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I knew back in 2008 as I went through the approval process for gastric bypass surgery, that this wasn't a "quick fix." I knew this was a lifelong commitment to changing my relationship with food and creating a more healthy environment to ensure success, amongst several other mental and physical changes that everyone on this board is aware of. With changing food and environment came another change that I didn't really anticipate, but in hindsight makes total sense... my relationships changed with people. 3, 183 days after my gastric bypass, my life is a 180 degree POSITIVE change from what it was on 8/7/2008. I eliminated many toxic people from my life including my boyfriend of NINE years; I met someone new who opened my eyes to what healthy relationships are all about - we're married now, have a 6 month old daughter and my heart is full. I've traveled the world - my passport is so colorful now.  I've lived in 3 different states, met amazing people, and have been promoted at work 5 times in the past 8 years; my career has skyrocketed in it's own way. My weight has gone back and forth throughout this journey and in the last 12-18 months I feel like I've lost focus...  I can't say I'm bothered or upset by it because I've been focused on my husband, child, and all the wonderful new additions in my life. I'm okay with my choice; in fact, I wouldn't change a thing. However, there comes a time when you get back to center, see the scale and say, "Oh crap, where have I been?" I started my journey back to weight loss and "reactivating" my pouch a couple days ago (started a 5 Day Pouch Test on 4/23/17), and I thought I would blog my experience in hopes that it will help someone else, and at the least... hold ME accountable to sticking with this.

Weight as of 4/23/17: 215.6 | Weight as of Blog Start Date: 209.0 | Goal Weight: 150

Surgery Date: 8/7/2008 | Highest Weight: 273 | Lowest Weight: 163

“Health is a state of complete physical, mental and social well-being, and not merely the absence of disease or infirmity.” ~World Health Organization

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The Reset - Part II

Day 4 of the 5DPT: I woke up this morning and I was 207.2. This means I've lost 6.4 lbs in 3 days. I know the 5DPT isn't about losing weight (although it goes hand in hand with eating correctly), but it's always nice to see the scale go down. I will say that today has been the hardest so far - not because i'm hungry, but I didn't have a lot of time to do prep last night for "firm proteins", so I've been living off low-sodium lunch meat and chopped chicken breast IN chicken salad so it's more dense than chicken salad alone. At this rate, a turkey burger tonight sounds amazing.

So, I have to say - I'm not hungry. I'm not craving any carbs. I've been able to manage my 30-minute liquid cutoff before and after meals. And the 6.4 lbs has been just enough to see some of my clothes actually fit, which is always a motivator. For me, so far the 5DPT has been more of a mental reset than a physical reset, and I actually do feel like I have more confidence that my pouch still works, and that I can stick to the pouch rules and have success again. We'll see how day 5 goes, but dare I say I'm optimistic.

MORE MOTIVATION: Interesting fact recent posted on Science Daily:  "Obesity resulted in as much as 47 percent more life-years lost than tobacco, and tobacco caused similar life-years lost as high blood pressure, new research has shown." 



The Reset

My Issue: I was 273 pounds before GP-RNY, got down to 163 pounds at my lowest in January 2014, and currently sitting at sturdy 213. I’m basically fed up with my weight and the way I feel, and I’m frustrated that I let myself get to this point.

My Motivation: 1) I want to be healthy for myself and my family – I want to live a long time and watch my daughter grow up. 2) I need to feel good in my skin again – I’m a 32 year woman, and I want to feel confident in my body. 3) I don’t want my daughter to have the “fat mom” that can’t chase her around and keep up with her

For the past two weeks I’ve sat in a quandary trying to figure out HOW to go about my mission to get back on track and head for my goal weight. I know it’s all easier said than done, but I really thought coming up with a game plan would be a piece of cake. No, actually. I did my research online, dusted off some old WLS materials from my surgeon, and read success stories of other patients who regained control. My fear was (still is) that my pouch had stopped working; what if I went through ALL this effort to lose weight, and then to gain some back and find out that my stomach has stretched and my pouch is non-existent? I started to think of all the unconditional love and support I received from my family, have I let them down? I spent so much money on multiple new wardrobes and now none of those clothes fit; have I just wasted a bunch of money? All the “what if’s” have weighed on me heavily for quite some time, and I haven’t wanted to come to terms with the possible answers to these questions.

I think I subconsciously convinced myself my pouch didn’t exist - I thought of going back to Jenny Craig or Weight Watchers. I pulled out all my portion cups and DVDs from the last time I did the 21 Day Fix and thought I could start that up again. My next door neighbor does “Insanity” and offered to do a full 60 day program with me. I thought about Slim Fast because it’s relatively easy and minimal prep. Trying to think of what program I could do to lose weight, while working more than full time (my job is not the standard 40 hour work week), and being a new mom to my 6-month old daughter… Ugggghhhh. It was too much to take. It finally hit me – “Marina, get it together. You have this AMAZING tool… your pouch; You need to RESET. You’ll never know if it works if you don’t get back to basics and try.” That brings me to starting the 5 Day Pouch Test and re-teaching myself all the basics that I lived and breathed many moons ago.

I started the 5-Day Pouch Test on Sunday, April 23rd. My first goal is to finish the 5DPT all the way through – no cheating, no exceptions.

Day 1 – Full Liquids (Weight: 213.6)

Breakfast – Slim Fast Advanced Shake (higher protein, lower carbs & sugar than regular SF drinks)

Snack – N/A

Lunch – 8 oz low sodium chicken broth

Snack – EAS Advantage Shake

Dinner – ½ can of cream of broccoli soup (so gross, couldn’t finish it)

Snack - 1.5 servings sugar-free chocolate pudding
Total Water Intake: 66 oz.

Feeling: Very hungry by the end of the night and felt out of touch. My total calorie intake was only about 650 calories, which has to be the lowest calorie day I’ve had in years. I think I’ve been permanently scarred from low sodium cream soups and broths due to my 2 week pre-op liquid diet, and my first two weeks post-op. Just the thought makes me gag, so finding stuff that works for me during day 1 and 2 is pretty limited.

Day 2 – Full Liquids (Weight: N/A)

Breakfast – Slim Fast Advantage Shake (higher protein, lower carbs & sugar than regular SF drinks)

Snack – 1.5 servings Sugar-Free chocolate pudding

Lunch – Cream of Chicken Soup

Snack – 1 serving sugar-free jello

Dinner – EAS Advantage Shake

Snack – N/A
Total Water Intake: 72 oz.

Feeling: Much more energy on Day 2 and wasn’t quite as hungry. I went to sleep feeling satisfied but woke up in the middle of the night feeling pretty hungry – I was able to chug some water and felt better, but it’s still not the same as a midnight snack ::sigh::

Day 3 – Soft Protein (Weight: 209 – Woot!)

Breakfast – 2 egg muffins*

Snack – None

Lunch – 6 oz chicken salad (low fat mayo, mustard, pepper, celery seed, and some chopped green onion and celery)

Snack – 2 egg muffins*

Dinner – 4 oz baked cod (added lemon juice, garlic, and Mrs. Dash seasoning)

Snack – EAS Advantage Shake

Total Water Intake: 66 oz so far

Feeling: Day started out great, but by 3pm I was starving – which is why I had my afternoon egg muffins! I should have just had a snack even though I wasn’t starving… it has to be better to do that and keep satiety throughout the day. Today was the first day of no drinking before and after meals for 30 minutes… another thing I haven’t really focused on in a long time. I’ve had to really think about when I’m going to eat and actually plan a little bit… I think getting back on track with even just this one rule will really help with my grazing and snacking. It forces you stop and think about what your next move is in the food department.

*Egg muffins are my own weird thing… basically a high-protein, low-fat, low-carb, mini crustless quiche. I mix up 6 eggs + 6 egg whites, 1 cup lowfat cottage cheese, chopped white onion, chopped cilantro, ¼ cup of nonfat milk, salt, pepper, and a little bit of ground sausage (usually I add some extra veggies, but I didn’t this time because of the 5DPT - trying to keep it simple). I Put the mixture in a muffin tin and bake them at 400 degrees for 20 minutes. I do this pretty often as part of meal prep for my husband and I – it takes me less than an hour on Sunday, and we both have a healthy, low-carb breakfast for the entire week.

Day 4 – Firm Protein (Weight: N/A)

We’ll see what day 4 looks like. At a very high level… for food tomorrow I’m planning to have a breakfast scramble (diced ham and Colby jack cheese with only 2 egg whites – just enough to hold it together and still be firm) for breakfast, grilled shrimp for lunch , and a turkey burger for dinner. No idea about snacks in between – probably salmon.

Day 5 – Solid Protein (Weight: N/A)

No clue - I feel like day 4 and 5 are the hardest to come up with food! I’m guessing it will have something to do chicken breast…. Maybe simmer it in marinara sauce with a little mozzarella and make a chicken Parmesan type deal. J

Wish me luck on day 4 and day 5…. I’ll post updates with the final outcome, and then it’s on to “Day 6 and beyond” where I really have to focus on my food choices and fullness, while LISTENING to my pouch. Cheers!

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