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CurvyMermaid

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Not an  Idiot, Not Eating

This update is about 10 days late and my heart isn't in it.   I have suffered through three deaths of close family and just got back from the last funeral.  I have discovered that when the extreme stresses of life get to me, my coping mechanism of junk food (pizza, chips, etc), has zero appeal.  This is great in regards to using my tool to continue on my weight loss journey but food now has zero appeal. I am not an idiot and I know that not eating is stupid but the last thing I feel like doing is figuring out what I should/could/can eat.  I've been getting in protein through Genepro unflavored mixed with water so at least my protein and hydration is there.  Meh.

In an attempt to improve my mood, below are five things that made me smile:

1.  What folks warned about during flying (having your extra skin being mistaken as something dangerous during TSA screening) is true.  I haven't been felt up this much since high school. 

2. My brother is getting married!  I normally am lucky to see my brother once per year because he lives overseas but I saw him in December for the holidays and recently for the funerals.  I can tell he is so happy, and that makes me happy.

3. As an addition to above, my brother is moving near me!  After living the last 20 years on separate sides of the country or in different countries, I'm thrilled he and his wifey-to-be will be 45 minutes away from me. 

4. While I haven't felt like I've lost any more noticeable weight (and haven't updated my stats in about a month, nor bought more properly fitting clothes), I apparently look quite a bit different since I saw everyone at Christmas.  I have a wonderful, supportive family and they were very lovely in their compliments.

5.  I have discovered a new hobby.  Well, I have finally started lessons on a hobby that I have wanted to learn for a long time - archery.  It's almost meditative and I'm happy to be taking some time to cultivate the interest.

I need to get into the TT Forums and start getting caught up on how everyone is doing.  I feel almost estranged from my TT folks, when really this is when I should be checking in and receiving/giving support.

Hugs to everyone and hugs to your families - enjoy every moment with them!

 

 



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So sorry to hear about your recent losses, @CurvyMermaid.  You're making it through with your protein and water and that's a good thing.  That is exciting news about your brother moving closer and your new hobby sounds like fun!  I didn't know you could take lessons in archery, I always just hear about it as a camp activity...I guess it makes sense, right?

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That stinks about losing your loved ones.  One is difficult enough....3 is just too many! {{{HUGS}}} 

In anxious/depressing situations I want to eat but in extreme cases like losing ppl, I can't eat....I found that out a decade ago or so and was surprised that I did have a natural aversion to food but sad that the only way to invoke it is with very deep sorrow.  :( 

So glad you've seen more of your brother and that that will continue when he moves closer!  

I did some archery in high school and enjoyed it.  I do remember retrieving the arrows was annoying, but good exercise when I think about it! :) Enjoy!

I've not been around as much either and it does take a toll....I need to be here!  (my 4th month blog entry was so late that it nearly collided with the 5 month one I posted yesterday!)

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@CurvyMermaid so sorry to hear of your losses. It stinks big time. Glad your brother will be closer and that your former contour is farther away. 

Was south of Tokyo in, um, late1988 in Kamakura walking along a road with ancient tall trees, and kept hearing these weird "thunk! thunk! thunk!" noises. I turned a corner and it was a Zen temple where people were meditating through archery. Sounds like you have hit a bull's eye with this hobby!

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Wow, three losses so close together is a lot to handle. So sorry. I'm so happy your brother will be nearby now. Lots of fun to be had with him!

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I am so sorry for your losses @CurvyMermaid I know first hand how devastating it can be. I have a very small family and our first loss was last October. It was the loss of my sister and still having a hard time dealing.

Sending (((hugs))) your way and I do hope to see more of you on the forum soon.

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I'm sorry for your losses - three deaths in the family in a short time is surely a lot to deal with. My condolences. 

Glad to see that you're trying to focus on the positive - your five things that made you smile are a good way to take in the good with the bad. Having your brother move near you will be a nice thing - speaking as someone who has spent long stints overseas, he will be very happy about it, too. And archery? That sounds really fun. 

Keep up your hard work and make sure you keep feeding and watering yourself :) 

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Condolences @CurvyMermaid. I've been where you are. Unfortunately 2016 was my year for that when my partner and his entire remaining family (both siblings and mother) all died within the space of 7 months. My gosh that was hard so I understand how you're feeling. Hang in there and continue looking after yourself as best you can. It's great you are seeing positives in your life right now.

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Sorry you have had such a rough time with losses, prayers for you and your family. Your brother moving closer is wonderful.

I read number #1 and was rolling thanks for making me laugh !!

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Thank you all for the condolences and for not making me feel bad about being so absent @CheeringCJ!  The last of the three deaths was my one remaining grandparent, my father's father.  My parents are actually here visiting me as this was a trip they booked months ago.  It's comforting to be with them again even if I just saw them this past weekend.

I am so thrilled to have my brother and his future wife so close! In New Jersey I learned that "Sunday Dinner" is practically a religion around here.  Its an Italian thing where the family always gathers each week at the grandparents or parents house for a huge Italian feast.  While I will happily leave out the 'feast' part, just having a new family tradition will be nice.

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I should add that the severe downside from my not eating and just having protein came to fruition this morning.  OUCH  And I'll be working on getting those veggies in and adding some Miralax until things are back on track.  Why did I forget that this was the problem with such an unbalanced diet?  Why did it take me so long to remember!!???

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On 4/8/2018 at 4:30 PM, BurgundyBoy said:

Was south of Tokyo in, um, late1988 in Kamakura walking along a road with ancient tall trees, and kept hearing these weird "thunk! thunk! thunk!" noises. I turned a corner and it was a Zen temple where people were meditating through archery. Sounds like you have hit a bull's eye with this hobby!

BB you paint such a beautiful picture!  Perhaps next on my travel list should be a Zen temple to practice my skills.  I never did archery at camp or in school so this was my first exposure.  And my forearm is bruised to prove it!

P.S.  CONGRATS!! on onederland!!!  :D  I love that it kinda snuck up on you and I hope you, your wife and son are still having fun with your svelte self!

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7 hours ago, CurvyMermaid said:

BB you paint such a beautiful picture!  Perhaps next on my travel list should be a Zen temple to practice my skills.  I never did archery at camp or in school so this was my first exposure.  And my forearm is bruised to prove it!

P.S.  CONGRATS!! on onederland!!!  :D  I love that it kinda snuck up on you and I hope you, your wife and son are still having fun with your svelte self!

(Blush) Thank you Curvy! I must confess to delight at being < 200 (at least most days now). 

I have to laugh at your comment about being felt up due to your excess skin - I was flying back from Florida on Monday and .... the body imaging device did the same for me, right over my nethers and my butt. I nearly missed my flight with the additional search. :lol:

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