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Never done a blog before. But I love reading them on this site, and I think I have something to say. And I'm hoping it might strike a few chords with some of you. 

I can lose weight. Over the years I have turned the diet light on and off. I have lost hundreds of pounds over my life time (since junior high) and gained hundreds more. I have been successful on Atkins, Weight Watchers, South Beach Diet, Phen-fen pills, fasting once a week, and countless others. I've also ALWAYS gained it back. So instead of starting this blog when I had surgery (which was 9 months ago today), I am starting to record my next journey - MAINTENANCE. 

My goal is to stay within a 10 pound range.  130-140 pounds. I'm not sure what my timeline should be for celebration. Should I first make it for one year, two years? But each month for this next year I want to acknowledge where I am. Maintenance is the part I've always failed at. Maintenance is what I've been fearing since before surgery day. Some of you may recall, I was even fearful of approaching "the maintenance cafe" and you TT heroes helped coax me to my goal. 

I reached 140 a month ago, on October 23. Yay, I've made it one month!!! I was even afraid to start this blog until this point in case I couldn't maintain for four weeks! :rolleyes:  

For the first time I realize that just because I'm at my weight goal doesn't mean I'm cured. Like alcoholics that successfully beat the disease say they are in recovery, I think maybe I'll always be a recovering yo-yo dieter. So today is my starting point. Today is my first day. I've had my first month, so feeling pretty good. 

Every month that I'm at goal, I thought I would give myself a little reward. This week I had a manicure at a nail place. (I'm way too cheap to normally pay for them.) I figure the money I save now at Weight Watchers, I'll spend part of that on a little gifty. To remind myself that it's NOT over. To remind myself that I'm still working at this! :P

Right now, a ten pound range feels like I'm trying to balance on the head of a pin! Hopefully, it will get easier? 

1st month - Range 135.4 - 140 pounds

2nd month - Starts today! :D

Entries in this blog

 

Month 5 - Panic is ebbing. Yay!

Honesty first. Ready? Here it goes: I will remember these first few months of maintenance with the biggest emotion being --------- PANIC!   Isn't that dumb?!!!!!!!!!??????  I have felt grateful for months and months now as I healed from surgery and the pounds started coming off and the clothes got smaller. And I still feel HUGE gratefulness. But, since this forum is the place to be honest, I have to warn others that the biggest emotions I have felt in maintenance have been fear and pan
 

Month 4 - Surgiversary month

Well this marks not only the end of my 4th month of maintenance blog, but also my surgiversary. So I've posted a few pics at the end.  1 - Before picture 2 - Picture this morning 3 - Picture of some old and current pants What a great year. A life-changing year. I thank God every morning for this opportunity for a healthy future. I am so grateful. Yesterday I had my one year check up with my surgeon and I had tears when I thanked him for his good work. He got tears too!  I
 

Month 3 - I needed "Just the facts, Ma'am"

Well, it's only Month 3, and I'm no longer in my goal range of 130-140.  I've spent a few weeks feeling very weird and a little scared. My emotions have run the gamut between, "Wow, what fun, this is awesome, my Weight Watcher goal in 1985 was 127!" to the depths of "This is scary! Am I still healthy? I'm looking scrawny? If I accept this weight am I anorexic?"  Part of me was asking what foods to add, and the other part was loving still losing each week. I finally made an appointment with

Cindy Lou Who

Cindy Lou Who

 

Month 2 - Holiday month

I almost titled this blog entry "Too skinny"? I am NOT complaining, but this month has been a bit of a trip into the Weight Twilight Zone. I hoped to get down in the bottom of my weight range before Christmas so I could enjoy holiday treats without fear. Also, we're going with 5 families for a week to a ranch  in Arizona starting tomorrow so the eating/drinking will be tempting there too. Sooooo, I wanted to be at "fighting weight" when all that started. All good. I did that. But then a wei

Cindy Lou Who

Cindy Lou Who

 

The Beginning

Never done a blog before. But I love reading them on this site, and I think I have something to say. And I'm hoping it might strike a few chords with some of you.  I can lose weight. Over the years I have turned the diet light on and off. I have lost hundreds of pounds over my life time (since junior high) and gained hundreds more. I have been successful on Atkins, Weight Watchers, South Beach Diet, Phen-fen pills, fasting once a week, and countless others. I've also ALWAYS gained it back.

Cindy Lou Who

Cindy Lou Who

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