For just a second today, I thought about quitting.
I received my official surgery letter, along with a two sheets of appointment dates (pre-op and post-op) and the instructions for my liquid diet. I took one long hard look at it and thought, "This sucks!"
My liquid diet begins February 11th, and will last for FOUR weeks. So imagine my horror when I saw that the liquid diet is a VERY strict, clear liquids only plan. Four weeks of clear liquids... it's hard for me to imagine that right now. I cannot put myself in a mind space where that's my reality.
My last weigh in I was at 245. Right now I'm weighing in at 249-250. My nutritionist told me today that at he start of my liquid diet, I cannot be above the weight I was at my last weigh in (in November). SO! I'll have to lose 5ish pounds in a little less than a month. I'm sure this is doable but again, it sucks! I have to try and stick to a diet the month before I seriously diet.
All the appointments are scheduled for early afternoons. I work nights so any appointment that takes place when the sun is out is inconvenient really. I had a choice of Monday or Wednesday afternoons (for weekly clinic weigh in's during my liquid diet) , I choose Mondays, I got Wednesdays. But, six of one half dozen of the other, terrible timing is terrible timing.
All in all I just feel very overwhelmed by every aspect of my pre-op phase.
But yes, I know it's all worth it. And no, I won't quit, I've come way too dang far! But today is not a positive day, today I feel like this all sucks... alot.
Final thought- People who say surgery is the lazy or easy way out, truly have no idea what they're talking about.