My Month 5 Surgiversary!!!
Month 5 was a big struggle for me. I wasn’t losing much weight at all (4# total! Ugh!) I was very discouraged. I changed my eating a bit (eating more keto than what I was) and I wasn’t dropping the weight or sizes. I decided to go back to what I was eating…tomorrow afternoon, I am making up a bunch of stuff like I used to when I was losing. But I also started walking a lot this month. All week I have walked between 3-6 miles a day. I went away for a few days and though I was not able to get as much water and protein in, I still walked (and walked!).
It was a rough month because I started to doubt the process….grieving that I passed the honeymoon phase of rapid weight loss and was on my way to a lifelong stall. I struggle a lot with that. I worry that I have failed yet another “diet”. Also I wasn’t able to get to the board as much as I was going through a lot of changes in my household. My husband started his dream job but wasn’t around as much as he had been and then my car got wrecked up in the ice storm and we’ve been sharing cars and making extra runs for kids etc. So, all in all it was an off month. My car is getting repaired this week and things are starting to get more normal (kinda!).
Personally I think I can eat more than I should be able to (so I constantly fear that I have stretched my sleeve!) but I am sure I am worrying too much about it. I doubt it could be stretched that much that quickly. But the panic rises up in me about it too much.
Also I stress about my hair. It wasn’t thick to begin with (I have a daughter w/ gorgeous thick hair, and I have been begging for some from her!!! Ha!) I have been checking my brush/drain daily and had finally convinced myself that I am not losing THAT much….but today, yikes! I made sure the tub “mushroom” (hair catcher from Amazon) was clear, then I took my shower and afterwards there was so much in it that I nearly broke down. I dried my hair and kept thinking “I have to get this cut because it is looking so much thinner and I can’t keep wearing it this way”. I am not sure how to get it cut to draw less attn. from it….any suggestions? I need it shorter as it is just getting scraggly. I had a reverse bob before which would be fine for the back but not sure if that would still look scraggly in the front. I knew this would come but I just don’t know how to deal with it. I don’t want to chop it all off and appear bald but I also want a nice professional look that distracts from the fact there isn’t much hair left!
I forgot to do my measures today but will do them tomorrow and share them.
In other news….the job I interviewed for….I GOT!!!! So, I am leaving the educational world to go back to the professional world! (I’ve done medical/education/professional) and my new job encompasses all three of them! I start in two weeks. I am pretty excited to get moving on my new career! I get to dress more professionally and work in a grown up world. Now I will miss my students terribly but this is right for me and my family. And it all goes along with the “Year of the New Me” theme!!!
HOWEVER, all that whining…but I looked at my before and after shots and I did PHENOMENAL if I must say so myself!!! I hate to post them here for a few reasons…one is I don’t like posting personal photos on a public board (so please don’t “quote” this post so the pics won’t copy over) but also I am sooo mortified at how much I let myself go to begin with!!!! How I EVER got THAT big I can’t even fathom!!!! I had my husband do the before and then month 1,2,3,4,5 side by side as always. He kept saying “I can see a HUGE difference!” but I didn’t see it until he did a side by side of me in the beginning of my journey and now!!! Holy Moly!!! As discouraged as I was with myself this month, I am pleased as punch and super proud of me when I see the side by sides!!!
Then my husband did a weird side by side and overlapped them so I could see myself melting.....