Wow, can't believe this is my 9th month of maintenance. I've been reflecting today just how scared I was when I first entered the "maintenance cafe." I was so petrified of gaining it all back as fast as it had come off. The weight loss numbers seemed crazy, and I had ALWAYS gained right back before. I'm talking SINCE JUNIOR HIGH. I can honestly say for the first time in my life I feel like my weight loss efforts are working WITH my body instead of AGAINST it. I have officially been on maintenanc
I have been married for more than 10 years to a lovely husband. He's slim, a naturally healthy eater and fit, and has always supported me in my battle to lose weight. Anyway, in the last year I have been snoring loudly and often he had to gently wake me up for me to change position and stop, as I was disturbing him. Among many others, this was one of the reasons to have surgery, to improve my snoring and apnea.
Anyway, last night he told me that since I had the surgery I have not snored onc
Four weeks ago I have my sleeve, amazing how time passes so quickly. I am doing well, still in the puree stage for one more week. Mi biggest incision is still bothering quite a lot, with a stabbing pain that feels deep inside my abdomen. I consulted with the surgeon who said it was to be expected, but I feel that it is getting worse rather than better. I worry that it can be due to the fall down the stairs that I had early on, or some gardening that I did 12 days post op, where I lifted some wei
I had surgery three years ago today: July 28, 2016.
I've been about the size and weight I am now for two years—two years ago I was about five pounds heavier, last year I was about five pounds lighter. I'm feeling pretty stable and solid—I had a little weight gain earlier this year, watched (and didn't watch) things creep just above 195 before I realized I needed to and could focus on it and intervene. I've taken most of it back off. I definitely had some fear and anxiety when I realized tha
OOOOOPS, actually doing this blog entry a couple weeks late. I was on Samoa time, Man! Promised pictures at the bottom of page!
It ended up being a great trip, and some new weight maintenance challenges that will help me in the long run. The main thing I was worried about was weight gain from being away from the daily scale weigh ins at home, away from the weekly weigh ins at Weight Watchers, no weighing and measuring and predictable food, not being able to run for security reasons, not
My two year surgiversary was last week, and had a my follow-up with my surgeon's office. My weight one year ago was 150, last week it was 153. She said she is not the least bit concerned since my BMI is still in a good range (23.3). My labs were good.
For most people 3 pounds is like nothing. For me, it's irritating. Normally I do tend shift 2-3 pounds. I am still under my goal weight which was 155. But that 3 pounds bugs me. :/
Maintenance is not fun. While I enjoy the freedom
Another month down. Some new, and not so great, little demon habits started sneaking in this month. Messy head messages, really. Because I was still "underweight" according to my doc, and because I have been nervous the last two weeks about a month-long trip coming up, I started letting myself snack way more, and even ate emotionally some. YUCK! Hated it! I gained 3 pounds, which is no big deal as it's in my happy range, but I'm not happy AT ALL about how it made me feel. It made me feel out of
We’ll start with the bad:
My husband totaled our car. He’s ok, though.
Our finances are still a hot mess and we can’t afford to buy or finance another car.
Now we have a great excuse (well, REASON) to ride our bikes literally everywhere.
So I’m averaging about 15-20 miles a day commuting and running daily errands and taking 40-65 mile rides on the weekends. I’m burning roughly 600-800 calories on weekdays and roughly 1000-1500 calories on my we
So, I have held the idea of a 5DPT in the back of my mind for when I “needed” it. I’ve been slowly but steadily going up since January. (I thought it was only 5# but when I looked back at my weight chart, it was nearly 10#!!!! GULP!!!! So, it was none to late to pull that fall-back out and use it. I wasn’t sure it would help me lose weight but if it at least helps me kick my carb habit and make my pouch remember its size!!!
Day 1: I got up (really early, it was an early schedule I wa
When there's a need to open up.
There are some things in life that are easy to talk about; work, life, simple day to day things. Then, there are things that you struggle to even face alone, much less involving someone else in it. It's time that I open up about my biggest struggle. A struggle that I've faced my entire life. A struggle that almost killed me.
I'm overweight. Those two words are so hard to say. I cry each time I associate them with myself. I have let that fact, and the peo
So I meant to post this last week, actually the week before but obviously I didn’t! My hubby is away and I have a little free time before bed tonight so I thought I’d post.
I have been pretty disappointed with myself bc I have slacked off a lot. Part of my problem is that I KNOW I can recover, so I feel like IF I gain 10#, i will just get serious and get it back off, which is a SUPER DANGEROUS way to think!!!!
Today I decided to do a 5DPT. I have been wanting to do it for a long
For the record, I am now 14 months post-op and 6 months under goal weight.
6 months? Really? Up to now I purposely didn't have the "M" word ("Maintenance") in my blog title because I didn't want to jinx myself if it wasn't going to happen. Looking back now, I can see I wasn't really in maintenance at first as I was still consciously, and unconsciously making myself lose more. But , even though I still feel like keeping in 5-10 pound range is scary, it's beginning to feel not like standing
Yes, I have neglected to write anything here for a long time! This isn’t because I’ve lost interest in TTF (I read it daily and comment fairly frequently). It’s just because things have gotten pretty routine for me, so I feel less of a need to do the soul searching I have spent so much time doing here in the past. I’m not taking anything for granted (working hard on that!!!) and I definitely haven’t gone back to my old ways, so I think things are OK.
As a catch-up since last summer (what??
Wow! I realized it's been December since I posted. Holy cr@p! I haven't poked around the threads yet to see how everyone's doing, but I will!
I'm doing well. I'll post the not so great first - I developed kind of a not great relationship with alcohol and may have given myself an ulcer as a result. I've only been experiencing pain for about two weeks, so I contacted the doctor ASAP. They're giving me a megadose of PPI daily and I'll have an endoscopy when I go in for my 18 month appointment i
Hard to believe it's been such a long time since I last updated! I never meant to let a month go by without posting here. WLS was such a huge point of change and disruption in my life (in the best possible way) that I didn't think there would ever come a time that I didn't need to talk about it endlessly. But truth - after a while, the machinery of normal life grinds on, and other priorities begin to reassert themselves.
At 19 months out, I feel pretty evenly-keeled about my surgery and
Honesty first. Ready? Here it goes:
I will remember these first few months of maintenance with the biggest emotion being --------- PANIC! Isn't that dumb?!!!!!!!!!??????
I have felt grateful for months and months now as I healed from surgery and the pounds started coming off and the clothes got smaller. And I still feel HUGE gratefulness. But, since this forum is the place to be honest, I have to warn others that the biggest emotions I have felt in maintenance have been fear and pan
Well this marks not only the end of my 4th month of maintenance blog, but also my surgiversary. So I've posted a few pics at the end.
1 - Before picture
2 - Picture this morning
3 - Picture of some old and current pants
What a great year. A life-changing year. I thank God every morning for this opportunity for a healthy future. I am so grateful. Yesterday I had my one year check up with my surgeon and I had tears when I thanked him for his good work. He got tears too!
Well, it's only Month 3, and I'm no longer in my goal range of 130-140.
I've spent a few weeks feeling very weird and a little scared. My emotions have run the gamut between, "Wow, what fun, this is awesome, my Weight Watcher goal in 1985 was 127!" to the depths of "This is scary! Am I still healthy? I'm looking scrawny? If I accept this weight am I anorexic?" Part of me was asking what foods to add, and the other part was loving still losing each week. I finally made an appointment with
I almost titled this blog entry "Too skinny"? I am NOT complaining, but this month has been a bit of a trip into the Weight Twilight Zone. I hoped to get down in the bottom of my weight range before Christmas so I could enjoy holiday treats without fear. Also, we're going with 5 families for a week to a ranch in Arizona starting tomorrow so the eating/drinking will be tempting there too. Sooooo, I wanted to be at "fighting weight" when all that started. All good. I did that.
But then a wei
One year. I can't believe it's been a whole year - its funny, how it both seems twice as long, and also like it can't possibly have been a year already.
In the year (and couple weeks) since surgery, I have lost over 100 pounds. I can power up stairs without losing my breath, do longer hikes, and I have a wholly different relationship with food. I'm very mindful of my tool; especially now that I really and truly feel hunger again. It would not be difficult to eat past the warning signs of fu
Never done a blog before. But I love reading them on this site, and I think I have something to say. And I'm hoping it might strike a few chords with some of you.
I can lose weight. Over the years I have turned the diet light on and off. I have lost hundreds of pounds over my life time (since junior high) and gained hundreds more. I have been successful on Atkins, Weight Watchers, South Beach Diet, Phen-fen pills, fasting once a week, and countless others. I've also ALWAYS gained it back.
A year ago today, I was headed into the hospital all nervous that I had made a wacky decision that I might regret. My sister had just died, so I was grieving and looking at going through this process without her - which was not part of my plan. She was my support system. My family needed me, but I told them I needed to go ahead and do this for myself and that everything could wait until I was healed from surgery. I almost backed out. Some of my friends and family thought I should have at the tim
Hi guys! Today is my one year surgiversary and it just hit me HARD. As I sit here, literally sobbing at my desk with my office door closed, I thought I'd share a few thoughts with the one group of people that I know can understand my feelings more than anyone else.
One year ago I was a smart, talented, woman who had cultivated a solid "fun, pretty-faced fat girl" personality over the decades of my obese existence. As my weight increased over the years, the best and most important parts of m