than straight coffee. I really pay attention to my pouch when drinking "iffy" things like coffee. If I notice any irritation or discomfort, I lay off for a while. I personally don't think there's any real harm to be done, but it's best to stay in touch with yourself. Likely dehydration is the main worry with coffee, since the caffeine makes you pee. A lot of people will drink coffee instead of water. As long as you drink plenty of real water, I think it's okay. I just don't count the coffee toward my daily fluid intake.