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6 months... seriously!?

Kio

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I can't believe it's been six months since my surgery today.  It doesn't seem like reality.  It seems like just yesterday I was drinking protein shakes and eating plain greek yogurt... OH WAIT THAT'S BECAUSE IT WAS!  ;)  Yeah, my diet has advanced significantly, but yogurt and protein shakes are still my main staples.

I'm happy to report that my trouble keeping things down is in the past.  The past month or so I've been doing really well on that score.  I still sometimes eat the wrong thing (by which I mean something my pouch doesn't like) or eat something too fast, and end up bent over the toilet.  But it's an extreme rarity now.  I think I've gotten a lot better at slowing down and picking my foods. In addition to yogurt and protein shakes, I sometimes eat cheese, or some chicken or fish in a sauce, or sausage, or bacon, or eggs (breakfast foods seem to work pretty well for me).  Fruit generally works, though I've really only tried berries in yogurt.  I've eaten the top off a pizza slice once or twice.  I can eat meat loaf, and I can definitely eat mozzarella sticks (well, I can eat one mozzarella stick!)  I'm sure there's other stuff I've tried, but I can't remember it all now.  I feel like I'm eating pretty normally, just a lot less.  And of course it's a weird new normal that doesn't include junk food or any of the stuff I used to eat.  I'm totally fine with my diet right now.  I'm usually somewhere between 800-1000 calories a day, and most days I hit my protein goals. I still don't really get hungry; I get food-wanting spells, but they're pretty easy to either ward off or just feed with something that's actually good for me.

I still struggle with water, though - that's the hardest thing for me, and probably always will be.  The funny thing is, I can gulp all I want - I haven't had any issues with that at all.  But at the back of my mind there's this voice saying "ugh, if you drink all that you'll have to pee every five minutes all night."  And that voice is not actually wrong.  I try to frontload the liquids but it's just a really hard mental block to overcome. 

My walking has stalled out a little because of the weather, but I'm not too bugged about that.  I have my "Walk for Homelessness" coming up on the 11th, which is 2 miles, and I'll have to walk about half a mile to get to it.  As long as I can still do the distance I've hit so far, I'm happy to wait by the fire until spring to get more ambitious.  :) 

So, stats.  My weight is 225 right now, and my BMI is I think 39.8?  Something like that.  So I've lost 130 lbs total since April - 73 of that since surgery on September 8th.  That is over 35% of my starting weight, friends... a third of me is gone, an entire person's worth of weight. Kind of mindblowing.  I have passed my surgeon's "success" weight for me, which was to lose 60% of my excess body weight - 129 lbs.  I'm only 55 lbs away from my original goal, which was 170 - Leah's current weight (not a coincidence!).  And I haven't slowed down yet - after a pretty lackluster month 5 (only 10 lbs lost), I lost 16 this month.  I'm hoping I can do something close to that next month too, and really surprise my surgeon when I see him on March 29th!

Beyond that, the proof is in the pics, right?  The new ones are at the bottom... I put in a few old ones just to remind myself how far I've come.  :)

9 months ago:

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6 months ago - Surgery day!

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3 months ago (well, 11 weeks...)

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And today!

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And now just updating with my photo from after the Boston Winter Walk for the Homeless: that's me (left) and my bff/housemate Leah (right).

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11 minutes ago, Animalrescuer18 said:

Wow! You look fabulous! I bet you feel that way too. Makes me look forward to my surgery next month. Thank you so much for sharing. You’re quite an inspiration!:)

Thanks!!  It's a lot of change in a short time - it can be really hard to wrap your head around it.  Like, where did that jawbone come from!?  =D  I feel tons better than I did back in April - it's just night and day.  Back then I was, for all intents and purposes, disabled.  Walked around my house by holding onto one thing and then lurching on to the next thing I could hold onto.  Couldn't walk a block, scared of falling all the time, basically scared of everything.  I'm kind of in shock that all of that could change so drastically so fast.  I feel like a real person again!

I'm so excited for you - it's such a weird and exciting trip, and you have it all ahead of you.  You'll do great and I'm so glad you're going to be sharing it with us!

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12 minutes ago, kristinwitha_k said:

You look like a whole new person, seriously. I'm not sure I would have recognized the new you as the same person! Amazing. 

Thanks! I'm not sure *I* recognize the new me as the same person!  It's a little crazy.  I keep finding out stuff as I go - like, as I get thinner, I look more and more like my mom.  Who knew!?  I always thought I looked like my dad, but apparently that was just because we were both FAT!  :D

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When I read your reply to my comment it brought tears to my eyes! I can relate so very well to feeling somewhat disabled. Between working and trying to keep my house somewhat clean it is getting harder each day. It can get quite depressing when you don’t have the stamina to do simple things like vacuuming for more than a few minutes then having to take a break. I also worry about falling. And when I do walk any distance I get worn out and short of breath. It just makes me want to cry with joy at thinking all of this can change and I can feel normal again. I know it won’t be easy but I have my head in the game and this is the first time in my life that I am losing weight for my health instead of simply wanting to look better. I have diabetes and high blood pressure and although I’m about to turn 57 next month I still have a lot of good years left and want to be able to enjoy each and every one!! Thank you for sharing!:D

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Wow, @Kio! So many successes at 6 months. You look great, you're figuring out how to deal with your pouch, you're enjoying better mobility, and you've hit your surgeon's 60% goal! I'm proud of you that you're doing the charity walk - such an everyday activity for many people, but one that I'm sure you wouldn't have dreamed of doing last year at this time. It's been a pleasure to read along as you make all of this progress :) I'm looking forward to the day when you post that you've hit Leah's weight (hopefully she's OK with that milestone! She'll have someone to share clothes with, anyway...). 

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37 minutes ago, Animalrescuer18 said:

When I read your reply to my comment it brought tears to my eyes! I can relate so very well to feeling somewhat disabled. Between working and trying to keep my house somewhat clean it is getting harder each day. It can get quite depressing when you don’t have the stamina to do simple things like vacuuming for more than a few minutes then having to take a break. I also worry about falling. And when I do walk any distance I get worn out and short of breath. It just makes me want to cry with joy at thinking all of this can change and I can feel normal again. I know it won’t be easy but I have my head in the game and this is the first time in my life that I am losing weight for my health instead of simply wanting to look better. I have diabetes and high blood pressure and although I’m about to turn 57 next month I still have a lot of good years left and want to be able to enjoy each and every one!! Thank you for sharing!:D

It’s going to get so much better for you soon - so much faster than you think! I noticed the improvements in pain levels, stamina and mobility long before I could really see a physical difference. I used to have dreams about walking comfortably - like most people dream about flying. It was so exhilarating and exciting, and I always felt so helpless and hopeless when I woke up ... but now I can walk for miles and not even get out of breath, and it’s really only been a few months! 

For me this has been about mobility more than anything else - I do want to look better, too, but it’s secondary to just feeling better and being able to move again. And not always worry about whether I’ll find a parking spot close enough, will I fit in this chair, will the hostess try to put us in a booth instead of a table...

i really can’t wait to see the world opening up again for you too. I hope you post a lot!!! :) 

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You've come so far Kio....and you look so much healthier. You are much more mobile than some of us here...unfortunately me included. I'm so looking forward to a day when I can walk to the store again or even just around a shopping centre without crippling pain.....any weight-bearing exercise if I'm honest. Keep up the great work and I hope you hit your goals for your next surgeon visit.

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Wow, just wow.  You are totally rocking your bypass.  Just keep doing what you are doing and you will reach your goal weight soon enough (and life at goal weight is fabulous)!!

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Wow, it is phenomenal to see the difference.....like your neck is amazing...where did that come from?  :)  how awesome is that....seeing things revealed that had been hiding so long?  You're doing so great!  I love that I have more to look forward to also....thanks for the inspiration!  Glad to hear about you walking up the steps etc, so many little and not so little victories! (and I with you with the comment of "so much faster than you think"....it is happening way quicker than I imagined too!).  Glad you're finding food agreeing more and more and knowing what works.   when you said meatloaf, I got a sudden craving for that (I never had it that often) but now I WANT it...but I can't do ground beef texture yet....I end up chewing and chewing and eventually just spitting it out.  But it is a little trade off for a healthier, happier life! :D 

Keep up the good work....and my "goal" by my dr is 170....so let's get to Leah's weight together, pal!!! :rolleyes:

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Kio - OMG - Girl you look like a completely different person!  I am so proud of your diligence and wow YOU ARE SO ROCKIN THIS!  Oh by the way I meant to ask you, what game/s do you play?  I too am an obsessed online gamer. :D

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On 2/8/2018 at 11:53 PM, Jen581791 said:

Wow, @Kio! So many successes at 6 months. You look great, you're figuring out how to deal with your pouch, you're enjoying better mobility, and you've hit your surgeon's 60% goal! I'm proud of you that you're doing the charity walk - such an everyday activity for many people, but one that I'm sure you wouldn't have dreamed of doing last year at this time. It's been a pleasure to read along as you make all of this progress :) I'm looking forward to the day when you post that you've hit Leah's weight (hopefully she's OK with that milestone! She'll have someone to share clothes with, anyway...). 

Ok, don't laugh, but I totally tried to get out of doing the walk tomorrow!  Not because of the walking, but because it's going to rain all day and I'm a wuss!  But my boss is going too, and when I told her it was going to rain she was just all, "Suck it up, buttercup!  Bring an umbrella!"  So I'm still going for it.  :) 

And Leah is sooooo not okay with that milestone, LOL!  She keeps telling me she's going to step it up and be at 150 when I get to 170.  (But she's still eating rice with her chicken tonight.... so I'm not too worried ;) )  Seriously, though - she'd be really happy for me if I got there, but would also probably feel a bit sad on the day I weigh less than she does, if that day ever comes.  Hopefully it will just be motivational though and not depressing.  On the bright side, our friendship is far too strong and longstanding to get derailed by something like that.  I'm always telling her, "If I didn't love you so much, I'd have killed you years ago!"  She is the best and most annoying person on the planet.  :D 

I do feel really good about my progress.  I can't believe I'm 25 lbs from onederland!  I'm trying really hard to step up my game - getting super serious about the protein, and for the past couple of days I've been doing really well on water too.  I want the kind of success at this I've been able to watch you work for and achieve!!! 

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On 2/9/2018 at 12:16 PM, CheeringCJ said:

Wow, it is phenomenal to see the difference.....like your neck is amazing...where did that come from?  :)  how awesome is that....seeing things revealed that had been hiding so long?  You're doing so great!  I love that I have more to look forward to also....thanks for the inspiration!  Glad to hear about you walking up the steps etc, so many little and not so little victories! (and I with you with the comment of "so much faster than you think"....it is happening way quicker than I imagined too!).  Glad you're finding food agreeing more and more and knowing what works.   when you said meatloaf, I got a sudden craving for that (I never had it that often) but now I WANT it...but I can't do ground beef texture yet....I end up chewing and chewing and eventually just spitting it out.  But it is a little trade off for a healthier, happier life! :D 

Keep up the good work....and my "goal" by my dr is 170....so let's get to Leah's weight together, pal!!! :rolleyes:

*beams*  Thanks, CJ!  I have no idea where the neck came from - in some of my before pictures you wouldn't even know I HAD one.  I remember when I got my pixie cut I said to my stylist, "Just don't do it if you think it'll make me look like I have a fuzzy white bowling ball sitting on my shoulders."  So I totally did not expect it to be there.  I'm not sure how I feel about it!  Some days I think it's awesome, and some days I feel a bit like E.T.  :)  

I do thing the weirdest part is how much like my mom I look - at least from the nose down.  I wish I had a good picture of her to share, but the only ones I have are old and grainy.  Maybe I'll try to scan one in one day.  I clearly have her mouth and her jawline though.  It's happy and sad - I miss her so much, it's great to know there's some of her in me still. But on the other hand... it's kind of sad to catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror and see her face sometimes. 

Anyway, I'm so happy you're on this journey with me, CJ!  Your constant enthusiasm and dedication to this process inspires ME! 

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On 2/9/2018 at 12:16 PM, CheeringCJ said:

 Glad you're finding food agreeing more and more and knowing what works.   when you said meatloaf, I got a sudden craving for that (I never had it that often) but now I WANT it...but I can't do ground beef texture yet....I end up chewing and chewing and eventually just spitting it out.  But it is a little trade off for a healthier, happier life! :D 

Keep up the good work....and my "goal" by my dr is 170....so let's get to Leah's weight together, pal!!! :rolleyes:

Yeah, I can see how it might still be a bit early for meatloaf for you!  Oddly, ground beef was one of the earliest meats that worked for me.  LONG before chicken, and as you know I'm still hit or miss with fish, especially tuna.  Meat loaf, if it's super moist, is no problem for me now.  I just have to go slooooooow.  And tonight I'm having chicken - white meat - in a lovely sauce Leah made, very Asian-inspired, with like a teaspoon of rice.  My meals are still super tiny, but I'm so glad I can have new textures now! 

Are there other textures that are hard for you, or just the beef and whatnot?

(And - let's TOTALLY smash the Leah goal!  I love it.  :)  In fact, when I get there, I think I'll post a picture of us standing side by side!  From the neck down - she'd never put her face on the internet.  ;) )

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On 2/9/2018 at 2:25 AM, Aussie H said:

You've come so far Kio....and you look so much healthier. You are much more mobile than some of us here...unfortunately me included. I'm so looking forward to a day when I can walk to the store again or even just around a shopping centre without crippling pain.....any weight-bearing exercise if I'm honest. Keep up the great work and I hope you hit your goals for your next surgeon visit.

That is such an odd thought!  I've never thought of myself as more mobile than anybody.  I'm so sorry you're in that group, though!  Are things at least getting better?  I've seen you posting around of course, but haven't seen any updates on your recovery from the foot surgery.  How is that going?  I remember you saying you can't even really swim because it puts pressure on the top of the foot?

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22 hours ago, TammyP said:

Kio - OMG - Girl you look like a completely different person!  I am so proud of your diligence and wow YOU ARE SO ROCKIN THIS!  Oh by the way I meant to ask you, what game/s do you play?  I too am an obsessed online gamer. :D

Thank you!  I totally feel like a different person, too.  :)  This surgery is the best thing I ever did for myself, 100%. 

And I play mainly MMOs - I played World of Warcraft for years, and then stopped for years, then picked up Final Fantasy XIV and played that for a couple of years... and now I'm back to obsessively playing Warcraft.  :)  My theory has always been that not having kids deprived me of all the important maturing experiences parents have - so I'm still basically 20 at heart!

I've also played and loved all the Dragon Age games - my dream game is an MMO based on those.  Alas, probably that will never be...

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On 2/9/2018 at 2:21 AM, Gretta said:

You look AMAZING! Your losses are ASTOUNDING! I'm totally thrilled for you! Just awesome!!!

Thank you!!  I swear, every month I think, "This is the month I won't lose much, and the honeymoon will be over!"  But so far so good - I just need to have more trust for the process I think.  Slow and steady, right?  You guys have all shown me that the honeymoon lasts as long as you're willing to work the program, and I am still way more than willing.  :) 

On 2/9/2018 at 5:52 AM, Res Ipsa said:

Wow, just wow.  You are totally rocking your bypass.  Just keep doing what you are doing and you will reach your goal weight soon enough (and life at goal weight is fabulous)!!

Thank you!  I have to give credit where it's due - watching you guys rock YOUR surgeries, and support and teach everyone here including me, is a huge part of how successful I've been so far.  There have been so many times that I've felt down or got worried about something, only to come here and get my questions answered, or see someone post an inspirational thought or story... it's been lifesaving. 

Can't wait to get to goal weight and see just how fabulous it is!  Nobody at my surgeon's office was willing to say they thought I could make it below 200... and I'm only 25 lbs away from that.  If I can get there, I can get to where I want to be.  I just know it! :) 

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1 hour ago, Kio said:

Anyway, I'm so happy you're on this journey with me, CJ!  Your constant enthusiasm and dedication to this process inspires ME! 

AWWWW :wub:  thanks!  let's just agree to inspire each other! ;)

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1 hour ago, Kio said:

"Suck it up, buttercup!  Bring an umbrella!"

Wise words! :lol: I'm glad you're going to do it despite the rain. I'm not one to talk as there is basically no rain where I'm living, but walking in the rain can be very therapeutic. 

I'm sure your long friendship with Leah won't end over who weighs more - but maybe it'll bring some healthy competition ;) 

25 pounds from onederland is amazing - really close to that milestone. Keep up your hard work and do yourself proud! 

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You look great, @Kio and are doing so well.  Thank you for your inspiring post.

LOL you don't look at all like ET, but I can relate to feeling that way.  Sometimes I feel like my nose is the only thing not getting smaller.

I struggle with water too and I don't really know why.  I like water.  It just feels like you have to be drinking it CONSTANTLY to get water goals met and then of course the inevitable impact of all that water.  I have water available and around me 24/7 but sometimes a couple hours goes by and I'll realize I haven't had any.  It is one of my short term goals every month but I know my goal amounts are pretty modest currently.  If you figure anything out to increase your intake be sure to share!

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1 hour ago, kayak19 said:

Sometimes I feel like my nose is the only thing not getting smaller.

This made me chuckle, lol...my hubby was looking at before and after pics of me last night, and he said, "Even your nose lost  weight!" And it has gotten "thinner" lol. So don't be surprised if yours does too at some point :) 

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