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Never done a blog before. But I love reading them on this site, and I think I have something to say. And I'm hoping it might strike a few chords with some of you. 

I can lose weight. Over the years I have turned the diet light on and off. I have lost hundreds of pounds over my life time (since junior high) and gained hundreds more. I have been successful on Atkins, Weight Watchers, South Beach Diet, Phen-fen pills, fasting once a week, and countless others. I've also ALWAYS gained it back. So instead of starting this blog when I had surgery (which was 9 months ago today), I am starting to record my next journey - MAINTENANCE. 

My goal is to stay within a 10 pound range.  130-140 pounds. I'm not sure what my timeline should be for celebration. Should I first make it for one year, two years? But each month for this next year I want to acknowledge where I am. Maintenance is the part I've always failed at. Maintenance is what I've been fearing since before surgery day. Some of you may recall, I was even fearful of approaching "the maintenance cafe" and you TT heroes helped coax me to my goal. 

I reached 140 a month ago, on October 23. Yay, I've made it one month!!! I was even afraid to start this blog until this point in case I couldn't maintain for four weeks! :rolleyes:  

For the first time I realize that just because I'm at my weight goal doesn't mean I'm cured. Like alcoholics that successfully beat the disease say they are in recovery, I think maybe I'll always be a recovering yo-yo dieter. So today is my starting point. Today is my first day. I've had my first month, so feeling pretty good. 

Every month that I'm at goal, I thought I would give myself a little reward. This week I had a manicure at a nail place. (I'm way too cheap to normally pay for them.) I figure the money I save now at Weight Watchers, I'll spend part of that on a little gifty. To remind myself that it's NOT over. To remind myself that I'm still working at this! :P

Right now, a ten pound range feels like I'm trying to balance on the head of a pin! Hopefully, it will get easier? 

1st month - Range 135.4 - 140 pounds

2nd month - Starts today! :D

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Month 3 - I needed "Just the facts, Ma'am"

Well, it's only Month 3, and I'm no longer in my goal range of 130-140.  I've spent a few weeks feeling very weird and a little scared. My emotions have run the gamut between, "Wow, what fun, this is awesome, my Weight Watcher goal in 1985 was 127!" to the depths of "This is scary! Am I still healthy? I'm looking scrawny? If I accept this weight am I anorexic?"  Part of me was asking what foods to add, and the other part was loving still losing each week. I finally made an appointment with my NUT and went yesterday. I needed some hard facts and I got them. They have a machine called a SECA that measures not just weight but also fat mass and non-fat mass. Here is my history: 1/30/18 - 232 # total. 124 fat pounds, 108 nonfat pounds for 54% fat 7/18/18 - 162 # total. 63 fat pounds, 99 nonfat pounds for 39% fat 10/15/18 - 143 # total. 50 fat pounds, 93 nonfat pounds for 35% fat 2/4/19 - 128 # total. 35 fat pounds, 93 nonfat pounds for 27.6 % fat In total I've lost around 90 pounds of fat and about 15 pounds of muscle. My NUT says that those stats are good for my age. In the last 4 months I've lost 15 pounds of fat and zero muscle. YAY! All my "am I getting sickly or scrawny" voices have been dashed! And I'm remotivated to keep exercising 5 days per week.  The percentage fat stats REALLY help too, since I'm ancient and grew up with percentage fat charts instead of BMI charts. There are a bunch online, but at the bottom is an example for women. So I'm near the lower end of ideal, but I'm fine. Whew.  Maybe because I "believe" the fat % charts more, I feel more logical now about adding calories, and adding them the right way. My NUT says NOT to add volume of food at each meal since I can already eat 1/2 to 1 cup at a sitting. Don't want to stretch the sleeve! Instead, she suggested adding calories in the following ways, one at a time, to see what happens for a week or two to see if I should add the next one. I can do any of them in any order: 1) Adding a protein shake each day 2) Adding good fats - nuts, olive oil, or avocado  3) Adding one serving of carb each day.  And I have to add @Jen581791's suggestion of protein powder/nut butter balls!  Yum! Anyway, it's so weird, but the fat percentage thing really squashed the mind games, and I feel fortified to take this next step on the journey in a much more logical manner. (I still think it's because I'm ancient and pine for the abacus! )  Maintenance Diary - 1st month - Range 135.4 - 140 pounds 2nd month - Range 133.0 - 135.4 pounds 3rd month - Range 127.2 - 133.0 4th month - Starts today! 

Cindy Lou Who

Cindy Lou Who

 

Month 2 - Holiday month

I almost titled this blog entry "Too skinny"? I am NOT complaining, but this month has been a bit of a trip into the Weight Twilight Zone. I hoped to get down in the bottom of my weight range before Christmas so I could enjoy holiday treats without fear. Also, we're going with 5 families for a week to a ranch  in Arizona starting tomorrow so the eating/drinking will be tempting there too. Sooooo, I wanted to be at "fighting weight" when all that started. All good. I did that. But then a weird thing happened. My husband said that I didn't need to lose anymore weight. My 25-year-old son home for the holidays said I was too thin and needed to eat more. He tried to pump me with fatty foods, carbs, and candy in an attempt to get high calories in with low volume. And I have to admit, when I look in the mirror, my extra skin looks worse, and I can see my ribs on the front of my chest. I feel like I am in an alternate universe! This can't be me! Even though I look a little gaunt undressed, for the first time probably ever, I think I look really nice in clothes. I'll never be tall and thin, but I'm short and thin-ish in clothes! Yay! So, I'm a little unsure of where exactly I want to end up. Still trying to figure that one out.  I have to say that stopping losing weight FEELS REALLY WEIRD. I've been losing for an entire year. Accepting smalls gains and losses is a mind trip. I still feel like I'm trying to balance on a tight wire.  Exercise-wise I'm toying with running. I've been walking 4-6 miles per day 5 days a week, and this month I've run three miles a few times. It feels so good! But I'm trying to be careful so I don't injure myself. I've only let myself run 2 days a week, and take a rest day after.  My "gifty" for staying in my weight range this month was a new pair of walk/running shoes. I've had the old ones for 5 years so I was REALLY overdue! The real treat was going to a running store, getting fit into the best shoes for my body, feet, and exercise regime. Running is a cheap sport, and I figure shoes is the only real piece of equip't I need.  As a final note I'd like to say that I am SO grateful for 2018! This year has been a transition year to the rest of my life with a healthy future looking very real.  Successful VSG surgery and 115 pounds lost. What a gift this year has been!  I will always remember 2018 as being the year I was physically re-born and given a second chance at a happy life! And thank you, my TT heroes for holding my trembling hand along this journey!  Maintenance Diary - 1st month - Range 135.4 - 140 pounds 2nd month - Range 133.0 - 135.4 pounds 3rd month - Starts today!

Cindy Lou Who

Cindy Lou Who

 

The Beginning

Never done a blog before. But I love reading them on this site, and I think I have something to say. And I'm hoping it might strike a few chords with some of you.  I can lose weight. Over the years I have turned the diet light on and off. I have lost hundreds of pounds over my life time (since junior high) and gained hundreds more. I have been successful on Atkins, Weight Watchers, South Beach Diet, Phen-fen pills, fasting once a week, and countless others. I've also ALWAYS gained it back. So instead of starting this blog when I had surgery (which was 9 months ago today), I am starting to record my next journey - MAINTENANCE.  My goal is to stay within a 10 pound range.  130-140 pounds. I'm not sure what my timeline should be for celebration. Should I first make it for one year, two years? But each month for this next year I want to acknowledge where I am. Maintenance is the part I've always failed at. Maintenance is what I've been fearing since before surgery day. Some of you may recall, I was even fearful of approaching "the maintenance cafe" and you TT heroes helped coax me to my goal.  I reached 140 a month ago, on October 23. Yay, I've made it one month!!! I was even afraid to start this blog until this point in case I couldn't maintain for four weeks!    For the first time I realize that just because I'm at my weight goal doesn't mean I'm cured. Like alcoholics that successfully beat the disease say they are in recovery, I think maybe I'll always be a recovering yo-yo dieter. So today is my starting point. Today is my first day. I've had my first month, so feeling pretty good.  Every month that I'm at goal, I thought I would give myself a little reward. This week I had a manicure at a nail place. (I'm way too cheap to normally pay for them.) I figure the money I save now at Weight Watchers, I'll spend part of that on a little gifty. To remind myself that it's NOT over. To remind myself that I'm still working at this!  Right now, a ten pound range feels like I'm trying to balance on the head of a pin! Hopefully, it will get easier?  1st month - Range 135.4 - 140 pounds 2nd month - Starts today! 

Cindy Lou Who

Cindy Lou Who

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