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18 months out....

CheeringCJ

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So I meant to post this last week, actually the week before but obviously I didn’t!   My hubby is away and I have a little free time before bed tonight so I thought I’d post.

I have been pretty disappointed with myself bc I have slacked off a lot.  Part of my problem is that I KNOW I can recover, so I feel like IF I gain 10#, i will just get serious and get it back off, which is a SUPER DANGEROUS way to think!!!!  

Today I decided to do a 5DPT.  I have been wanting to do it for a long time but I keep finding reasons I can’t (well, we are going out to eat for mother’s day So I have to wait until after that, oh  I will be at the conference all week and I can’t do it then, so I might as well wait until later, etc)

this morning I went into work super early (I clocked in at 5:45) so i was ok not eating bfast (which is really only greek yogurt w/ nuts in it) I had a shake at 7, then some broth at 10.  In between I was also sitting hot tea.  I had forgotten how many food ads there are out there...on the internet on tv etc.ugh. However, I did this liquid diet for 4 straight weeks when I had my surgery so I know I can do this.  I made it all day long fine until I got home and noticed my freezer was not working (ugh!) and I had to empty it and I started cooking meatballs in the crockpot and I was surrounded by food.  HOWEVER, I stuck to my liquid diet for today knowing that i would feel SO defeated if I caved and I am so proud of me now! :)

I have gained back 5# over the past few months and I want that gone!  The funny thing is when you are smaller, 5# makes it huge difference.  My muffin top came back with only 5#, but when I was huge, I could pack on 5# over the weekend and not notice!  Not sure if that is good or bad, but I am not pleased with the way my size 10s feel snugger than they used to.  I am hoping this 5DPT will get be back to reality and back to success.

I did a 3 month program w/ a small gym at work.  I worked out w a trainer 3-4 times a week (though I went away 3 of the 12 wks).  I finished last week and they remeasured. I didn’t lose any weight, BUT I lost 7# of fat and replaced it with 7# of pure MUSCLE (they use an ultrasound Doppler to measure the fat/muscle in my thigh, the back of my arms and my abs (above my hip bone) so it was pretty accurate when compared to what it was 12 wks ago!  So I felt accomplished!!!  I still walk 5 miles every day (though today I didn’t, bc I didn’t take lunch and I walk 3 mi every night w/ my husband and he is away)  I do walk w/o him if he is gone BUT I spent all evening clearing the freezer out.

I could never graduate to maintenance bc I am not satisfied w/ where i landed, so I am still a work in progress (though honestly I am SO much better off than I was and this is less than I thought I COULD ever weigh, so I would be ok if I stayed here forever)

I don’t have any current pics of me but will post one soon.  

 

 

 

 



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@CheeringCJ!!

don't be bummed or beat yourself up. You have all the skills on hand that you need. this 5 lb bump up could just be a valuable lesson on what you need to do to lead the life you want to have. Composure, balance, steadiness. Equanimity, equanimity, equanimity...

(Obviously offering this up because I aspire to it, not that I have achieved it!)

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6 hours ago, BurgundyBoy said:

@CheeringCJ!!

don't be bummed or beat yourself up. You have all the skills on hand that you need. this 5 lb bump up could just be a valuable lesson on what you need to do to lead the life you want to have. Composure, balance, steadiness. Equanimity, equanimity, equanimity...

(Obviously offering this up because I aspire to it, not that I have achieved it!)

Thanks,   @BurgundyBoy,I am doing the 5 DPT and this is day two of liquids and I am doing well.  I am a little hungry right now but I am just dealing with it bc I KNOW I was strong enough to do this for 4 straight weeks before, so what is 2 days?!?!  And tomorrow I can have my beloved greek yogurt again! ;)   

Funny thing you mention balance, I am reading a book by Dr Connie Stapleton called “Eat it Up! A Complete Mind/Body/Spirit Guide to Life After Weight Loss Surgery” and she talks a lot about havin gbalance in your life.  It is kind of a wake up call bc a lot of her clients come to see her bc they’ve gained most or all of their weight back and I SWEAR that is NOT going to be me!!!  So, in sheer determination (and yes, with equanimity), I am composed and ready to get my head back in the game! 

Thanks for the encouragement!

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SO GLAD to hear from you! It's so good to hear how your journey is going. When I don't see much from you, I worry. :wub:

I have many reactions to your great blog post:

1) First of all, congratulations on your 12 week training. Adding muscle and reducing fat?!?! That's where it's at! Way to go! 

2) Also, kudos to you doing the 5DPT. I would like to hear how it goes and when you're finished, how it affected your mind and body.  Did your cravings, if you had any, disappear? Does your portion size change back to a smaller size? I haven't used it yet, but would like to know if it's a good tool to have in my back pocket. The last couple weeks, I have foundd myself slacking off too. So far it is not affecting my weight, but I don't like having cravings for carbs. I bet the 5DPT will serve to really get your head back in the game. You CAN do this!

3) Noticing the 5-pound muffin top I think is a huge indicator for your future. I have people in my life who have stayed in the same weight range their whole adult life. Those people notice how their body changes in just 5 pounds! That concept used to be totally foreign to me. I was like you were, I could easily gain 5 pounds over a party weekend! I would only notice about every 20-30 pounds when I was busting out of my clothes. And half the time I would force myself not to think about it and just buy a bigger size. I think if we can learn to notice the small changes, (and DO something about it like you are RIGHT NOW), this is the key to a future with stable weight! I know you said you're disappointed with yourself at the moment, but I hope you see that you are also making choices that you would never have made pre-surgery.  You ARE being proactive, @CheeringCJ. I see you making this journey work. 

You have all my encouragement and support. You are a strong person and you are advancing yourself over this hurdle. Please keep us updated! 

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I have the same three reactions as @Cindy Lou Who - Number 1: you're gaining muscle, awesome! Two: 5DPT - let us know how it goes! And, Number 3: Congrats on noticing a small change and addressing it right away. I think that's how thin people function... weird! :rolleyes:

Keep at it, CJ. This is a lifelong thing for us, and it does require vigilance. You've got the tools, the determination, and experience from all the lessons you've learned over the years. You can do this.

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On 5/22/2019 at 6:59 AM, Cindy Lou Who said:

2) Also, kudos to you doing the 5DPT. I would like to hear how it goes and when you're finished, how it affected your mind and body.  

First of all, thanks for the encouragement!  You’re always so upbeat about this journey. :)  Thanks for always being there (even when I’m not here!)

I’m doing well with the reset. I’ll try to post about it. 

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On 5/22/2019 at 9:17 AM, Jen581791 said:

I have the same three reactions as @Cindy Lou Who - Number 1: you're gaining muscle, awesome! Two: 5DPT - let us know how it goes! And, Number 3: Congrats on noticing a small change and addressing it right away. I think that's how thin people function... weird! :rolleyes:

Keep at it, CJ. This is a lifelong thing for us, and it does require vigilance. You've got the tools, the determination, and experience from all the lessons you've learned over the years. You can do this.

1.Yes, the muscle gain was nice.  You know how ppl say when you’re working out and not looking weight “it could be because you’re gaining muscle” I used to roll my eyes at that comment, and think, nope, they’re just not working hard enough and/or eating right.  But when he measured it (and it seemed so accurate w/ the ultrasound machine, (not just that fat pinching calbriator thing...haha!) that I actually believed it!  I want to nurture my new 7# of muscle so it doesn’t atrophy. So I am still working out w/ it even though my stent at that gym is done.  I am going to join a gym near my house (that one was near my work) to make it easier for other times of the day/weekend.

2. As for the 5DPT, it went great and renewed my hope/faith in my tool!  (I blogged about it, which i know you read already) but it was a great week!!

3. Addressed and taken care of! ;)  Thin people, hmmm, I want to be one of those....I am working on it!

 

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