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The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly

Cardamom77

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We’ll start with the bad:

My husband totaled our car. He’s ok, though. 

The ugly:

Our finances are still a hot mess and we can’t afford to buy or finance another car.

The good:

Now we have a great excuse (well, REASON) to ride our bikes literally everywhere. 

So I’m averaging about 15-20 miles a day commuting and running daily errands and taking 40-65 mile rides on the weekends. I’m burning roughly 600-800 calories on weekdays and roughly 1000-1500 calories on my weekend rides. I’m trying to look on the bright side. No car payment. No car insurance to pay. No gas to buy. Lots of exercise! Also there is grocery delivery in my area now, so that’s helpful!

I had my 18 month follow up appointment and my main topic to discuss with the dietician was sports nutrition. I’ve been ordered to eat carbs. I’ve been ordered to eat fat. I’ve been ordered to eat constantly. What a mindf@*k after years and years of dieting! It is a huge shift for me, but I’m getting there. Lots of avocados and I make these oatmeal/banana/nut/salt bites to take on my rides. I’m trying to not get into a mentality of “I can eat whatever I want since I’ll burn it off” and remember that food is fuel. Delicious fuel, but fuel nonetheless. 

I totally eat a quarter cup of ice cream a couple nights a week though.

Oh and I bought my first fancy bike outfit! (Ignore my messy room. Ha!)

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Condolences on the car! That's a horrible thing to have happen, and I'm glad your husband is OK. I guess using it as an opportunity to increase bike commuting is a way to look at the bright side! 

You are looking so fit. Good for you! You wear your success well :) 

I'm having some similar experiences with food right now - eating a lot because I need to, but having a hard time feeling like that's OK to do. Deep down inside I still feel the need to punish myself for eating in excess of whatever my brain deems an acceptable amount of food, which really means not much food. I eat a ton now, though, since I'm running a lot, and it's often hard to walk that mental line. It takes time, I guess. We're still learning. I get a panicky feeling in the back of my mind wondering what will happen if/when I stop exercising so much :wacko: I guess that means I never get to stop... 

Enjoy your bike-time - it seems like you're having fun.

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Yikes.  @Cardamom77, that looks awful!  Glad he was ok, looks like he could have really gotten hurt.  How was the other person that hit him, I hope they were as lucky also!  I am glad you’re choosing to look on the bright side and use it as extra workout time!  What happens on rainy days?  Do you still ride or do you have an alternative?  

I love the biking outfit and you are so skinny!  Where do you hide it all?  It sure doesn’t look like you have any extra skin hanging around!  

Sorry the finances stink, I hate times like that.  Hope your still shopping at your marvelous thrift shop! (I thought of you today as we went to Salvation Army for their 50% off sale.  We bought $200 worth of stuff for $104!  I got a brand new Vera Wang sleeveless dress with the Kohl’s tag on it still for $50 and I paid $6!  (Wearing it to work tomorrow!) Got some awesome cardigans for the fall/winter (I wear cardigans year round bc my office is over air conditioned, but these colors are fall/winter).  I got a few skirts and a bathing suit bottom (i have to buy them separately anyway bc I need to get a top with an underwire for sure!!) as well as 2 dresses, and 4 tops and a pair of shoes.  We got tons clothes for the boys and my husband too.   8 big bags of stuff for $104!  We even got great service for 8 of dishes/bowls/plates from Ikea for $8! Anyway, I remember you posting your great deals from your thrift (even cheaper than mine!) and I think of you when I am thrifting!

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@CheeringCJ The other person was fine, too! I have to say that the 2016 Nissan Rogue is a very safe car. My husband was incredibly lucky. 

I still ride when it rains. I have no choice! I have a good rain jacket and rain pants to cover my clothes, but I can also just take a change of clothes in my panniers. I have a rain fly for the panniers, too, so that keeps everything inside dry. 

Those are some great deals you got! I definitely still shop at thrift stores. The cycling outfit I got was on ebay. I paid $22 shipped and it probably cost around $150 new. Lord knows I can't afford new cycling gear! Haha! I hide the jiggly thighs under those shorts, which also have a nice panel over the tummy and I just positioned myself well for the batwings. Haha! I'm pretty proud of my ripped quads, though, so it's nice to show them off. 

@Jen581791 It is a major struggle! I went on an organized ride Saturday before last and they had pizza at the end. They put two slices on my plate and I was like "Oh no, honey. I can only eat one!" and they looked at me like I had two heads. (And hell yeah I eat pizza after 30 miles! Haha!). That day I rode 63 miles and ate literally every time I stopped. I would stop and drink a bunch of water and eat something. If my husband hadn't been with me (he's still getting back on the bike and needs more breaks), I likely would have only stopped every 12-15 miles. As it was, we probably stopped about 8-10 times and they had bananas and peanut butter sandwiches along the way (they also had Clif bars, but anything involving rice does not do well in my pouch, sadly). So I ate a lot of bananas and peanut butter sandwiches and pizza and then, when I got home, a burger! Still had lost weight when I got on the scale the next morning. Blargh. 

 

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On 5/28/2019 at 5:03 AM, Cardamom77 said:

anything involving rice does not do well in my pouch

Rice doesn't work for me, either :( 

On 5/28/2019 at 5:03 AM, Cardamom77 said:

And hell yeah I eat pizza after 30 miles! Haha!

I think you and I both might have reacted the same way pre-WLS, though: "I rode 30 miles, so I'll eat my half of the pizza..." ;) A slice is very different! We've come a long way! I ran yesterday (12km, my new normal medium run), and came home and was hungry. I decided to totally go for it and ate 8 Triscuits and 2 slices of cheese - which was literally all I could stuff down. Pre-WLS, I may have taken out a whole box of Triscuits. And definitely would NOT have run 12km. 

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So sorry about the accident!!! Glad he's okay, but I'm sure it was very traumatic. 

AWESOME look in the fancy bike clothes! You look like the pro you are!

I get the scary food consumption stuff. I've written in my blog about the doc saying to add more carbs, add mangoes, add fats. Scary stuff saying that to a person who has been overweight forever! I have gotten a little lax and gained 3 pounds, and I don't like my behavior to get there. It wasn't the food that bothered me, it was letting myself snack or emotionally eat that I didn't like. I'm going to rein it in because I don't want any bad habits. 

Keep up the good work! You're a great inspiration! 

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On 5/29/2019 at 11:25 PM, Jen581791 said:

I think you and I both might have reacted the same way pre-WLS, though: "I rode 30 miles, so I'll eat my half of the pizza..." ;) A slice is very different! We've come a long way! I ran yesterday (12km, my new normal medium run), and came home and was hungry. I decided to totally go for it and ate 8 Triscuits and 2 slices of cheese - which was literally all I could stuff down. Pre-WLS, I may have taken out a whole box of Triscuits. And definitely would NOT have run 12km. 

 

I'm noticing I can eat more now - probably a good cup to a cup and a half of food at a time. That's the absolute most, though, and it depends on the food. But I am definitely happy that I can't eat half a pizza anymore. Ha! 

 

 

23 hours ago, Cindy Lou Who said:

It wasn't the food that bothered me, it was letting myself snack or emotionally eat that I didn't like. I'm going to rein it in because I don't want any bad habits. 

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I totally get this. I don't dump when I eat sugar, which is an issue. I've been eating a lot more of it lately and even though I don't gain weight with it because I'm burning it off, it's not a good choice and won't help me nutritionally. We're all works in progress, though. I need to rein that in. 

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On 5/28/2019 at 12:32 AM, Jen581791 said:

I get a panicky feeling in the back of my mind wondering what will happen if/when I stop exercising so much :wacko: I guess that means I never get to stop... 

I personally notice a certain regulation in both appetite and the volume of food that fits into my stomach comfortably, depending on how much exercise I do. It's not a 100% regulation but it's definitely there.

IMO it makes sense not to rely too much on exercise (in the sense of "having to earn the food") since e. g. injuries and/or accidents that will cause you having to cut back or temporarily stop exercising might happen at any time.

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17 hours ago, Cardamom77 said:

We're all works in progress, though. I need to rein that in. 

Almost all people are. I just have to look at my colleagues, e. g. all of them make their fair share of bad choices depending on taste, on mood, on whatever - even though they're not overweight, muscular, fit, or maybe just a little bit overweight or a bit skinny fat.

"Food for fuel only forever" is some kind of wet fantasy that won't come true.

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@Cardamom77

Well, you are making lemonade when given lemons. Good for you. You've inspired me to take a ride today when I felt like being lazy! Exercise is a key to health even if it is not essential to weight loss

You are looking great, fit, healthy. Congratulations! And let me commiserate with you about the car!

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17 hours ago, summerset said:

having to earn the food

I work hard at making sure this isn't my attitude now - it certainly would have been in the past! Exercise as punishment, food as reward :( Now, I try to exercise because I enjoy it. Much healthier, for sure! 

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Yeah, the difference between the two can be a fine line.

I freely admit though that I use food as some kind of reward after exercising and the food tastes better after physical labour anyway but I've noticed that this seems to be a pretty normal thing to do (e. g. having non-alcoholic wheat beer after long bike rides, I know many people who do that). While I don't view exercise as some kind of punishment, it definitely feels good eating some mood-enhancing and relaxing food after some mood-enhancing and relaxing exercise. A cumulative effect so to say.

Since a while I don't view this as a problem anymore. Food is meant to bring us pleasure after all and this makes totally sense from an evolutionary point of view. And what's considered "normal" anyway? "Normal" is what the majority of people around you do. 

The problems start when exercise starts to consume an unreasonable amount of time or when it has become the absolute highest priority on your list no matter what (e. g. exercising when sick or injured or neglecting other important things in your life).

 

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On 6/1/2019 at 5:32 AM, summerset said:

IMO it makes sense not to rely too much on exercise (in the sense of "having to earn the food") since e. g. injuries and/or accidents that will cause you having to cut back or temporarily stop exercising might happen at any time.

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My dietician and I talked about this, too. He mentioned having kind of a contingency plan for if/when I am injured and have to take a break from cycling. That it may be difficult to adjust to having to eat less again to maintain my weight. It is honestly a STRUGGLE right now to eat enough (I burned 2100 calories yesterday - 65 miles - and that's on top of what I already have to eat just to maintain. Not happening), so I'm not terribly worried. But I also know that going from having to try to pack in 2700+ calories on an average day to needing to drop down to 1700 or so if I'm sedentary would not be easy. I could probably handle it, but that's easy to say now - might be harder in practice. 

I do often see food as fuel while I'm riding, but I do also really enjoy food still. I have to say that the 1/4 burger and half a dozen fresh cut fries I ate halfway through my ride yesterday was SOOOOO good! I really wished I could have eaten more. I tend to struggle to eat a lot during and right after my ride, so I've been keeping some of those Unjury ready to drink shakes in the fridge for when I get home. 20 grams of top-shelf protein that I can buy with my HSA card. Haha! 

Also - my weight loss clinic wants me to come speak at a seminar! I'm a superstar! LOLOLOL! 

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7 minutes ago, Cardamom77 said:

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Also - my weight loss clinic wants me to come speak at a seminar! I'm a superstar! LOLOLOL! 

I think you are right about having a contingency plan. Maybe swimming? It's great aerobic exercise and there is no weight bearing.

I went from heavy daily exercise 6 months ago to none for the better part of the last 6 months -> gained about 15% of my loss back! It has prompted me to think about my work - life - family balance and I'm likely to cut back at work in a couple of months. Having worked my rear end off for the last 45 years I figure it's time to put my own health and welfare above my workplace. 

~ and ~ 

WE'VE all known you were a superstar! :P

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