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101 lbs down today!

Kio

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Not from surgery - that would be crazy.    But I'm 254 today, which is 101 down from my starting point in April!  I lost 57 before surgery, and I've lost 43 since.  And now I'm just over 100 away from my goal - which is my personal goal for myself, not my surgeon's goal.  Trust me, he is a LOT more conservative.  I think he'd be perfectly happy with.... I dunno, whatever 355 - (60% x (355-140)) is... ok it's 226.  Once I wrote the formula I had to do the math.  So right now, I'm not quite three months out, and 28 lbs away from my surgeon's "goal" weight for me. 

But I am hunting bigger game than that. ;)   I mean, if I were to hit 226 and just... stop losing... I would survive that.  I wouldn't be perfectly happy, but I'd be okay.  I already feel so much better, it's hard to believe life was so hard and unpleasant just six months ago.  I can walk a couple of miles without much pain or effort, when a couple of meters gave me pain back in April. I can fit into clothes that make me look... I don't know.  NORMAL overweight, not crazy scary overweight like I was.  I can shop in the higher sizes of normal stores now, I don't have to buy everything at Full Beauty (ugh, I hate that name).  Most of my random day to day pain is gone.  I don't huff and puff when I go in to the office, even though it's like half a mile from parking lot to elevator. 

But I don't think 28 lbs more is going to get me where I want to be.  I want to be able to go up stairs without holding on.  I want to go to the gym and exercise and have people look at me and think "yeah she can lose some weight" instead of "what's SHE doing here, this gym is for normal people!" I want to go hiking in the Fells and bike to my office and do yoga.  I don't think 226 is that weight for me.

Whether I can lose over 75  more pounds than my doc thinks I will.... I don't know.  I'd need to lose 215 total to hit the goal in my profile and ticker, and that.... is a lot.  Worth trying for, though!  I mean, I'm almost halfway there now!

I did take some pictures yesterday when the scale dinged 100 down.  But I realized that when I took my first set, they were ugh, without very much clothing.  I never planned to share them online.  So to make them match up I took yesterday's pictures in the same clothes and the same poses, and realized I'm still not going to post them online!  Not yet anyway... maybe when I have some more milestones OUT FROM UNDER my belt.  But I'm too shy to do it right now.  SORRY, @CJireh!!!

 



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LOL!!! I won't require them...Yet!!! :D

That's totally awesome to be down 101# since April.... Even before surgery, it's an impressive loss! I'm so proud of you and you will CRUSH that number the Dr gave you!!! I just know it!

I won't be satisfied with my number my Dr gave me either. 170# isn't bad, and it puts me at a 10 or 12 (well last time I was there) but seeing how the TT'ers go below their goal set by their Dr simply bc they are making great choices, I'm inspired to do it too!!

My before pic I took in a black tank top and yoga shorts but I was so mortified, I couldn't post it yet.... Maybe in 50# from now 

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Great NSV... and while our surgeons may need to temper our desires to keep us from inappropriate disappointment, it is good to have a clear goal. There are a lot of people who feel like failures because they haven't reached their weight goal - although they are no longer diabetic, no longer hypertensive, and maybe just a few percent above their goal.... 

@Kio maybe this spring we can do the Fells on our bikes... I don't have a trail bike but my gravel bike should be able to handle most stuff! 

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I think it's very healthy to be mentally OK with things if your losses stop where the averages and your doctor say they might, but to keep your own personal goal at the same time. I would have been OK with it if I had stopped at 65% - my health was better, I felt better, I looked better - but I'm glad my losses have continued. 

Don't worry about not being OK with posting photos. I only posted pix of myself when I got to the point where I felt fine with how I looked. Even if you don't feel like posting then, that's all right, too. We all have our different comfort levels with that kind of thing.

Awesome job on the -101. That's an amazing milestone!  :) 

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20 hours ago, CJireh said:

LOL!!! I won't require them...Yet!!! :D

That's totally awesome to be down 101# since April.... Even before surgery, it's an impressive loss! I'm so proud of you and you will CRUSH that number the Dr gave you!!! I just know it!

I won't be satisfied with my number my Dr gave me either. 170# isn't bad, and it puts me at a 10 or 12 (well last time I was there) but seeing how the TT'ers go below their goal set by their Dr simply bc they are making great choices, I'm inspired to do it too!!

My before pic I took in a black tank top and yoga shorts but I was so mortified, I couldn't post it yet.... Maybe in 50# from now 

*kof*

(it's 103 today, woo!)

I plan to do a little crushing!  It would be weird, I think, if my weight loss petered out just 4 or 5 months after surgery.  I should still be in my honey moon phase at that point, right?!  I intend to keep it up.  There are so many good examples here of how to succeed by staying on the plan - I'm going to follow in their footsteps.  :) 

I think when I took my "befores" I was just thinking of them being for me.  And they will definitely stay in my phone and be inspiration!  But I can still do before/after in candids, and I'll continue to do that.  I don't have any candids at my highest weight, but I have a few in the 340 range, and definitely a bunch at 308 from my Turks & Caicos trip...

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16 hours ago, BurgundyBoy said:

Great NSV... and while our surgeons may need to temper our desires to keep us from inappropriate disappointment, it is good to have a clear goal. There are a lot of people who feel like failures because they haven't reached their weight goal - although they are no longer diabetic, no longer hypertensive, and maybe just a few percent above their goal.... 

@Kio maybe this spring we can do the Fells on our bikes... I don't have a trail bike but my gravel bike should be able to handle most stuff! 

That sounds awesome!  I'm so ready for biking again.  I was pretty heavy in Chicago when I was biking a 14 mile round trip to work every day, and it was the one thing that made me feel mobile and athletic.  I ended up having to have spinal/cervical surgery, though, and after that I spent a year sitting around gaining more weight.  But I still look back on that time and remember biking as the one thing that made me feel really good about myself, like I was tough and strong.  I even biked through a Chicago winter, which let me tell you - that was crazytown, LOL. 

Before my surgery, I would read people in this forum saying they would be happy even if they didn't lose all the weight, and I honestly didn't understand it.  My goal weight was my GOAL, why would I be happy if I couldn't reach it?!  But I think I was just focused on all the good things that would happen *at my goal weight* - I didn't understand that a lot of those things would actually happen before I got there! 

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2 hours ago, Jen581791 said:

I think it's very healthy to be mentally OK with things if your losses stop where the averages and your doctor say they might, but to keep your own personal goal at the same time. I would have been OK with it if I had stopped at 65% - my health was better, I felt better, I looked better - but I'm glad my losses have continued. 

Don't worry about not being OK with posting photos. I only posted pix of myself when I got to the point where I felt fine with how I looked. Even if you don't feel like posting then, that's all right, too. We all have our different comfort levels with that kind of thing.

Awesome job on the -101. That's an amazing milestone!  :) 

It's 103 now!  =D   I'm in a really good scale week right now. 

I totally get it now - why someone could be happy without losing ALL the weight.  I was so focused on how good things would be AT my goal weight, it never really occurred to me that things would actually start getting good long before I got there.  I'm having a hard time with eating these days - a lot of stuff doesn't want to stay down - but even with that going on, I feel so good in every other way, I almost don't even care.  I willingly parked in the boondocks at Costco yesterday rather than hunt for a spot up close, and then spent an hour wandering the store, and walking back out to the car.  My knees ached a little by the end of it, but I could have stayed longer!  That is an amazing thing for me. 

Yeah, I want to go lower - I WANT to hit my goal weight!  I'm going to fight for it!  But if I were to stop soon, it would not be the end of the world. 

As for pics - I was telling CJ, I can do some befores and afters with candids, and I'll try to find some so I can put that together.  It's not as obvious as the clear before/after poses that show all sides, but it does still tell a story...

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15 minutes ago, Kio said:

I was so focused on how good things would be AT my goal weight, it never really occurred to me that things would actually start getting good long before I got there.

This is a great insight!

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1 hour ago, Kio said:

I willingly parked in the boondocks at Costco yesterday rather than hunt for a spot up close, and then spent an hour wandering the store, and walking back out to the car.

I think staying healthy involves making a steady series of decisions just like this one: everyday, normal activity, but more of it than strictly necessary. And it all starts to feel better and better, so less like making a hard choice, and more like just enjoying yourself. I was out camping in the sand this weekend (big giant seas of dunes in the desert) and was amazed at how easy it now is to scamper up and down the really tall dunes! Before, I may have let the more energetic people do that while I stayed nearer the camp and lounged about on my chair in the sun (probably eating chips and drinking a beer). It was actually enjoyable to climb the dunes. 

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At this point I can't remember which of the Adults on the TTF site pointed this out, perhaps indirectly, but the goals we come up at the time of our surgery are completely made up... We all know that the range of usual weight loss is perhaps 50-90% of our "excess" weight but many of us choose a weight goal that is in the normal BMI range. It's understandable but many of us inevitably WON'T or CAN'T end up there, and I think our end goals are really the health and mental health ones:

  • normal blood pressure
  • normal diabetes markers, remission of diabetes if you have had it
  • reduction or remission of sleep apnea
  • better joint health, abatement of back pains
  • better self image and integration into society
  • daily exercise (not key to weight loss, but a key habit for health)
  • a relationship with food that eschews binge and emotional eating...

This list could go on a lot longer... 

And @Kio let's make a plan for the spring when the winds are not howling and wolves have stopped baying quite so loudly. If you haven't recently explored this, there are some really great biking routes in metro Boston...

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Awesome job Kio. I was never given a goal by my surgeon but my case was a bit different. His expectations of where I might end up were more of a warning about not letting myself go too low. I see him in a week so this visit I am actually going to specifically discus this, because I have no idea whether he's happy that I've managed to reign the losses in, or whether I should be approaching my eating differently.

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I agree that Bariatric surgeons differ wildly on their suggestions for weight loss. Frankly, I’m surprised that your doctor suggested a goal of 226-ish, given your height. Your goal to lose 100 pounds sounds reasonable. Whether you lose half of that or all of that, you are still coming out a winner. 

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