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Happy one year to me!

Boho Rosy

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Hi guys! Today is my one year surgiversary and it just hit me HARD. As I sit here, literally sobbing at my desk with my office door closed, I thought I'd share a few thoughts with the one group of people that I know can understand my feelings more than anyone else.

One year ago I was a smart, talented, woman who had cultivated a solid "fun, pretty-faced fat girl" personality over the decades of my obese existence. As my weight increased over the years, the best and most important parts of me were shrinking and I was turning into a "shadow person." I would cheer on anyone and everyone in life, but always from the sidelines which, as an extrovert who desperately wanted to participate in so many things, was very much out of character for me. I carried around such shame and will never forget many, many cringe-worthy moments in my life - not fitting on roller coasters, the entire experience of airplane travel, wealthy donors (I work in philanthropy) directly and publicly asking me why I was "letting myself go," looks and stares from fat-phobic people, visiting friends who lived in 5 floor walk up apartment buildings and barely making it up the stairs, being passed over for jobs that I deserved, not being cast in operas back in my singing days, trying to take up as little space as possible on public transportation, being picked on at school, experiencing discrimination by healthcare providers, and, quite frankly, discrimination by so many people every single #(*&%$ day.

This world is so incredibly cruel to obese people. There is an assumption that you are overweight because you're a lazy stupid idiot who doesn't even try. Well, as a woman who has been on a diet since junior high school (or probably even earlier), I'm here to say that I tried SO HARD, over and over again. On this day, one year ago, I had weight loss surgery and I refuse to be ashamed. I. WILL. NOT. DO. IT. Since that day, I have literally been working my @*# off, fighting for the chance to enter my forties, not as the "it's such a shame - you have such a pretty face" girl, but as just plain f$cking awesome. Not because I dropped a ridiculous amount of weight, but because I am awesome and, spoiler alert, I ALWAYS WAS.

Thank you for all of your amazing support and advice through this experience. I'm not done yet, but I believe in myself and I am in love with my new life. Thanks for listening!

 

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I really needed to read words today like you just wrote Rosy. You are awesome, and your weightloss is also awesome....one awesome woman. I was just reading through all the information that came with my age 60 national bowel screening kit and got to the obesity risks part...... and was sadly reminded of all the obesity related medical discrimination that I've come across in my life.....sadly too little recognition from the medical community that they do discriminate against the obese. This is particularly prevalent in the govt funded system here in Australia where BMI becomes a major determinant of whether a patient is offered publically funded surgeries, where obesity sees you looked at as not worth the public expense. I too have been obese all my life, and tried everything within my power to become "normal". Bullied at school, bullied in the workplace when I worked in a very public facing government sector, each occasion shrinking my own sense of self worth. I still haven't managed to reclaim that....but I'm trying. Posts like yours just reiterate that we were and are the same talented, smart, worthwhile human beings even under the layers of fat we once lived in.

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:wub:  LOVE THIS: Not because I dropped a ridiculous amount of weight, but because I am awesome and, spoiler alert, I ALWAYS WAS.  This needs to be your new mantra,....your signature line at the bottom of each post....love, love, love it!!!!

So proud of another November Newbie becoming a November (k)Nockout!  You’re rocking is, Rosy!  You look so awesome, way to change your entire life in one year!!!!  Not many people get such a remarkable do-over in their life, but we’ve been handed a RESET BUTTON to do with what we want.  We pushed it and never looked back, but ran ahead with our new lives and are killing it!!!!!  

Thanks for the update, the insight and the pics!  And looking forward to hearing of your many promotions that lay ahead!!!!  You earned it, girlfriend!

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What a great post, @Boho Rosy! You are doing so well :) I can feel the confidence flowing out of my screen at me. You're a beautiful, healthy, happy person.

I, too, sometimes feel really dismayed thinking about how much worse I was treated when I was heavy - I mean, it's nice to be treated well now, but it makes my heart ache for my past self and for all the others out there dealing with the stigma of being overweight. Life is just easier and more pleasant for people who are thin, unfortunately. I'm enjoying it now, but always with a little tinge of sadness for the reality of life for heavy people.

Keep up your hard work and positive attitude. You should be so proud of yourself!

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Your weight loss is amazing and inspirational to us all. 

And thank you for sharing your thoughts and photos.  We have all had similarly negative overweight person experiences, and it is truly wonderful to put a lifetime of these negative experiences behind you.  

We are looking forward to welcoming you to the "Maintenance Cafe" once you reach your goal weight.  Life at goal weight is wonderful.

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On 11/15/2018 at 2:19 PM, TammyP said:

@Boho Rosy  Wow, just Wow!  You are killing this girl!  You look amazing!  Big congratz on your one year surgiversary, and thanks for keeping it REAL. 

P.S.  Cute kitty <3 

Thanks so much. You can always count on me to keep it real! :)

p.s. That's my kitty, Brian!

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On 11/15/2018 at 6:30 PM, Aussie Bear said:

I really needed to read words today like you just wrote Rosy. You are awesome, and your weightloss is also awesome....one awesome woman. I was just reading through all the information that came with my age 60 national bowel screening kit and got to the obesity risks part...... and was sadly reminded of all the obesity related medical discrimination that I've come across in my life.....sadly too little recognition from the medical community that they do discriminate against the obese. This is particularly prevalent in the govt funded system here in Australia where BMI becomes a major determinant of whether a patient is offered publically funded surgeries, where obesity sees you looked at as not worth the public expense. I too have been obese all my life, and tried everything within my power to become "normal". Bullied at school, bullied in the workplace when I worked in a very public facing government sector, each occasion shrinking my own sense of self worth. I still haven't managed to reclaim that....but I'm trying. Posts like yours just reiterate that we were and are the same talented, smart, worthwhile human beings even under the layers of fat we once lived in.

Thank you for your kind words. What you said about still not managing to reclaim your sense of self worth hurts my heart. It's just so hard, but we must never stop trying. 

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On 11/15/2018 at 9:43 PM, CheeringCJ said:

:wub:  LOVE THIS: Not because I dropped a ridiculous amount of weight, but because I am awesome and, spoiler alert, I ALWAYS WAS.  This needs to be your new mantra,....your signature line at the bottom of each post....love, love, love it!!!!

So proud of another November Newbie becoming a November (k)Nockout!  You’re rocking is, Rosy!  You look so awesome, way to change your entire life in one year!!!!  Not many people get such a remarkable do-over in their life, but we’ve been handed a RESET BUTTON to do with what we want.  We pushed it and never looked back, but ran ahead with our new lives and are killing it!!!!!  

Thanks for the update, the insight and the pics!  And looking forward to hearing of your many promotions that lay ahead!!!!  You earned it, girlfriend!

Thank you so much!! You're looking fantastic yourself, and I have appreciated every kind and encouraging word you've shared over the past year. I feel lucky to have gone through this journey with you and our other November pals - such a fantastic group of people!

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2 hours ago, Boho Rosy said:

Thank you so much!! You're looking fantastic yourself, and I have appreciated every kind and encouraging word you've shared over the past year. I feel lucky to have gone through this journey with you and our other November pals - such a fantastic group of people!

Thanks, and it has been fun to go thtrough it with a group!  I am also partial to the NNs!!  Of course all of the TTF family are great! I am so glad we didn’t have to journey alone! :)

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