For the record, I am now 14 months post-op and 6 months under goal weight.
6 months? Really? Up to now I purposely didn't have the "M" word ("Maintenance") in my blog title because I didn't want to jinx myself if it wasn't going to happen. Looking back now, I can see I wasn't really in maintenance at first as I was still consciously, and unconsciously making myself lose more. But , even though I still feel like keeping in 5-10 pound range is scary, it's beginning to feel not like standing on a head of a pin, but maybe standing on the head of a railway spike? Still treacherous and wobbly, but getting a teeensy bit more believable.
I'm grateful for the things that are helping me:
1) My new relationship with the scale. I used to either obsess over it, weighing several times per day, or avoid it like the plague. What is working for me is weighing every morning first thing for my "unofficial" weigh in to make sure I'm staying on track. I notice I make slight adjustments daily in my diet depending on what that morning weigh in says. (I allow myself more or less extra bites here and there.) Then I still attend Weight Watchers each week, and do my "official" weigh in there. The weekly weigh in helps me stay accountable and see my track record, but not obsess over the daily fluctuations. I think our scale friendship is very personal and everyone is different, but this seems to be working for me.
2) Exercise. HUGE help. I'm exercising 5-6 days per week fluctuating between running, walking, rowing machine, elliptical machine, playing golf /carrying clubs. I love the extra calorie expenditure, but love even more how it's keeping me in tune with my body and lowering stress! I'm learning that I must have been a big stress eater because the munch demons are easier to fight when I'm tired and relaxed! My exercise routines are not exciting, and I'm too old to tear up the track or set any new personal records. But I'm trying to judge it like brushing my teeth - something I do for my health. Period.
3) This site. Of course you guys know this one already. But I'm very grateful for this site!! You are my heroes, and it helps to not feel alone!!
4) Cute clothes! It's fun to wear cuter clothes and feel excited about getting dressed! I feel like a teenager figuring out my style because I have been covering up my fat for so many years, I didn't have a style. I was always just trying to camouflage. I'm getting a little more confident that I am buying clothes that will fit for awhile. At first I was afraid to buy anything other than from a resale shop in case my weight shot back up again. I still like shopping resale, but have bought a few new items too, thinking that maybe I'll be able to wear them next year. Here's to hoping!
I still struggle in alot of ways, but I'm trying to keep a positive outlook. I don't like that I can eat more now without pain. It's normal, but scary. I'm having to learn to restrict more with discipline and not out of physical pain. Discipline? Time to put on my big girl pants! Or my big girl, little pants!
So far, at least, this is doable, people. And if a life-time yo-yo dieter can do it, you can do it.
Maintenance Diary -
1st month - Range 135.4 - 140 pounds
2nd month - Range 133.0 - 135.4 pounds!
3rd month - Range 127.2 - 133.0
4th month - Range 125.0 - 128.0
5th month - Range 124.0 - 126.6
6th month - Range 124.6 - 127.8
7th month - Starts today!