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I want to! I swear!

The other day (more like a few weeks ago,) I was sitting at a Cards and Games shop with both my boys while the oldest tutored the youngest in Algebra. (I’m sure you can imagine the bribery involved. But a mom’s gotta do what a mom’s gotta do ) During a brief moment when Trevor was actually working independently, Andrew and I were chatting about everyday things and— I can’t remember why but— he asked if I still keep up with my WLS blog. I was immediately filled with the familiar guilt I am floode

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Loosen up… It was just a misunderstanding!

From the day I had my gastric bypass surgery, my pouch has been super sensitive to things like time, emotion, smells, food… all sorts of things— even THOUGHTS. At 4 years post-op, I still have to avoid solid foods before lunchtime, my pouch knots up and makes it impossible to eat when I get upset, you’d think I’ve been pregnant for FOUR YEARS by the way my tummy rebels at every little odd scent, and it is virtually impossible to force down anything that tastes or feels “wrong.” I am clearly at t

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The Big Green Egg!

I know it’s been many months since I wrote a blog entry and even longer since I've written regularly. I swear I am ALWAYS thinking of my next entry— often composing it in my mind— but I also ALWAYS decide I need to wait til I catch up for lost time before beginning with new ideas. Clearly not such a good strategy since I NEVER end up writing . Soooo… I decided to just start writing again. It may or may not become regular, especially since my health is still so up and down. But, there’s NO W

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Thankful for Thanksgiving Enlightenment

Well, I held my first family Thanksgiving dinner since moving into my new house in my childhood hometown in North Florida. And only briefly did I wish I was back 3000 miles away in the peace and quiet of Southern California. Of course, I was so happy to have all my family together in my home for a holiday. It has been so long since we have all been able to gather together for a Thanksgiving dinner like we did so many years ago… like back when I lived here almost 20 years ago. Apparently I

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No wonder America’s children are overweight!

Let me start by saying that I have been feeling exceptionally well since Monday! And it’s a good thing, because my little guy (who is 13 and WAY bigger than me, lol) had to spend a few days in the hospital. The poor thing has had an intractable migraine since September 11th and has been practically unable to open his eyes, much less go to school, almost the entire time. He’s had migraines his whole life but NEVER has one been this relentless for THIS long. He is utterly exhausted and unspeakably

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A reaction to cortisone injections… who knew?

I just had the strangest and most unexpected experience! A quite dramatic (and fortunately short-lived) reaction to a simple set of cortisone injections. Those of you who follow my blog may remember that I had a total hip replacement just a few months before the major symptoms of my current illness became completely out of control. As you can imagine, spending a year or so bedridden after hip replacement isn’t very conducive to a smooth recovery. So, needless to say, I’ve had a bit of hip p

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Small, medium, AND large?!

It has felt really good to be up and about over the past week and a half! I have been going for long, healthy walks, efficiently running errands, visiting my family, and dressing up EVERYDAY! Complete with makeup! I’m telling you— what a difference it makes to put on makeup and a nice outfit and interact with the world!! Of course, it has been quite a while since I have gotten dressed regularly and my clothes are a little old and some are a little snug or just fit differently since I have l

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Don’t worry, I’m not dead!

Before I begin my first post in a few months, I want to say a couple of things: I’m so sorry for not at least popping in to let you all know I am alive. I realize my most recent posts were quite depressing and my condition was questionable (understatement) so just dropping off the face of the Earth was not cool. I think of you guys as “real” friends and not just internet friends and I know many of you care about me the same way so I really apologize for making you worry. Ok… I am going to try

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Catching Up— The Rapid Spiral Downward, Continued

This catch up post should be quite a bit less dramatic. I am feeling much better! Usually, when I am feeling well, I try to write things down to remember in my blog or I try to actually get an entry complete (it doesn’t come as naturally as it used to.) But this weekend, I didn’t. Instead, I enjoyed an ENTIRE Mother’s Day weekend with not a worry in the world. I dressed up Friday and went shopping then out on the town with my hubby and kid. And I got dressed Saturday (not fancy, but makeup

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I Lost My First Green Bean Race

Last night, I made grilled mahi mahi with olive tapenade and garlic green beans… mmmm… It was a meal I could eat with the family (and I felt well enough to eat) so it was even more delicious than it sounds. Believe it or not, I did not taste fresh green beans until I was grown and married! Pu-lease, I grew up dirt poor and I would get so excited when my mom would open a can of soft, salty green beans from the food pantry. And I LIVED for holidays when she splurged to make green bean cassero

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Catching Up— The Rapid Spiral Downward

I’ll have to say… catching you guys up is not as easy as I thought it would be. A lot of the details and emotions have been lost to time and my practically incoherent state while I was at my sickest. While I want to put in as much detail as possible so folks who may be struggling with similar issues in the future have something solid to refer to, I also feel compelled to just get it out there… so I can move on to the part that is happening NOW— the part I need support for and can blog in real ti

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No Thanks, I’m Just Looking…

First, I want to thank my TT family for the overwhelming support and encouragement you have offered. I honestly cannot express how much it means to me to have such support! So many of you (and my own family and friends, too!) have mentioned a “reason” for everything and a change in perspective or priorities and I have to say I whole-heartedly agree! While I am not happy with my current health status, and I am frustrated to be sidelined in my career, I DO feel fortunate that I am being “forced” t

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A Reversal of Fortune

This is the post I have been… postponing. I know so many people have been wondering why I dropped off the face of the Earth and I figure I may as well get it over with and give an update. I received a diagnosis for my illness… Nesidioblastosis. It’s also referred to as Non Insulinoma Pancreatogenous Hypoglycemia Syndrome (NIPHS.) And boy, is it a doozy! I guess what I will do right now is to tell you a little bit about my condition and the course of treatment I have been undertaking an

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In my fridge/freezer from A to Z

I happen to have created this list many months ago and forgot to post it so thought I’d share today… In my fridge/freezer from A to Z Apples— So yummy with No Sugar Added peanut butter! Broccoli— I USED to hate it, now I LOVE it! Calcet Creamy Bites— Frozen Calcium Citrate treats in lemon and chocolate flavor Dunkin Donuts Coffee Beans— I drink it so fast, there is really no need to store them in the freezer Edamame— Packs a protein punch! Fat Free Half and Half— For my coffe

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From Diners, Drive-ins and Dives to Top Chef taste...

As I was sitting with my hubby this week, enjoying a little "together" time watching whatever is DVRed on tv, I felt my stomach literally turning. Not another episode of Diners, Drive-ins, and Dives?! I like Guy Fieri as much as the next food porn guy, but if I have to watch him exclaim with anticipation as some sweaty, stain-covered dude dumps a bucket of lard into a bucket of sugar and spreads the magic sauce over 20 pounds of fat-laden beef to let it marinate before piling it two feet high on

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Throwing it all away!

More on the topic of ordering or fixing large portions… I know a lot of folks are at the stage of not really relishing their food and some even look at eating like a miserable chore. For many, even those of us a couple of years post-op, the appetite is a whole different animal than before— a mewing kitten lapping up a saucer of milk instead of that old prowling, roaring, flesh-eating lion tearing and gnawing at a big juicy zebra butt while continuing to scan the horizon for a nice juicy har

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“I never thought I would hear you order a full sized anything again!”

My mother. Bless her heart… She just has no filter whatsoever… As you may have notice from my last blog entry, I am going through a salad phase. One of my favorite salads in the Greek Salad from Panera. It’s definitely yummy and there is no added sugar in it so I can usually count on it for a tasty meal that usually doesn’t make me “dump.” The other day, I was going through the Panera drive through when my mom called on my blue tooth. I asked her to wait just a sec while I ordered my s

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Salad: Super-yummy, satisfying and (usually) SAFE

Hello my good friends! I have missed you! I realize it has been quite some time since my last blog post. I have been wrestling with my illness and it seems like if I have “alert time,” I am just doing my best to catch up on all the things I didn’t do when I was sick. The months of November and December were particularly good for me and I was really enjoying having quite a bit of activity and real life, but I have been struggling again since right before Christmas. However, some of my dearest TT

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It doesn’t help that I’ve eaten out for 2 weeks!

Yesterday, as we returned from a two week vacation with the entire stay in a hotel and only a small handful of home cooked meals, I commented to DH that his pants looked a little snug (In my defense, I did NOT mention that his belly was also visibly rounder than it was when we began our vacation ). He quickly returned with, “It doesn’t help that I’ve eaten out for two weeks!” To which my immediate reply was, “Just because we were eating out doesn’t mean you had to eat a burger and fries at each

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Badonk-a-donk

Badonk-a-donk Definition— A rather large, round, nicely shaped buttocks that is enticing and enjoyable to the touch. (I swear I didn’t make that up!!! LOL!) Out of the mouths of babes… Yesterday, I attended my niece’s baby shower (she is due on Feb 14 but scheduled it while I would be in town… what a Sweetie!) There were just a cubic ton of people there, so it was quite overwhelming. But, many of my female family were there, too, so it was also a wonderful get-together— my 4 tee

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Celebrating my birthday with my birthday twin

Yesterday (the 19th) was my THIRD birthday since my gastric bypass surgery in May 2011. And, while my hair-trigger dumping doesn’t allow me to even think about celebrating with sweets, most of our family/special events still do revolve around food— yummy, but healthy (or at least not too indulgent) food! This is the first time I have been in the same place as my birthday twin (and nephew) on our special day. Since we knew we would be together for our birthday this year, we have been plannin

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Yesterday was a day of rest

I’m so busy I am finding it tough to blog. That’s a good thing! It means my “mystery illness” and my darn kidney stone are giving me a break. Saturday was the wedding and it was so beautiful. I wore my pretty new dress and even wore my faux fur capelet aka. “the possum wrap” once it got dark. I was told by dozens of people how beautiful I looked. And I felt just that lovely! It was so incredible to see my son and his new wife after the past few months! I just glowed with happiness!! Th

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I can’t get a break!

Today, my son, Andrew, is getting married! This summer, he and his fiancé graduated from college and moved to Florida where we have LOTS and LOTS of family and where they have been setting up their new life and planning their wedding. And TODAY is the day! My little one, hubby, and I have traveled to Florida to enjoy his wonderful day with him—and to visit my family and friends for the Thanksgiving holiday! Since I have been having so much trouble with my health, I have been really worried

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Exhausted and hopeful

I am exhausted, I can barely keep my eyes open, my hip is killing me, and every muscle in my body aches. And I couldn’t be happier! As many of you know, I have really been struggling with my health. I recently just realized that it was a year ago that I had my total hip replacement… and began the dramatic decline in my overall health. And since April, I have been completely disabled, in and out of the hospital, and bedridden the majority of the time. And, as I’ve mentioned, I have recently

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What happens when someone asks- What happens after the weight loss stops?

November 7, 2013 This afternoon, JR posted an article asking, What happens after the weight loss stops? The featured woman’s emotional battle and the question were apparently very relevant to me as I have been trying my best to reason my way through my own irrational body issues. I started writing a quick answer and wound up writing a whole book, LOL. Instead of taking over his thread with my own issues, I decided to post my answer in my blog—where I do my best self-therapy, anyway;) T

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