My 8th month surgiversary (on time for once!)

CheeringCJ

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Another month?!?  I can’t believe how fast time flies. Sometimes it feels that I recently had surgery but sometimes it feels my sleeve has been part of my life for years!  Honestly I’m glad it’s part of my life and will be with me forever!  Before my surgery I remember wondering would I regret my choice to barbarically have the majority of my stomach severed off and stapled back up just to be thinner?  Of course in my research I found it was not all that barbaric and most people are fine with it.  Obviously I went ahead with it and had it done. Not. A. Single. Moment. Of. Regret. Ever!  Even when it hurt when I woke up, no regret. Even when I was on my fourth week of liquids only, no regret. Even when I was sitting at Thanksgiving dinner eating pureed, no regret. Never, ever once.  Of course now that I’ve lost 75#, hit my doctor’s goal weight, am out of plus sizes forever, lost tons of inches, and went down 5 sizes there isn’t even a thought of why I’d even HAVE a second of regret! ;)

My weight loss has slowed considerably and I’m trying different things to see if I can change that up. The inches lost is slowing as you can see in the ribbon picture but my body shape is still shrinking (as you can see in my monthly shots). It’s been a bit of a mind game when my Dr was so impressed, I started resting on my laurels. I added more carbs into my diet and that hasn’t helped. It’s been mostly good carbs (fruit) but I’m responding by holding on dearly to every ounce and I want to make this year work for me so I decided to wait until after Nov 6th to add them back in on a regular basis.  I still want to continue to lose weight and I want to make the most of these next 4 months.    

I do like how I feel like a totally different person. Like I’m getting a glimpse into the world of normal size persons and not fretting 100% of the time if I’m the biggest person in the room or if I look dumpy in these clothes or if I will fit in that seat etc. I spend a lot less time worrying over silly (though real) things like that!  I’m still not thin but I’m not morbidly obese either!  My back is much thinner (my front is smaller but loves to hang on to it’s overhang!) and I occasionally catch glimpses of my reflection and don’t recognize myself! (Specially from the side, where i was so big)  I was attributing it to “good mirrors” and “good angles” at first til I realized how consistent it was and my dear husband is always trying to convince me how thin I am because I don’t always see it. 

I can’t stress enough how my mental outlook has changed also. It’s too difficult to explain but I suspect you guys get it bc you’ve gone through it! (Which is why it is so comfortable here….you guys GET IT!).  I do find myself in a weird limbo of not being fat but not being a dieter either. Like my friends are either skinny or fat and not trying or desperately trying every diet out there in order to yoyo up and down. I don’t fit into any of those categories. I wish I was able to admit to the surgery bc I feel like I’m playing into the ignorance about it but there is just too much prejudice around it for me to be able to admit to it right now. I feel like if I kept it off for years and was a really WLS success story then I could admit it but right now I feel they’d be watching for me to fall/fail (and part of me is afraid of that too!). I find myself in my old brain wondering when this will be done. It’s been a great ride, but when will the regain start?  I keep wanting to see ppl I haven’t seen in a long time bc this is my thin summer….who knows what next year will bring?  It’s a terrible way to think of things and I’m working on rewiring my brain but from so.many years of the cycle I’m just used to going back up after my skinny season. So it’s a continual process of discovering and growing and changing as all of you know from your own journey!

Here’s my pictures from today (I couldn’t find the tank top so I have a substitute one on). And look here, I got my 8th month surgiversary post and pics up THAT DAY and not 3 wks later…haha!   

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Wow! CJ, these pictures are right inline with the ones that Jen posted of her journey! You keep going like this and you will be looking and feeling just as good as she does in no time at all!

Huge congratulations to you!!!! Woohoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Girl you look and sound fabulous!!! You have been and continue to be quite an inspiration to me! I had my surgery 2-1/2 wks ago and I’m just getting used to my new “smaller”  tummy. Reading posts like yours gives me encouragement that I can do this! I’ve been having issues with the stitches in the abdominal muscle burning and hurting when I bend over or move in a certain way so that is limiting me from moving around as freely as I would like. But I know this will pass. The weight is coming off and that is my focus! I would do it all again in a heart beat! I can’t wait till I get to the point you’re at now! Thank you so much for sharing!! It means more than you know! Congratulations on your success!!!!:D

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Your success so far has been amazing!  Dealing with the emotional issues related to becoming a lot thinner after weight loss surgery can be a bit unsettling (and even slightly scary) at first, but once you reach and maintain at your goal weight you will find that being thin, healthy and more active should become your new normal.

Remember that losing weight after surgery is not like losing weight after a diet as you really can avoid putting the weight back on again if you are careful.  Thus, from now on all of your summers should be "thin summers."

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9 hours ago, Readytobeme said:

Wow! CJ, these pictures are right inline with the ones that Jen posted of her journey! You keep going like this and you will be looking and feeling just as good as she does in no time at all!

Huge congratulations to you!!!! Woohoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh if only.... @Jen581791  is my hero (I would say heroine but then It reads like I am addicted to her, which truth be told, I do trust in her every post like she is a weight loss goddess!!! Haha!). But anyway, my dream is to become like her. (Love ya, Jen!) 

Thanks for your compliments!  I am loving this new life, but then you all feel that way, i am sure!

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10 hours ago, Animalrescuer18 said:

Girl you look and sound fabulous!!! You have been and continue to be quite an inspiration to me! I had my surgery 2-1/2 wks ago and I’m just getting used to my new “smaller”  tummy. Reading posts like yours gives me encouragement that I can do this! I’ve been having issues with the stitches in the abdominal muscle burning and hurting when I bend over or move in a certain way so that is limiting me from moving around as freely as I would like. But I know this will pass. The weight is coming off and that is my focus! I would do it all again in a heart beat! I can’t wait till I get to the point you’re at now! Thank you so much for sharing!! It means more than you know! Congratulations on your success!!!!:D

Yes, you are right, it will pass.  Frankly it sucked at the beginning, i didn’t expect it to hurt, but i didn’t really dwell on the pain, i just kept thinking how exciting it was to get on the scale every day!  (And don’t be surprised, around 3-4 was your weight loss will stop for a week or week and a half and you’ll want to panic.  But it seems to happen to most everyone and it will pass and you’ll be back to losing insane amounts again!  Just forewarning you). Stay here, that is the best advice.  I read every word when I first found the site (about 4 months before my surgery) and I determined to be like the positive people on here and follow the rules and make myself accountable and do what was required to make this work and the biggest thing is staying here and getting the support.  So back in the beginning, I was where you were and watching ppl like @Jen581791 and @BurgundyBoy and @NerdyToothpick among tons of others,  who were ahead of me and killing it and @Kio who was a little ahead of me so i watched her become a success story (one day at a time, right, Kio?   I logged in every day to see what that day brought!)  so i knew it coiuld be done.  You can do the same, stay here for support and be inspired by those before you.  Thank you for your kind words!

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7 hours ago, BurgundyBoy said:

Great progress! Well done and a great montage!

Thanks, BB, I’m not finished yet!  By Nov, you will see all 13 pics up there.  Granted I can’t imagine getting any smaller than now because even this seemed unreachable but I’ll post the pics in Nov to prove it can be done :)  Thanks for your continued encouragement and support!

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3 hours ago, Res Ipsa said:

Your success so far has been amazing!  Dealing with the emotional issues related to becoming a lot thinner after weight loss surgery can be a bit unsettling (and even slightly scary) at first, but once you reach and maintain at your goal weight you will find that being thin, healthy and more active should become your new normal.

Remember that losing weight after surgery is not like losing weight after a diet as you really can avoid putting the weight back on again if you are careful.  Thus, from now on all of your summers should be "thin summers."

Thanks @Res Ipsa, that means a lot coming from a TT superstar! It has been way more emotional than I realized, but doable, it just takes a lot of getting used to and finding my place among the normal ppl in society.  (Which is pathetically sad when you think how we all felt like outcasts at some point simply bc of our appearance and it angers me that i am more accepted at this stage, but it is how the world is and i can’t change that...yet!). I really want to believe what you say about maintaining.  I’ve never gotten to that point because truth be told, I NEVER reached my goal weight, ever, so I won’t know what to do except what I’ve always done at the end of a diet and gain.  So I am going to trust what you say and just push on to staying healthy, active and smaller!  

And I do long for it, my new mantra...”THIN SUMMERS FOR LIFE!” :D 

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You look great!  It’s all a mind game.  The mind is tricky!  You’re an old pro now!  I imagine you are much less hot and sweaty too.

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1 hour ago, Cheesehead said:

You look great!  It’s all a mind game.  The mind is tricky!  You’re an old pro now!  I imagine you are much less hot and sweaty too.

It's absolutely a mind game but it has been my whole life, so I don't know why I thought it would be different....like I'd never have to think about it, just lose weight and be happy.  Granted, I AM happy but there are so many fears of gaining it back, which is why I stick around here with other losers (meaning WINNERS!)!  

It's funny I was just saying that to my girlfriend today....how I have been walking so much more....over a mile and a half every day at my lunch 1/2 hr and then 3 miles every night w/ my husband, and i havI am fine w/ it!

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2 hours ago, CheeringCJ said:

Oh if only.... @Jen581791  is my hero (I would say heroine but then It reads like I am addicted to her, which truth be told, I do trust in her every post like she is a weight loss goddess!!! Haha!). But anyway, my dream is to become like her. (Love ya, Jen!) 

Thanks for your compliments!  I am loving this new life, but then you all feel that way, i am sure!

I agree - @Jen581791 is a heroine in every way.  :)

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13 hours ago, CheeringCJ said:

Oh if only.... @Jen581791  is my hero (I would say heroine but then It reads like I am addicted to her, which truth be told, I do trust in her every post like she is a weight loss goddess!!! Haha!). But anyway, my dream is to become like her. (Love ya, Jen!) 

Thanks for your compliments!  I am loving this new life, but then you all feel that way, i am sure!

Ahhhh, that’s very sweet! :wub:

Thanks to you, too @Res Ipsa :D 

CJ, you’re doing amazingly well! You look great, you’ve built new habits, and you’re holding yourself accountable - go, you! 

Your comparison photos are great. I hope you can see them the way I see them, although I know that’s hard with your own photos. Keep looking at them - it actually does help your brain to figure out what’s happening to your body, I think.

The overlay shot is incredible! 

I know it’s hard to think about this as being a permanent change after years of yoyoing, but we’re all here to support you in your fight to stay healthy and successful. 

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On 7/7/2018 at 8:37 AM, Jen581791 said:

Ahhhh, that’s very sweet! :wub:

Thanks to you, too @Res Ipsa :D 

CJ, you’re doing amazingly well! You look great, you’ve built new habits, and you’re holding yourself accountable - go, you! 

Your comparison photos are great. I hope you can see them the way I see them, although I know that’s hard with your own photos. Keep looking at them - it actually does help your brain to figure out what’s happening to your body, I think.

The overlay shot is incredible! 

I know it’s hard to think about this as being a permanent change after years of yoyoing, but we’re all here to support you in your fight to stay healthy and successful. 

Thanks, Jen!  I do look at the pictures to encourage me when i am annoyed at my scale not moving much. I see the difference in my waist and such and know my body is doing something even if my scale isn’t overly rewarding!

my husband does the shots for me and did the overlay one starting a few months ago and i am always amazed at it...he does it real quick on keynote and sends it to me about 5 mins after he’s taken them and each time i open it, i am still shocked. The weird thing is we both don’t remember me being THAT big as the before pic (and that is about 17# down from my start weight, so I WAS even bigger! Yikes!) that is how I can see a difference!

You’ve always been an inspiration to me (along w/ others here) and it is so helpful to see others “living the dream” as it were,, so I know it is possible for me to succeed too!  If only my mind was convinced 100% of the time....it’ll catch up I am sure!

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