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The Beginning

Cindy Lou Who

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Never done a blog before. But I love reading them on this site, and I think I have something to say. And I'm hoping it might strike a few chords with some of you. 

I can lose weight. Over the years I have turned the diet light on and off. I have lost hundreds of pounds over my life time (since junior high) and gained hundreds more. I have been successful on Atkins, Weight Watchers, South Beach Diet, Phen-fen pills, fasting once a week, and countless others. I've also ALWAYS gained it back. So instead of starting this blog when I had surgery (which was 9 months ago today), I am starting to record my next journey - MAINTENANCE. 

My goal is to stay within a 10 pound range.  130-140 pounds. I'm not sure what my timeline should be for celebration. Should I first make it for one year, two years? But each month for this next year I want to acknowledge where I am. Maintenance is the part I've always failed at. Maintenance is what I've been fearing since before surgery day. Some of you may recall, I was even fearful of approaching "the maintenance cafe" and you TT heroes helped coax me to my goal. 

I reached 140 a month ago, on October 23. Yay, I've made it one month!!! I was even afraid to start this blog until this point in case I couldn't maintain for four weeks!   

For the first time I realize that just because I'm at my weight goal doesn't mean I'm cured. Like alcoholics that successfully beat the disease say they are in recovery, I think maybe I'll always be a recovering yo-yo dieter. So today is my starting point. Today is my first day. I've had my first month, so feeling pretty good. 

Every month that I'm at goal, I thought I would give myself a little reward. This week I had a manicure at a nail place. (I'm way too cheap to normally pay for them.) I figure the money I save now at Weight Watchers, I'll spend part of that on a little gifty. To remind myself that it's NOT over. To remind myself that I'm still working at this! 

Right now, a ten pound range feels like I'm trying to balance on the head of a pin! Hopefully, it will get easier? 

1st month - Range 135.4 - 140 pounds

2nd month - Starts today! 



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Congrats on one month of maintenance and also on feeling secure enough with that to start your blog. 

I've been at maintenance for about 10 months, and to be honest, the mental game has been tough, but actually staying in my range has been pretty easy, all things considered. For the first 6 months, I had a hard time remembering that I really didn't want to lose any more weight, and I was missing that rewarding rush of watching the numbers go down every week. I mean, I knew I didn't want to lose more, but my subconscious didn't really accept that. Since then, I've had my weight dip below my "happy range" a few times, and I've had to work at it a bit to bring it back up, and I think that has helped convince my subconscious that this is for real. 

I like your idea of treating yourself each month that you stay in your range. That's a great way to actively acknowledge that just staying at GW is work and that you're succeeding at it. Nails = great treat. My great weakness now is shopping - I have a hard time not buying new things more often than I should. Then again, I'm making up for a lifetime of despising shopping because it forced me to acknowledge my size. It feels like a little celebration every time I buy a new pair of pants ;) 

 

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Good for you! I know maintenance scares me.  I’ve never reached a goal before so i have no idea if i can maintain and since I’m a chronic gainer-backer, I didn’t think I could maintain and IF I gained it back yet still had the majority of my stomach missing, I feared I’d lose my mind!  Well, I have maintained for 4 months so far but I am too scared to call it maintenance! I am afraid to declare myself done but i have stayed within 5 pounds for 4 months without trying very hard. 

Anyway, i love to read your posts so i will eagerly look for your blog :)  

Congrats on your maintenance and starting month 10!

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5 minutes ago, Jen581791 said:

I like your idea of treating yourself each month that you stay in your range. That's a great way to actively acknowledge that just staying at GW is work and that you're succeeding at it. Nails = great treat. My great weakness now is shopping - I have a hard time not buying new things more often than I should. Then again, I'm making up for a lifetime of despising shopping because it forced me to acknowledge my size. It feels like a little celebration every time I buy a new pair of pants ;) 

 

Agreed.    And treating yourself with things and not food is a much healthier way to do it!

And, Jen, I too, am making up for years of hating shopping!  I still don’t buy clothes full price bc I have found out what nice things I can have from hard searching at thrift stores, but I buy more than necessary there!  And I am ok w/ that!  It’s the first time in forever I don’t look horrible in everything I put on!

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10 hours ago, CheeringCJ said:

Agreed.    And treating yourself with things and not food is a much healthier way to do it!

And, Jen, I too, am making up for years of hating shopping!  I still don’t buy clothes full price bc I have found out what nice things I can have from hard searching at thrift stores, but I buy more than necessary there!  And I am ok w/ that!  It’s the first time in forever I don’t look horrible in everything I put on!

Alas, I live in a part of the world without thrift stores (I know! I know!), so I have to be a pretty savvy shopper. I try to hold out for sales, and now that I've calmed down a bit, I find that I don't have a compulsion to buy something just because it fits and looks OK. That was always the goal before, so I feel almost like I am obligated to buy stuff if it hits those two goals - but now I try to shop for fun and be OK with trying on 15 things that I don't plan on buying at all, just to see what it looks like on me. Recent case in point: high waisted flared jeans (what girl doesn't want to look like Farah Faucett?). Fun! But not making their way into my wardrobe anytime soon.

Non-food treats all the way. 

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12 hours ago, Jen581791 said:

Alas, I live in a part of the world without thrift stores (I know! I know!), so I have to be a pretty savvy shopper. I try to hold out for sales, and now that I've calmed down a bit, I find that I don't have a compulsion to buy something just because it fits and looks OK. That was always the goal before, so I feel almost like I am obligated to buy stuff if it hits those two goals - but now I try to shop for fun and be OK with trying on 15 things that I don't plan on buying at all, just to see what it looks like on me. Recent case in point: high waisted flared jeans (what girl doesn't want to look like Farah Faucett?). Fun! But not making their way into my wardrobe anytime soon.

Non-food treats all the way. 

No thrift stores?  What do people do w/ their old stuff, or do they just keep it and not toss it so quickly like Americans do?  I was never much of a thrift shopper (I hated the effort) but more of a clearance shopper which meant i wasn’t “worth” paying fulll price for my ugly plus sized clothes but i could justify paying $3 because it was on the clearance rack. Granted it was on the clearance rack for a reason...mostly bc some selective heavy person didn’t want it, so I would take it like it was the leftovers that no one wanted.  Kind of sad really.  Glad those days are behind me.  I still get a little emotional when I find an old huge flowery shirt that I hated but wore it constantly bc I didn’t have many things (and nothing nice).  

So, did you get a pic of you in you Farrah Fawcett jeans?!?!  I hope you had the big hair too...LOL

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On 11/30/2018 at 6:16 AM, CheeringCJ said:

No thrift stores?  What do people do w/ their old stuff, or do they just keep it and not toss it so quickly like Americans do?

There are lots of donation boxes around for charities that send stuff to poor countries. That's where all my stuff has gone.

One bright spot with being a size 2/4 is that I can often find that on sale! 

Here are the Farrah jeans (OK, hers would have been way more extreme, but after years of being used to seeing only skinny jeans, these are a departure). They look pretty fab with the 4 inch heel clogs...

...and here I find my crazy brain saying things like "Do these make me look fat? I think I kind of look fat here..." 

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You look amazing as always, @Jen581791!  I can’t even imagine being a 2/4! I sometimes pick up a size 8 or 10 pants of mine and think “who’s are these?” Before I realize *I* fit in them!!!!!  How is that possible is what I think when i realize they are mine!!! It’s still so bizarre to me!  Anyway, I have been doing skinny jeans for ages so it didn’t flare my legs, but I was just thinking last week when I was at a thrift store (50% off for Black Friday!) that I would like to try a flared pair to see how they’d look on me...but I couldn’t find any narrow in the thighs (a phrase I’d never imagine myself to say I was looking for!) but after years of needing big thighed pants, I don’t like to see them baggy now!!!  Funny how drastically things have changed in a year. 

We were making gingerbread houses w/ 3 of our grandkids today and my husband snapped a few pics of me and i didn’t delete them the second I saw them (or edit out the fat butt part...haha!).  Don’t mind that I don’t have makeup on....it was a hanging out at the grand babes’ house on a rainy day kind of a day.  And yes, we all put the extra icing on our faces...and my 3 yr old grand daughter kissed mine off so, I didn’t eat it! Ha! 

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On 12/1/2018 at 10:02 AM, Jen581791 said:

There are lots of donation boxes around for charities that send stuff to poor countries. That's where all my stuff has gone.

One bright spot with being a size 2/4 is that I can often find that on sale! 

Here are the Farrah jeans (OK, hers would have been way more extreme, but after years of being used to seeing only skinny jeans, these are a departure). They look pretty fab with the 4 inch heel clogs...

...and here I find my crazy brain saying things like "Do these make me look fat? I think I kind of look fat here..." 

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@Jen581791, you look ADORABLE!!!! SO cute! You are right when you say you ARE THIN, and you look great in everything you try on! Thanks for sharing the picture! And thanks for the blog responses. It was very scary for me to submit a blog, so I appreciate that you answered! :):wub:

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On 12/1/2018 at 4:10 PM, CheeringCJ said:

look amazing as always, @Jen581791!  I can’t even imagine being a 2/4! I sometimes pick up a size 8 or 10 pants of mine and think “who’s are these?” Before I realize *I* fit in them!!!!!  How is that possible is what I think when i realize they are mine!!! It’s still so bizarre to me!  Anyway, I have been doing skinny jeans for ages so it didn’t flare my legs, but I was just thinking last week when I was at a thrift store (50% off for Black Friday!) that I would like to try a flared pair to see how they’d look on me...but I couldn’t find any narrow in the thighs (a phrase I’d never imagine myself to say I was looking for!) but after years of needing big thighed pants, I don’t like to see them baggy now!!!  Funny how drastically things have changed in a year. 

We were making gingerbread houses w/ 3 of our grandkids today and my husband snapped a few pics of me and i didn’t delete them the second I saw them (or edit out the fat butt part...haha!).  Don’t mind that I don’t have makeup on....it was a hanging out at the grand babes’ house on a rainy day kind of a day.  And yes, we all put the extra icing on our faces...and my 3 yr old grand daughter kissed mine off so, I didn’t eat it! Ha!

LOVE, LOVE, LOVE the pictures!! What an adorable family!!! And you look so great and so thin in all of them! Your face is so healthy and beautiful!!  All of you looks so great. I just mean your skin is so pretty and face in the closeups just glows! And you are doing the Christmas holidays right, my friend! Playing with kids, making memories - way to go!!! 

Thanks to you too, for responding to my blog. It felt so lonely and silly putting it out there, and your response made me feel so good. Thanks! 

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5 hours ago, Cindy Lou Who said:

LOVE, LOVE, LOVE the pictures!! What an adorable family!!! And you look so great and so thin in all of them! Your face is so healthy and beautiful!!  All of you looks so great. I just mean your skin is so pretty and face in the closeups just glows! And you are doing the Christmas holidays right, my friend! Playing with kids, making memories - way to go!!! 

Thanks to you too, for responding to my blog. It felt so lonely and silly putting it out there, and your response made me feel so good. Thanks! 

You’re too kind.   I came back today today delete the pics for two reasons....one is that i can’t believe i put my makeup-less face on line (yes i am so vain) but also bc I felt guilty that i hijacked your post!  Sorry about that.  but since you responded to it so sweetly i couldn’t delete it :)  

Keep on blogging.  Honestly ppl don’t see the blogs as much, not sure why, I just always search for All Activity when I log on and anything recent comes up, even blogs but not sure how everyone else searches but not the blogs much.  HOWEVER I still post things there simply bc *I* need to go back and see them and re-read my journey on my weak-days!  So keep recording your feelings, you will be amazed by them later on!

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