10 months and counting....

CheeringCJ

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It is amazing to me that I am ten months out!!!  How did that 10 months go flying by so quickly? But then again,  sometimes I think being heavy was a LIFETIME ago, not only 10 months ago!  How blessed I still feel for being able to have the surgery!

This month wasn’t a big weight loss month again (eating out, going away twice, fresh Jersey peaches (so worth it!) and then  finding it hard to get back on track after vacation (but I am mostly there now).  I went up 2-3# in Aug but went back down to 158 so I am doing ok. I have continued to lose inches though….i put on and zipped up my first size 10 pants this month!  Wow!  I would have never believed it!!!

Life is super busy but I am coping well with it…no stress eating! Though it isn’t always easy and I am not perfect.  However, while I am not stress eating, I do want food more than I did at the beginning and I find myself looking over other people’s food more and more….and I have found that is certain things make it into my house (usually as a “left over”) I am still not safe around them.  I guess I have to do what @BurgundyBoydoes and just say no to letting stuff in (isn’t it you that can’t let trail mix in, BB?). Anyway, it was so much easier in the beginning but I didn’t go through all of this to fail, after all failure isn’t an option (wasn’t that you, @Res Ipsa that says that?)  Clearly it is a battle I haven’t conquered and I have to still slay the dragon (or at least fight him since he seems un-slay-able!)….but I am willing to keep at it.

I have been watching videos lately by Dr Matthew Werner, a bariatric surgeon and he makes a lot of sense….although I have to stop because I realize that I am weakest when I entertain the ideas of others! Like his thing is to eat fruits and veggies and not concentrate so heavily on the protein (though, he still says to have 45-60 grams/day) and I honestly have been wondering why I am still forcing 80-90 grams a day into me when I know I don’t need that much….but it was my initial NUT requirement and they haven’t told me any different so I still do it.  Anyway, my mind gets clouded when I start introducing new ideas like that in it.  Partially bc I know some of them are right so I will implement some while still using my old tried and true…then they get to be a hybrid and suddenly I am eating fists fulls of grapes every day and wondering why I am not losing weight.  Sooooo, I have decided to stick with that worked for me and revisit other foods after my 1st year it up.

I know it sounds like I am being negative but I am just keeping it real here! :)  It was MUCH easier at the beginning but honestly I knew to expect it to slow down and get harder, I just don’t want to face it yet.  Still I enjoy being thinner, having hip bones to rest my hands on when I am standing, try any normal sized thing on and it fit (EVERYTHING comes in my size now!) and feeling muscles I haven’t felt/seen in a long time, so it is still so worth it and I am still going to push through this funk.  The one thing that Dr Weiner said that really stuck w/ me was it isn’t the smaller portions that are going to make you thin (anyone can make small portions of junky food) but it is the CHANGE in eating patterns (like making better choices, cutting out some things etc).  I have to come to terms w/ the fact that there are somethings I will never eat again….like fast food, which is darned funny bc I NEVER would eat it before….i mean, I’d take a few fries if I got it for my kids (which was rare) but I never liked or saw the value in fast food junk, but hearing him say on the video that we need to come to terms with never having that I totally get it…he said we are highly susceptible to downfalls like that bc we had WLS…not really bc we HAD it but bc we NEEDED it.  So I really don’t care about fast food but my mind had to accept that there will never be a place for it in my new sleeve (and actually I am fine w/ that, it is only the heart of a rebel hearing “no-no” that spurs a desire for it!). Other things are going on my very, very, very rarely list….like a biscuit….love them, rarely allowed myself to have them before but I would love one right now!   But nope, I will not do that to me….maybe once a year like on my bday or Christmas or something if I want to chose one splurge thing I might, but I don’t really need to make it part of my life other than that.  For instance, my bday is coming up in a few weeks….I like cake, love batter even more, and could eat icing by the spoons full….so am I safe around it? Nope!  And I am ok w/ not having it, instead I bought the ONE bar bday cake bar as a treat for when it rolls around.  I have no idea how it will taste but it had good reviews.

Now, on to my pics….I had to get new pants this month….my old size 2x stretchy whatever they were (not really shorts, not really capris, but what fat women wear when it is too hot for pants but they won’t be seen dead in shorts) wouldn’t stay up for another pic and I don’t want a pic of them at my ankles!!! Haha!  So I got a size M shirt and a size 12-14 capris!  I put them on for the first time for the pic….assuming they’d fit (which is a nice feeling….I do that all of the time now)….and lo and behold, something absolutely miraculous happened……wait for it….wait for it….where is @CurvyMermaid ???  Look at the picture….for the first time in my LIFE…I have a thigh gap!!!!!  You can’t fake that or make it up….there it is, an ever so tiny white spot between my thighs!!!!   Wow!! My husband was making the pic montage for me and adding the new one and he said…”come see this…you should be very proud of this” and I said “what?”and he said “this little white spot here”…and he pointed to it and then put it side by side w/ my before pic and I gasped!  Who is THIS woman and where has Thunder Thighs gone???  Granted, you don’t want to see my thighs in real life, but really they aren’t as horrible as I imagined they’d be….i can live with them (as if I had an option).  (Another bonus, my sweetheart pointed out that I have even lost weight in my nose!!!  I have always hated my big nose which was a spitting image of my grandfather’s nose, but it never belonged on a girl’s face! Knowing a nose can’t lose weight, I looked at what he was talking about and really the side by side face shots from 10 months ago til now, do show a different in my big old nose!...who knew?)

I am taking the lead from my buddy, @Kio and joining Planet Fitness.  I’ve been meaning to do it but have been walking 5-6 miles a day and I really don’t have the time for both.  But I think the walking can only take me so far…I need to strength train now, so it is time to move on.  My husband who is so super supportive is joining with me…and right now it is only 25 cents to join, and $10/month (which we get $150 back from our insurance if we go 120 in 12 months which I have done plenty of years before just to get the rebate…and then we have to pay $39.99 annual membership fee (due. 11/1) so it will be $160.24 total with $150 back….viola, $10.24/yr gym membership and a more toned body to boot!  

Onward and upward, I will keep changing my lifestyle to make this sleeve work for me!  

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You're doing so well! Look how much less of that door you're covering up now! :) 

Dr. Matthew Weiner's videos are pretty good - I don't subscribe to everything he says, but many things make a lot of sense to me. I do appreciate that he pushes veggies a lot. This is something I probably ought to do in my life a bit more. Realizing that there are patterns of choices that we make that end up with a big cumulative difference is important. It's not the bigger portion today, or the handful of chips today, but just having a permanently "on" voice in the back of our heads that steers us toward the better options that makes the difference long term. 

Your Planet Fitness insurance rebate sounds like a pretty good deal! Good luck with starting there - it seems a little overwhelming at first to go to the gym, but the sooner you can make yourself feel comfortable there, the better. Strength training is making me feel really good, and I have no doubt it's helping with filling out the loose skin. You'll see and feel the benefits of going. 

 

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3 hours ago, Jen581791 said:

You're doing so well! Look how much less of that door you're covering up now! :) 

Dr. Matthew Weiner's videos are pretty good - I don't subscribe to everything he says, but many things make a lot of sense to me. I do appreciate that he pushes veggies a lot. This is something I probably ought to do in my life a bit more. Realizing that there are patterns of choices that we make that end up with a big cumulative difference is important. It's not the bigger portion today, or the handful of chips today, but just having a permanently "on" voice in the back of our heads that steers us toward the better options that makes the difference long term. 

Your Planet Fitness insurance rebate sounds like a pretty good deal! Good luck with starting there - it seems a little overwhelming at first to go to the gym, but the sooner you can make yourself feel comfortable there, the better. Strength training is making me feel really good, and I have no doubt it's helping with filling out the loose skin. You'll see and feel the benefits of going. 

 

It is funny, now that you say that and I looked at the door.....i know i have lost weight but i actually lost width....my left arm is in basically the same spot near the knob and yet my right arm which was nearly at the edge of the door has plenty of room before the frame now...interesting.  That is why i do the pics bc i won’t grasp the journey as much if i don’t see it like that. Otherwise it depends on how i am feeling that day to decide if i like i am being victorious in all of this.  

Veggies are a great idea but i seldom have room for them with my meals but there is no rule that i can’t use them as a snack, and i will have to start putting them back in more (I LOVE veggies!). As for the gym, i am anxious to get started (not anxious for the sore part which is inevitable).  I’ve done gyms for ages....actually worked at a Curves for a decade, training other women to use the machines, so i am anxious to get back to it.  Last time i was at a gym was 2 yrs ago, so it is time :)

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7 hours ago, CheeringCJ said:

Thanks, Tracy!  We surround ourselves with winners here and end up being one too! :)

Absolutely, and I plan on being here for many years.  Seems the ones who stick around have lifelong success !!  Here is to us !

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7 hours ago, tracyringo said:

Absolutely, and I plan on being here for many years.  Seems the ones who stick around have lifelong success !!  Here is to us !

Same here....gotta surround myself with those who “get it”!

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42 minutes ago, Cheesehead said:

I also think you look younger!  

Thanks, I will take that compliment for sure! :)

Seriously though, our excessive weight has always aged us...so just shedding that had to help us look/feel younger. 

I still will never recognize that girl in the first pic.....i don’t ever remember being that fat! Fortunately i always saw myself not as big as I really was!

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