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[fiennesite]

Well, my journey has been a bumpy one. I had my surgery in February 2008. In about a year I was down from 343 to 248, but it wasn't to last long. I did not succeed in developing better eating habits, beating my sugar addiction, and making exercise a regular part of my life...so I gained 30 lbs.

Mind you, in the past two and a half years I went through a rough divorce, a custody fight, a major move, a major job change, found the love of my life, remarried, and started graduate school, all while having 4 bosses in two years, ending with the Anti-Christ who is now my boss. Fast forward to now...I joyfully learn that I am pregnant, about 5 weeks.

Where does this leave me emotionally and as far as post gastric bypass? A little dismayed, bewildered, and not sure what I should try to do now.

I can look at this pregnancy as an opportunity to improve my health, my exercise attitudes/habits, make major strides in my behavioral modification, and hopefully come out the other side of my pregnancy stronger, and without gaining too much weight. I don't want to live the next eight months in total fear, but I also want to be aware, and do the right thing.

I hope I can reach out to others here who have already had babies, who are maybe having some of the same challenges as me. I have come here over the past couple years several times, but never felt like I could stick around. I think it's because seeing others succeed where I was failing miserably was discouraging. I don't know if there are others like me on this board...struggling with sugar addiction, wondering why the surgery didn't do more for my body or my mind...but I am where I am, and it is what it is. Reality. I can only hope and pray that I can make a change. I want my future, my child's life to be surrounded with a mother who has good, healthy habits, so he or she can learn the best way to live and not suffer my pitfalls in life all over again.

Thanks for reading,
Mary K.:o

P.S. I forgot to mention, that I'm also coming off the medication Effexor for anxiety. I read the effects on babies are bad, so I had to quit cold turkey when my test came up positive this past Thursday. It is one of the worst drugs for withdraw...to the point that people have to take out one particle at a time from the capsules. Luckily I was only on half a dose, 37 mg a day..so hopefully the effects won't last long. So far I've had major crying jags, and have felt dizzy and sleepy. Not sure which is pregnancy and which is the drug effects. I'm also hypothyroid, which means I have to keep taking synthroid throughout my pregnancy, and get tested each trimester to see how that's doing. I'm going to the doctor next week to confirm my pregnancy, get my annual nutritional blood tests, and see where i go from here.

Edited by fiennesite, 28 August 2010 - 06:23 AM.

[longing4thin]

Hi there, sounds like you've had a lot of upheaval in the last couple of years.  Hopefully things are on the upswing!

Looks like I'm about a week ahead of you as I'm 6 weeks.  Due date is 4/24.

Have you tried an antidepressant that also treats anxiety? I've been on Zoloft forever and it really helps. Also Xanax isn't too bad during pregnancy, if you take small doses--only  "in case of emergency".

Good luck!

[fiennesite]

Krista,
Thanks for your response. I am going to talk to the doctor about what I can take in an emergency situation. Even with the Effexor, when I have really bad moments I take propanalol and 1/2 a klonopin. I'm not sure about those with pregnancy either. If I can still take those in a really bad situation, then hopefully I'll be okay.

I'm not good with anti-depressants...they change my personality too much. My issues are primarily around anxiety. I've done a lot of work with mindfulness exercises, learning how to stay in the moment, etc, so I'm hoping to put it all to the test now that I don't have the medication.

Most side effects I notice so far is just getting tearful and crying for no reason. Not sure if that's part meds/part hormones. I'm somewhere between 5-6 weeks. I think I conceived on the 5th or 6th, and I just only read that they count your period week in the weeks. I never knew that with my first son...I just accepted they counted the weeks differently lol.

Oh well. So far I've been lucky...no morning sickness. Just a little dizziness and very tired. How about you?

Mary

[longing4thin]

Very dizzy, very tired.  Regular morning sickness.  I'm So looking forward to the second trimester!
ACtually fainted int eh kitchen this morning... and yes, I'm gettingin enough fluids. :)

[fiennesite]

Okay, I'm going to put them all here so they won't be ping ponging around my mind....

1. My job. It's highly stressful and I have a manager who hates giving time off for family issues. I feel like me being prego is a recipe for disaster. I'm applying for other jobs.  I told her I'm pregnant today via email because she's out of town the next two weeks (woohoo). I'm hoping by telling her I'm protecting myself legally. She's pretty much had it in for me since she was put above me, and I knew she wanted to put someone from her team back in Michigan on my job. She tried to write me up in March for missing too much work because of my son. My hubby was home and helped the next six months. Fast forward, now hubby got a new job, my son is sick, and I've had to work from home for the past 3 days. Honestly it was never a problem with any of my previous bosses...we are set up to work from home...I have a laptop, VPN, blackberry...I'm actually more productive on my own than in the office.  It just makes no sense to give me a hard time about it unless as I say, she wants someone else in my job. Sigh...

2. Weight gain. I am up 2 lbs from a few days ago. I haven't really been eating more, so I'm not sure why, but I'm terrified. I gained 60 lbs with my first son. I cannot do that now. I cannot fail at my surgery at the same time as being pregnant...it will just totally take away from the joy of having the baby if all the while I feel like a complete failure.

3. Exercise. I'm trying to do it more...sigh.

4. Finding a good OB who understands post GB. I've asked around from people in my support group, but so far everyone whose been recommended is too far from where I live. I'm hoping my GP will have some possible referrals when I go in for my visit tomorrow...going to get my bloodwork done, nutrition panel, thyroid check, and verify the pregnancy.

5. Grad School. I just started, and I'm already feeling overwhelmed. I sometimes think the more on my plate the better I do, but right now it's insane. Last night I could hardly keep my eyes open to do my paper, because being pregnant is hitting my energy like a freight train.

6. My son. He's got asthma and he's sick as a dog right now. He knows my boss is evil, and he feels guilty being sick. I feel awful that he feels that way. It's just not right to have to feel like you can't stay home with a sick child. My hubby can't share that task right now since he's still on probation at his job since he just started. I just have to do what's right, and if my job fires me for it, then I'll know the Universe is just trying to get me to a better job quicker.

7. Childcare. Lord, I was very lucky with my first son. My ex-husband stayed home with him the first two years, and I stayed home with him the second two years. This means I've never had to put a child in daycare per se. Cole was always in pre-school or school. Now I have this HUGE guilty feeling that I'm going to put my child in someone else's care for the sake of two incomes, (living in Northern VA it's not really a choice), and I feel so horrible. I feel like if I give up that important part of raising my child, then I will end up not having my child but someone else's who I get to visit 3 hours a night. I know that's horrible, but that's how it feels. Sigh...I'm actually in the process of interviewing a babysitting agency just for these sick days for Cole...I know if I take anymore soon I'll basically be looking at losing my job. Don't know what to do :-(

That's about enough for now...all that roiling around in my head is killing me. It doesn't help that I can't take my anti-anxiety medication. I'm trying mindfulness and breathing exercises, but I still find my mind racing around the corners of these issues and I feel pretty banged up emotionally.

Thanks for reading if you are reading...

Longing: I hope you've got your fainting thing under control. Try to eat more often if you can. I find that helps.

Edited by fiennesite, 31 August 2010 - 06:46 AM.

[Songbird]

First of all, just take a deep breath!  I know how you feel.  I just moved to a new city in June...a few weeks later I conceived this baby.  I got a new job in the middle of July, then found out I was pregnant a few weeks later.  Luckily, my boss is really wonderful and understanding.  Plus, I work in the hospital where I'm delivering, so that's a blessing.  I am also in school.  I was a teacher for 4 years.  I moved to this new place and jobs were scarce.  Not ONE interview.  So, I got a job at the hospital.  I felt like nursing might be the route to go, so I decided to take one of my two courses to get into Nursing school.  I planned to try to conceive the last year of nursing school, so I could have the baby when I graduated.  I have a very active 3 year old girl at home, and just felt that was a good plan.  Boy, did that change!  So, now I'm taking Anatomy and Physiology during my 1st trimester of pregnancy, and will have a 3 year old and baby when I enter Nursing school.  I totally get where you are coming from.  As far as daycare....I stayed home the first year of my daughter's life.  When I went to work and put her in daycare, I felt so guilty.  But, it has made her a much better child.  She is smarter, has amazing social skills, friends and is just an all around happy child.  Don't feel guilty.  It will be good for your child.  Just really search for the right place.  I'm here for you if you need anything...I'm due March 30th, so I'm not too far ahead of you, I think!:D  Just remember, you are not alone.

[Songbird]

fiennesite said:

Okay, I'm going to put them all here so they won't be ping ponging around my mind....

1. My job. It's highly stressful and I have a manager who hates giving time off for family issues. I feel like me being prego is a recipe for disaster. I'm applying for other jobs.  I told her I'm pregnant today via email because she's out of town the next two weeks (woohoo). I'm hoping by telling her I'm protecting myself legally. She's pretty much had it in for me since she was put above me, and I knew she wanted to put someone from her team back in Michigan on my job. She tried to write me up in March for missing too much work because of my son. My hubby was home and helped the next six months. Fast forward, now hubby got a new job, my son is sick, and I've had to work from home for the past 3 days. Honestly it was never a problem with any of my previous bosses...we are set up to work from home...I have a laptop, VPN, blackberry...I'm actually more productive on my own than in the office.  It just makes no sense to give me a hard time about it unless as I say, she wants someone else in my job. Sigh...

2. Weight gain. I am up 2 lbs from a few days ago. I haven't really been eating more, so I'm not sure why, but I'm terrified. I gained 60 lbs with my first son. I cannot do that now. I cannot fail at my surgery at the same time as being pregnant...it will just totally take away from the joy of having the baby if all the while I feel like a complete failure.

3. Exercise. I'm trying to do it more...sigh.

4. Finding a good OB who understands post GB. I've asked around from people in my support group, but so far everyone whose been recommended is too far from where I live. I'm hoping my GP will have some possible referrals when I go in for my visit tomorrow...going to get my bloodwork done, nutrition panel, thyroid check, and verify the pregnancy.

5. Grad School. I just started, and I'm already feeling overwhelmed. I sometimes think the more on my plate the better I do, but right now it's insane. Last night I could hardly keep my eyes open to do my paper, because being pregnant is hitting my energy like a freight train.

6. My son. He's got asthma and he's sick as a dog right now. He knows my boss is evil, and he feels guilty being sick. I feel awful that he feels that way. It's just not right to have to feel like you can't stay home with a sick child. My hubby can't share that task right now since he's still on probation at his job since he just started. I just have to do what's right, and if my job fires me for it, then I'll know the Universe is just trying to get me to a better job quicker.

7. Childcare. Lord, I was very lucky with my first son. My ex-husband stayed home with him the first two years, and I stayed home with him the second two years. This means I've never had to put a child in daycare per se. Cole was always in pre-school or school. Now I have this HUGE guilty feeling that I'm going to put my child in someone else's care for the sake of two incomes, (living in Northern VA it's not really a choice), and I feel so horrible. I feel like if I give up that important part of raising my child, then I will end up not having my child but someone else's who I get to visit 3 hours a night. I know that's horrible, but that's how it feels. Sigh...I'm actually in the process of interviewing a babysitting agency just for these sick days for Cole...I know if I take anymore soon I'll basically be looking at losing my job. Don't know what to do :-(

That's about enough for now...all that roiling around in my head is killing me. It doesn't help that I can't take my anti-anxiety medication. I'm trying mindfulness and breathing exercises, but I still find my mind racing around the corners of these issues and I feel pretty banged up emotionally.

Thanks for reading if you are reading...

Longing: I hope you've got your fainting thing under control. Try to eat more often if you can. I find that helps.

Where did you get your little ticker at the bottom?  I want one!:p

[fiennesite]

Here's the link:
Lilypie - Pregnancy, baby and parenting tickers.

It's a bit of a pain I found to get in the signature. First I had to paste the URL (not to block of code, just the URL of the ticker image) into my signature file, and then I needed to make the signature call the pic with a special code. Here's what mine looks like in edit mode:
Pre-Op: 343, Current: 279, Goal: 190
Roux-En-Y (laproscopic) 2/12/2008
My Gastric Bypass
StressAndRest.com- Relieve Your Stress, Change Your Life
[SIGPIC][/SIGPIC]

So after you get the target URL into the sig pic section, put those two code blocks where you want them to appear in your signature and it will tack it on.

Mine looks too pink...I shouldn't have done it that pink lol...I want a girl, but I don't really mind either way.

Thanks for the encouragement...I know I'm definitely not the only one in this situation :-)

[fiennesite]

Okay...good news...the docs scales are only 1lb over mine...always reassuring. I lost one lb of the weight I gained in the past week, so I'm hovering at:
280

She confirmed the pregnancy..always good.
Ordered all my blood work for my annual nutrition tests.

And referred me to some different OB's.

I called two sets of the OB's. The first group responded in kind of a huff that they have had post GB patients, but I didn't like their snottiness, so didn't make an appointment. Called next set, which work at a hospital near by where my GP can attend the baby, so a plus. The receptionist was friendly, it's an all female practice, and they have had several post GB clients.  So they won my vote. My first apt is set for Sept 23. Hope that's far along enough they can hear the heartbeat. It will be about 9 weeks, so I think they can. We shall see.

Eating wise: Well....last night was rough...I was tired, working on a paper, I didn't like the chicken salad I'd bought from the fancy grocery down the street (somehow southwest chicken salad sounded good), but it had too many olives in it...so I almost threw up when I tried it. ughhh...so we ordered out to celebrate hubby's first pay check. Well suffice it to say...I ate too much...retched...sigh...I hate that.

Exercise wise: I've ridden the bike two days this week already for 20 min each of the mornings. I also walked the dog twice on each day, so I'm getting about 35-40 min total exercise on the days I ride and walk the dog. I think this is doable through my pregnancy. I have a hard time exercising because I can't walk in the mornings...hubby leaves early and can't wake the kid. By the time I get home from work, make dinner, it's basically dark. So I think my most successful attempt at exercise is the stationary bike on mornings, and hopefully a long walk or two on the weekends or a swim. I'm hoping I can keep it up.

Emotional wise: well I emailed my boss that I'm pregnant and she sent NO RESPONSE...not even a congratulations. I do work for the anti-Christ. I don't know why I expected anything different. People are usually what you think they are after knowing them a little while, and they are NOT going to change. I just have to keep that in mind for the next nine months in case I don't find a new job.

School is going along well, but my professor is a tool. She marked me down on a graded response because she didn't notice my original posting date (not edit date) was well before it was due...which means she doesn't read our posts...lovely. Once again...people don't change, so I'll just accept my professor is a tool and that I have to be extra vigilant not to get screwed by her for the next few weeks.

That's it for now.
Mary

[Songbird]

That's wonderful news about finding a Dr!  I'm so sorry about your situation with work and school.  You know, what goes around comes around...so they will be treated how they treat people eventually...hopefully..ha ha!  As far as eating during the dreaded morning sickness phase....I just ate whatever didn't make me want to throw up.  Now that I'm getting over that, I can make wiser choices.  There for a while, just the thought of foods made me want to throw up on the spot!

[fiennesite]

My son had it, then hubby got it, and now I have it. I've had a cold/cough since Thursday. It totally ruined the holiday weekend for me. All I've been able to do is lay around and feel like crap.

Since I"m pregnant of course I had to go the natural remedy route...so here are my tools:
steamer w/vicks (got this for my son, since he has asthma, but it works great for me too)
Saline nasal drops- saline melts the clogged up stuff
Halls cough drops- i only have a couple of these a day
tylenol for the sinus pain.

That's about it. I want so bad to go to the mall and get Cole some new school clothes/shoes, but I feel like such crap!!

I hate being sick :(

Mary K.

[fiennesite]

I am sooooo tired this week. I've been getting over a cold since last Thursday. I'm hoping to feel better enough to get out and do something this weekend. I haven't exercised this week since I've been so wiped out.

Eating-wise I've been hit or miss...some days good, other days giving into cravings for chips and a cookie. I think my weight is right at 280, which is okay I guess...haven't lost or gained really.

At work my boss is trying to force me onto FMLA early because of my son's asthma and my upcoming maternity leave/maternity related issues. She's insane, because I found out not only is the leave unpaid, but I won't be able to work from home. This means, she's only hurting herself by forcing me to do it for Cole's absences. When he's home sick I usually work from home. I sent an email to my boss and her boss to make sure they really want that. Oh well...stupid greedy people...they deserve what they get. At the end of the day a day here and there unpaid isn't going to kill me, but if I'm not able to answer emails or work for 2-3 days straight when he's sick, they are the ones to suffer.

School is going okay..my professor gave in and gave me a better grade. I have slacked on my reading though, to the point where I'm reading what I need to participate in discussions and for papers. I can't possibly do it all in the short time I have...sigh.

My ex-husband who's in the Navy is moving closer which on one hand is better, right now we meet every other weekend and have to each drive 1.5 hours each way. That was a pain, so at least he'll live in D.C. only about 40 min away. But the downside is that I think he might try to jerk me around more on weekends, and visitation. I'm trying to make it clear to both him and my son, that unless he lives like 5 minutes down the road, there's no way we can share custody or have him regularly involved in Cole's schedule. Besides he's a personal chef to an admiral and will be largely at the whim of the Admiral, his wife, and their family. He'll also have to live near them in D.C. So just another hiccup in my life.

Week 7 has been pretty quiet baby-wise. I'm doing posts on Baby Center as well, but that's depressing because it seems like every day there is someone miscarrying. When things are so quiet in my body, I'm worried that there's even a little being in there. I have my appt 9/23 and I'll be 9 weeks. I hope they can hear the heartbeat with either the regular or vaginal ultrasound.

Is anyone going to do a 3d ultra sound? When are you going to schedule it for? I've seen 16 weeks. Hubby wants to do it.

Talk later ladies :-)
Mary K.
P.S. Anyone else getting ughh yeast infections? I thought I was just irritated, but think it's more...I know in my last pregnancy that I took over the counter medicine per my nurse midwife. Does anyone know which one is considered safe? I'm between doctors visits and really don't want to go to the doctor just for that. Also would like to clear it up before my first visit to OB.

[Songbird]

I'm so sorry about all the mess you're going through.  At 9 weeks, they would probably have to do an ultrasound to hear the baby's heart, so hopefully they will do that.  As far as the yeast infections.  Before I take anything, I would get it checked by your Dr. It could be a bacterial or some other infection.  My Dr. said that Monistat would be okay as long as it isn't the one day dose, but I would definitely ask your Dr. before you take anything.  Wishing you the very best!:D

[fiennesite]

Songbird,
I read in the Mayo Clinic book that it is okay to take the miconazole (sp) monistat type treatment as long as it was the 5-7 day one. So I'm going ahead with it. I know what it is, it's not gross, and I had one with my first pregnancy and remembered they let me treat it with over the counter. I just hate going ot the doctor before I have to...also want to get it cleared up before then..fingers crossed sigh...

[longing4thin]

Ugh- your boss does sound like a nightmare. Take the FMLA because it will protect you for now.  I used to administer leaves of absence (including maternity) and employee benefits and I think thhey may be trying to make you use up all your FMLA entitlement before you can use it when the baby comes in the spring.

What state are you in? Look into state laws that may provide you additional protections if you do exhaust your FMLA.  I live in WA and we do have some additional protections here. Also are you planning to work after the baby comes? If not don't worry about using your FMLA now.  I looked into childcare as I was trying to go back to work this spring and learned that I'd need a significant raise in salary to justify paying the expenses of working (new wardrobe, business lunches, parking etc) in addition to paying for childcare in order to not be home with our child.  Our lifestyle has changed since I've been a SAHW, but we're happy and I'm less stressed (I used to have anightmare boss myself!)

Take care of yourself! Hope your yeast infection clears up.  I'm hating the side effects of pregnancy myself, but looking forward to the pot of gold at the end of this rainbow (I figure m/s is the rain!)

HUgs-
K

[fiennesite]

Krista,
Thanks so much for the advice about FMLA. I'm trying to get them to see reason over the situation with Cole. If they force me to take unpaid leave every time he's sick, then I can't work, which is crazy. We have laptops, VPN's, and everybody I know flexes their time and works from home sometimes. We're supposed to be an evolved organization, but I just happen to work for a conservative who has never had a kid or even a boyfriend as far as I know. It's been over a week since I told her and she hasn't even mentioned it or congratulated me...she's evil.

I'm trying to figure out a way to possibly work part time after the baby is born so I can stay home with him/her, and also have more time for grad school. I don't know if it's possible though, because my hubby just started his first job in the States (he's from the UK). And it's a bit rocky because he's a full time contractor...and though he has benefits, he' is still at risk if the contract get's adjusted. I know I probably am safe with my job until next June, when I'll also be vested, which would mean even if I do leave I go with a decent amount of money...but it's hard not knowing.

I had a spat with hubby tonight. I was very tired...I still have something of a sinus infection from my cold, went to the doc and she doesn't want me to have anti-biotics...so I'm back on steam and saline...hoping it gets better. Anyways, I was upset because my husband came home from work and just complained about his job non-stop for thirty minutes, and I just lost it...I have anxiety issues, and his telling me how awful and frustrating his job is, just makes me more afraid he's going to lose it or give it up before the baby is born. With two incomes we were really going to be able to make a dent in our debts in the next few months. I just am praying things get better for him there, because I just can't handle the stress of worrying about him losing his job, me losing mine, the baby, grad school....oh lord...calgon take me away lol...

Sorry I'm ranting and whining...oh and all I've wanted to eat the past two days is JUNK FOOD!! I'm talking McDonalds and poptarts....evil stuff...I don't know what's going on with me.

The only good thing is I did ride the bike 30 min Monday and today. So hopefully that's an improvement. I am also going to go back for 4-5 sessions of therapy starting next week. I realized without my anxiety meds, the pressures of my job, my boss, the situation with my husband, and all other stuff...I need to get some good strategies from my therapist. I'm also hopefully going to work on behavior modification with her as well for the eating problems. I just sit there and try to make good decisions, and then fail.

I'm up 4lbs...sigh...I can only hope the exercise will help a little.
Thanks for reading this if you have been :-)
Mary K.

Edited by cinwa, 01 October 2010 - 06:06 PM.
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[longing4thin]

Oh Sweetie-
I completely understand.  I know my DH doesn't love his job, but he toughs it out because his salary is enough to support us both.

Are you sure you don't want to take something for your anxiety.  I'm on meds myself and did quite a bit of research, especially while TTC for 3+ years. I'm on Zoloft, which has an anxiety control aspect to it and is considered safe during pregnancy. That ane the research I've read about how bad it is for mom to be depressed during pregnancy (it can make your baby more prone to depression) I've decided to stay on meds.  I even take an occasional 1/2 Xanax when my anxiety is super out of control.

I have to tell you that since I stopped working for my own boss things have improved (at least until my miscarrige in May).
Another thing to consider is that depression is a mental health disorder that can require accommodation under the ADA. Might be worth mentioning to your boss'es boss. Can you transfer to another department? Another team in the same department? Just thoughts.

Let me know how you're holding up-
Krista

Edited by cinwa, 01 October 2010 - 06:06 PM.
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[fiennesite]

Well tomorrow I go to the doctor finally. I'm hoping at 9 weeks they will give me one type of ultrasound or another to hear the heartbeat, so prayers and fingers crossed please. We go tomorrow morning, so I'll post sometime tomorrow.

Let's see...I decided to go back into therapy until I have the baby. The stress of work, not having my medications, and life in general are too much for me, so therapy helps. Now that Miles is working, we can afford it better...so I'm going to go for 4-5 sessions weekly, then go to every other week.

Physically I've been okay, though I overdid it a bit at a Renaissance Festival last weekend...2.5 hours in the hot weather was a bit much. Had to keep sitting down and resting...sigh.

I've been having nausea, but unfortunately not at any predictable time. I feel it mostly in the afternoon after lunch...I have found two things that help...ginger ale....love the power of ginger, and Ginger flavored Altoids. You have to crunch them instead of suck them or they burn your tongue, but they do wonders for my stomach. So when I feel really bad...it's ginger ale and pretzels.

No real cravings except for my insane trip to McDonalds last week. I craved the fish filet sandwiches when I was pregnant with Cole, and I'm wondering if it's because of that DHC stuff? The fish oil is probably good, but not all the fat lol. Last time I ate them with chocolate shakes...good thing I can't tolerate shakes and ice cream much anymore...

My weight is doing okay...I'm only up a couple pounds. I'm hoping as the baby gets bigger and takes more out of what I'm eating, then less pounds will creep on. I also have been riding the bike 20-30 min three times a week, and the exercising naturally on the weekends whether it's shopping or walking around events.

Work is a pain of course. They are going to pay my FMLA days, but I have to take them for my son's intermittent asthma stuff and for the baby. I told them I don't think i need it for pre-birth issues...because I think that's just another ploy to get them to use my time. I will just call in sick if I'm sick...because we just have a sick policy.  I had to clarify that with them...so if I have a cold/flu or something I don't have to call it into FMLA. Very tricky stuff. I know they want to get rid of me. My boss already wants to start someone shadowing me...even though I'm only 9 weeks, and also said she wants to tell people I'm pregnant so it won't look unfair that I'm getting extra resources. I thought it was terrible of her to pressure me to tell people. I will tell people once I hear the heart beat, but she's so bad. I told HR also how she said she still expects me to work even when I"m on FMLA and they said they would reiterate to her that it's not a requirement. HOWEVER, of course they said it's up to me to catch up my work whenever I miss...which just means...I have to work from home no matter what and STILL count the days as FMLA. It's horrible because my two bosses prior to her in the same job allowed me flexible work arrangements. She's just a horrible person with no life, who seeks to make others miserable.

Sigh...enough of that drama...thanks for reading my plights...I'm still doing my school work, though the professor messed up my grade AGAIN, because she didn't read the time stamp on my post correctly. I'm going to file a major complaint to the dean after the class is done and I won't suffer retribution from the professor. She's terrible...

Hope all is well with everyone! Is anyone else tempted to buy baby stuff? I bought a quilt on kids.woot.com...7.00 for all cotton quilt!!! My only thing so far...but I couldn't resist. I figure if something bad happens I can give it to a friend...but nothing bad is going to happen!!
Mary K.:D

[Songbird]

I didn't know about the ginger altoids!  I'll have to try to find those!  I love ginger!  Hope all goes well tomorrow!  It always makes me breathe better after going to the Dr. and seeing for myself that everything is okay!  I go back next Thursday.  It's like Christmas everytime!  LOL!  I want to buy baby stuff so bad, but I have to wait to see if it's a boy or girl.  If it's a girl, I definitely don't need clothes!  LOL!  It feels like it's taking forever!

[longing4thin]

MAry- so sorry work is being tough on you. Not the greatest economy to deal with that kind of BS. :(

I've been really good so far with this pregnancy and not buying anything yet, but I have TONS of hand me down baby clothes.  I've completed my registry and picked the stroller I want (which my parents are going to buy as our baby gift) Plus I bought some things at the end of my last pregnancy to help me have faith that baby would make it, so I have those things around.

here is to trying to be controlled w/ spending!