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6.5 months - having a little whiiiiine with my cheese today

Kio

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Whine, you know, is super low carb.  Sadly, also low protein.  :) 

This isn't really a serious whine - just a touch of frustration.  Part of it is with my weight loss pattern, and part of it is with my crazy brain.

So - like many of the other ladies here, my weight loss follows a specific pattern in tune with my monthly visitor.  I tend to lose almost all my weight each month just before and just during my period.  Even on months when my period doesn't show (I'm just starting to get it back) -- the symptoms do, and the pattern holds. So I lose a big bump of weight in about a week, a week and a half....

And then, for the rest of the month, zip. Zero. NADA!

You would think, since I'm fully aware of how this works, I'd be fine with it.  Maybe even fine enough to stop weighing during the weeks that I know I won't be losing much if anything.  But I'm not that gal - I weigh every day, and every day when I see the same weight (or a pound up, then a pound back down, then a pound up and then down again) I have this little internal "ugh!" of frustration. 

It doesn't help that my cycle is kind of uneven.  So my weight loss may "bunch up" in one month if I have a weight loss phase both at the beginning and the end, or it may lead to a month where I lose very little because my cycle hits just outside of my monthly measurement window.

The problem is - my brain.  There's what I know with my sane, rational brain - that this is all about my cycle, that it's mostly water retention followed by flushing, yadda yadda yadda.  And then there's what my crazybrain whispers at me:  "The honeymooon period is over."  "This is as close to goal as you're ever going to get." "Well, your doctor SAID you might not make it down to 200."  Etc, etc, etc. 

Right now I'm in my monthly stall phase, and though my body is telling me it's probably about to start losing again, my crazybrain is still whispering mean things at me when I least expect it.

It doesn't make me do anything differently... but it does sometimes make me a bit sad, when sadness is totally uncalled for.  In fact, this is one of the happiest times of my life - I'm healthier, stronger, more fit, more able than I have been in over a decade.  I just sometimes need to call myself out on it, so I can see in print how silly I am...

 

 



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I am so with you there, girlfriend!  My cycle dictates my life too much, and now my weight loss pattern too? (actually it always did but then so did my eating...now that my eating is regulated the cycle is the only thing holding me back).  however, i am purposefully not measuring what I lose a week/month/etc bc I don't want to acknowledge too much of my stalls (ignorance is bliss)....I just know my scale stops then moves and moves and moves, then stops....etc.  I am ok w/ it as long as I don't pay tooooo much attn to it and basically ignore it.  :) 

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Oh, huh... you may be onto something with that approach, @CheeringCJ! I guess I saw everybody here doing the monthly thing, and just started doing it myself because it seemed like the thing to do. Maybe instead of tracking exact monthly numbers, I could just do like... a rolling average?  Like, I've lost X since surgery, and it's Y months since surgery, so I've lost on average Z#/month...

I'm going to have to give this some thought, it could really help with this!

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yep, that is all I know...I have lost 51# since I started my journey, that is all I know.  :)

When you said something before about how much you had lost when you were as far along as me....I thought to myself "yikes, I haven't ever figured out those stats for me" and then I thought to myself "why bother....i just might get myself upset!  Let me just go w/ my running total!" :)

 

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It's a good idea!  I might try it.  I'm such a statistician at heart, though, it's sort of hard to give up on a method of measurement. I'm wondering if there's some way for me to keep track of it without keeping track of it.  Like maybe keeping a daily record, but never measuring it per month until I hit goal?  That might work... then I would have the info when I wanted it, but NOT along the way, when it probably does me more harm than good.

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honestly, I have a record of my weight on MFP  and also on my weight ticker so I can let go of the annoying voice in my head that says "but you have to document this".....I figure I have the numbers but I can go back and document them next year when it is "safer" for me not to get nuts over it

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Sorry you're suffering from crazydietbrain, Kio. It's an affliction all of us are too familiar with, I'm afraid. Maybe not counting monthly numbers would help, as you've mentioned. When I started, I saw a lot of people (here and on YouTube videos, etc) counting weekly losses. I started to do that, and holy heck I'm glad I didn't continue!!! While my monthly numbers look pretty smooth, my weekly numbers were like -4, +2, 0, -8  for a monthly -10. WHAT?!?! Crazy making. I stopped pretty quick. That calmed me down a lot. Whatever works for you is the best way. Try not to make yourself crazy!! 

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On 18/02/2018 at 12:51 PM, Kio said:

It's a good idea!  I might try it.  I'm such a statistician at heart, though, it's sort of hard to give up on a method of measurement. I'm wondering if there's some way for me to keep track of it without keeping track of it.  Like maybe keeping a daily record, but never measuring it per month until I hit goal?  That might work... then I would have the info when I wanted it, but NOT along the way, when it probably does me more harm than good.

I weigh daily and just jot the figure down in a tiny (week to a Page) pocket diary. I have at least three now that contain the weights for this pre-surgery, post-surgery time. I don't log them at all anymore and rarely look back. The positive is though that the stats would be there IF I chose to go back and do the calculations. I did go back into last year's diary earlier today. I wanted to know what I'd lost since I last saw my surgeon. In order to do that I had to check last year's diary. I knew it wouldn't be a lot...I was right, just 6kg in 5 months, but that's okay and I won't be surprised now if he tells me that next week.

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I feel the same. I'm only in month 3 so I'm not positive there's a pattern yet, but I keep having periods of 8-12 days of no loss, followed by a quick loss - although, I tend to lose after my cycle. It is frustrating for sure and I'm sure it will be driving me just as mad when six months is here if the pattern continues. Those doubting voices definitely creep in, so I'm here often reading the stories of others who had the same feelings and are now at goal. It definitely helps!

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33 minutes ago, delilas said:

I feel the same. I'm only in month 3 so I'm not positive there's a pattern yet, but I keep having periods of 8-12 days of no loss, followed by a quick loss - although, I tend to lose after my cycle. It is frustrating for sure and I'm sure it will be driving me just as mad when six months is here if the pattern continues. Those doubting voices definitely creep in, so I'm here often reading the stories of others who had the same feelings and are now at goal. It definitely helps!

Isn't it annoying!?  I'm still in mine, and finally checked to see exactly how long it had been (based on when I last updated my ticker - I love doing that so I always do it the second I have a loss. :)  It's now been 10 days - which isn't terrifically long for a stall, I know!  I was actually up 2 lbs day before yesterday, and now down 1 from that. 

All day today though, I've been binge-watching Nashville and crying over all the country songs - so I'm fairly sure my "loss phase" is on the way now.  I just wish it would come faster - it would make it easier for me to remember that it DOES come.

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