First of all, the lady who was taking information said to me “how much to you weigh?” And for once I didnt’ have to whisper (or lie!) and I just said 166 like I was “normal people” and then later I got a free T-shirt and she asked me what size and I said large, she said “that is going to be huge on you, you look much smaller than a large!” WHAT??? You are my new BFF, lady!!! Never leave my side and just keep reminding me that I am MUCH SMALLER!!!
I think that is my weird thing I am dealing w/ this month, is being a NORMAL person. Part of me feels so out of place, like I’ve entered the land of the regular people and I don’t belong, yet, I’ve been given a pass to enter and see what it is like. I don’t know if any of you are dealing w/ that or if I am just a weirdo but I just have this weird feeling of “so this is what it feels like to be normal” I am not thin or skinny and never will be but I am just normal and regular! It is bizzzare like I am in wonderland w/ Alice and everything is different than i am used to. I feel like I don’t belong here and will be asked to leave when i gain the weight back. Such odd feelings!
I ran into my surgeon on the way up from the train and he said he really doesn’t recognize me anymore when he’ sees me! Awesome! I reminded him that just before surgery I told him I was going to be his ideal patient and he laughed today and agreed and said “I wish they all were like you!”
I went to my support group meeting tonight and I just want to scream to them, STOP DIETING AND CHANGE YOUR LIFESTYLE! They are talking about eating rice cakes and whole wheat pasta w/ just a “little” Alfredo sauce...what????? We had a NUT there tonight (tho she never works w/ Baritatric pts, just diabetics, so it was a poor choice). She was suggesting for breakfast 2 hard boiled eggs, an apple cut up and 2 tablespoons of peanut butter...and I said “I am 8 months out but there is still NO way I could eat an entire apple and 2 eggs and PB!” She didn’t get it anymore than the ppl at the group did! My leader gets it. I told them I eat mostly meat at dinner....I just get my protein into me first and if I have any room left a bite or two of veggies, I don’t have a side salad like they were talking about, I don’t have room. I just think they don’t get it. I feel like the WLS ambassador to them all, explaining things. Which I dont’ mind but still, they are just so clueless!