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Month 9 - and a huge surprise

delilas

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So I finally got back to using the scale again this month. I weighed in at the hospital on the 21st when showing up for my EGD, and was thrilled to know I have hit and surpassed the 100 pounds down mark! I was 209 pounds that day. I still haven't really gotten my scale out of it's closet of shame right now, but I'm feeling good about that :) 
 
The dysmorphia has been hella bad the last two months. I'm one of those that never felt I was as large as I was (until staring at the number on the scale or seeing a picture of myself). So to some extent, I'm fighting the notion that I haven't really lost much weight.  I also fight feeling smaller than I am. I can wear a 14 jean quite comfortably (which was a total surprise), and I've had to stop shopping at plus-size niche shops like Lane Bryant and Torrid for the most part. However, sometimes when I pick something up, I feel it should fit, only to have it fit me like a sausage casing. 
 
Essentially, I feel overall I have no idea what I really look like, no matter how much I look at pictures or in the mirror. :D All part of the journey, I think.
 
In other news, I've been going to the gym much more faithfully and have noticed some forward momentum in stamina. I've also been doing (super duper beginner) yoga at home on a regular basis (thank you, youtube) and feel my muscles aren't as tight and my idiot left hip is finally coming around. Hiking continues to be a mainstay, although it'd be great if the rain could subside for more than a day or so.
 
I had the EGD, and thankfully, only one small ulcer. They put a bravo capsule in me (it attaches to your esophagus) and I walked around for a couple days with this giant data collector that connects to the capsule by bluetooth to measure my pH levels. It has a few buttons on it that I press to indicate when I am eating, sleeping, or feeling symptoms. I had 105 episodes of reflux in two days. I'm not sure what this means, still waiting to hear back from the bariatric office. 
 
And I'm kind of burying the lead here, but last week I found out some major news.
 
I'm pregnant, y'all. 
 
This comes as a complete and utter shock after nearly 8 years of trying, including 3-4 years of off and on fertility treatments. I have a completely blocked left fallopian tube, and polycystic ovaries, and was told in no uncertain terms I'd need IVF to conceive. We were planning after I'd at least hit the year post-op mark and gotten under 180 to go for IVF. Then last week, after a full week of aching boobs that were a lot worse than my normal PMS-type symptoms, I kinda shrugged and took a test, not thinking much of it. And then I saw two lines and lost my mind for a second. I quickly took a second test, told my DH, and we both said - "theyre cheap chinese tests, lets go get a real one". Ran over to CVS, bought several "real" ones and brought them home only for them all to pop positive within 10 seconds. Whew. 
 
You guys are pretty much the only ones to know right now, because it is an ingrained part of my WLS journey. I haven't told my parents yet because my mother has been literally begging me for a grandchild for 13 years, and I'm at a high risk of miscarriage, so I'd like to at least meet my OB and make sure things are okay before I tell them. I'm actually kind of thankful for TTF, because I'm going to scream if I don't at least tell SOMEONE - and because, no matter what way this ends up, it is entwined with my WLS journey like a pretzel. 
 
This certainly takes any revision surgery (for the heartburn) off the table for me for now, and has brought up a slew of questions about navigating nutritional needs while post-op. Thankfully, there's a lot of literature out there for this. I haven't yet told my bari team, partly because I know they're not going to be happy. We're supposed to avoid pregnancy until at least 12 months, and preferably 18, and here I am, pregnant at 9 months post op. I meet my OB in a couple weeks, and plan to call my bari team as soon as I know it's not an ectopic or otherwise problematic pregnancy. 
 
So yeah. That's been my month. And my last couple weeks.:P


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Holy Toledo. Congratulations, mazel tov, whatever! and aren't you glad this is an anonymous forum??

Well, much better to be pregnant at 200 lbs than 300 lbs. Much much safer. And if you are successful -> no IVF, and a child! While WLS might be the best thing I ever did for me, having a child has been the most rewarding experience of my life. Good luck to you and your DH! :wub:  

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Urge caution with sharing this news too widely if you are at risk of miscarriage (actually, who is not?). If you do have a miscarriage, some people could (incorrectly) say it happened because of your prior weight loss. Plus all the psychic pain and mourning can be better endured if you have chosen who to share it with. Just a thought...

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I blush to mention this, as I am a very modest chap, but am sure your weight loss due to WLS contributed to your being pregnant. I mean, uh, both the hormonal balance may have been better, and the, uh, umm, animal spirits may have been more easily, umm, appeased with a more modest um, er, package. You know what I mean.  :rolleyes: Here at BB's house the animal spirits have been, um, unleashed. 

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Congratulations delilas..  I fell pregnant quite early on after my original surgery.....we didn't have any education regarding the surgery back then, and certainly no followup. For whatever reason, and it may or may not have been related to the WLS, I had an early miscarriage.  It's wise to keep this great news close to your chest right now. Get you first OB appointment out of the way, tell your bariatric team and hopefully they'll give you any nutritional support you might need. Best wishes moving forward.

Having children, watching them grow, supporting and encouraging them to be the best people they could be......ended up giving me reason to wake up and keep going everyday....and I can proudly say they are the legacy I will be leaving this world when I depart.

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Aaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!!! Well, THAT is a November Knockout first!!!! Hahaha! (Better you than me, sister!!! LOL!!!)

I am sooo thrilled for you!  After all of that time of trying, it is amazing that suddenly without trying your body started cooperating!!!!  There are no less than 1000 things that have to be running through your head right now but right now, just revel in your little secret!  Did you set up any appts yet?  So darned excited for you!

BTW i had very healthy pregnancies around 218#.  In fact all those pgs were in my early mid 30s (33/35/36)...the first one from my first visit to full term and in labor, I only gained one pound, in my second, I stayed exactly the same and in my third, I actually lost one pound from beginning to end.  My OB wasn’t at all concerned, he said some women in their 30s who are overweight actually don’t gain weight bc it is a way of kicking their low metabolisms into high gear and I went every week to a Chinese buffet and still didn’t ‘gain weight, it was the BEST!  My metabolism when back to my normal after they were born, but my point is that I had 3 babies in my low 200s range and didn’t have to gain weight so you may not have as much to fear about that as you think!

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2 hours ago, BurgundyBoy said:

Holy Toledo. Congratulations, mazel tov, whatever! and aren't you glad this is an anonymous forum??

Well, much better to be pregnant at 200 lbs than 300 lbs. Much much safer. And if you are successful -> no IVF, and a child! While WLS might be the best thing I ever did for me, having a child has been the most rewarding experience of my life. Good luck to you and your DH! :wub:  

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Urge caution with sharing this news too widely if you are at risk of miscarriage (actually, who is not?). If you do have a miscarriage, some people could (incorrectly) say it happened because of your prior weight loss. Plus all the psychic pain and mourning can be better endured if you have chosen who to share it with. Just a thought...

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I blush to mention this, as I am a very modest chap, but am sure your weight loss due to WLS contributed to your being pregnant. I mean, uh, both the hormonal balance may have been better, and the, uh, umm, animal spirits may have been more easily, umm, appeased with a more modest um, er, package. You know what I mean.  :rolleyes: Here at BB's house the animal spirits have been, um, unleashed. 

Thank you :D And I have been taking the caution in sharing to heart. Even after the relative safety of the first trimester has passed, we've agreed to be slow in telling people, just in case. I'm not even quite 6 weeks along, so it's super early!

And your blushing is adorable and spot on. Between the hormonal balance and the animal spirits, I think we got us a miracle :D 

2 hours ago, Aussie Bear said:

Congratulations delilas..  I fell pregnant quite early on after my original surgery.....we didn't have any education regarding the surgery back then, and certainly no followup. For whatever reason, and it may or may not have been related to the WLS, I had an early miscarriage.  It's wise to keep this great news close to your chest right now. Get you first OB appointment out of the way, tell your bariatric team and hopefully they'll give you any nutritional support you might need. Best wishes moving forward.

Having children, watching them grow, supporting and encouraging them to be the best people they could be......ended up giving me reason to wake up and keep going everyday....and I can proudly say they are the legacy I will be leaving this world when I depart.

Thank you, Aussie! I'm glad someone else here experienced this - and I'm so glad you have this legacy :wub:

42 minutes ago, CheeringCJ said:

Aaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!!! Well, THAT is a November Knockout first!!!! Hahaha! (Better you than me, sister!!! LOL!!!)

I am sooo thrilled for you!  After all of that time of trying, it is amazing that suddenly without trying your body started cooperating!!!!  There are no less than 1000 things that have to be running through your head right now but right now, just revel in your little secret!  Did you set up any appts yet?  So darned excited for you!

BTW i had very healthy pregnancies around 218#.  In fact all those pgs were in my early mid 30s (33/35/36)...the first one from my first visit to full term and in labor, I only gained one pound, in my second, I stayed exactly the same and in my third, I actually lost one pound from beginning to end.  My OB wasn’t at all concerned, he said some women in their 30s who are overweight actually don’t gain weight bc it is a way of kicking their low metabolisms into high gear and I went every week to a Chinese buffet and still didn’t ‘gain weight, it was the BEST!  My metabolism when back to my normal after they were born, but my point is that I had 3 babies in my low 200s range and didn’t have to gain weight so you may not have as much to fear about that as you think!

That's so good to hear yours went well around this weight! I definitely feel so much healthier at 209, that's for sure! I did set up appointments - I have an educational phone call they require on the 12th, and the actual appointment is on the 18th. My clinic doesnt see patients until they're at least 8 weeks along. In the meantime, I'm just crossing fingers and eyes and toes that all goes well. 

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Congrats on the exciting news! I'm sure there have been some amazing changes in your body from losing a bunch of weight for it to allow this to happen without assistance. What great news for someone who's been trying for a long time :) 

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Congratulations!!!!  My wife and I had trouble conceiving and spent many years going through fertility treatments, but eventually my wife did get pregnant twice and our two (now adult) sons are the main reason that I had my gastric bypass - so that I could live longer and see them grow old with me!  A child is a wonderful addition to your life. :)

I say "bah humbug" (or something worse) to anyone who questions getting pregnant 9 months after weight loss surgery - you certainly are much healthier now than you were nine months ago, all of your surgical wounds have long since healed, and you almost certainly are eating a more healthy diet now than you were year ago.  Be very sure to keep up on your daily vitamins.  

I suggest that you spend some time checking out the postings in TTF's "Pregnancy" board.

Once again, congratulations.

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