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Long time Lurker's Introduction

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Hello,

 

I’ve been lurking for a while and figured I’d introduce myself.  So, hello, my name is Paula and I’m pre-op hoping for a surgery date in September 2017.  I’ll be having RNY.  My surgeon is Dr. Yenumula at Kaiser in No. California.  I’ve done extensive research on both the VSG and the RNY surgeries, and arrived at my decision to have the RNY because of preexisting GERD.  I’m terrified of the surgery and the potential complications, but I’m more terrified of not having it done and continuing on this way.  I am 5’5” with a starting weight of 246.6 and a starting BMI of 41.  I have no other comorbidities.  I do have terrible low back pain/sciatica from the additional weight.  That is the biggest reason I want to have the surgery.  I am in pain all the time, cannot sleep, sitting for long periods of time is very painful (I have a desk job) and even walking for exercise is difficult.  My doctor said having WLS and getting the extra 81 lbs. off will do wonders for resolving my back pain.  This cannot happen soon enough for me.

 

I’ve been overweight since I hit puberty.  At my highest, I was 274 lbs.  I’ve tried various programs to lose weight since the age of 16, but wasn’t successful until I joined Kaiser’s Healthy Ways program in 2001.  I was able to lose about 50 lbs. with the help of nutritional counseling, exercise and Phentermine to control my appetite.  Once I stopped the medication I gained about 20 lbs. back, but maintained a 30 lb. overall loss from my highest weight.  After I divorced my first husband in 2012, I decided it was time to really focus on losing the extra weight.  I had always been active, lifting weights, and taking Step, spin and yoga classes at the gym.  I had also used the Couch to 5K training program to start running and even completed a couple 5Ks.  I was still overweight, but was pretty fit.  So, I decided I wanted to do more running and began logging 12-15 miles per week to train for my first half marathon.  I managed to lose 55 lbs. and completed four half marathons in two years.  I was still in the overweight category, but I felt amazing.  At 183 lbs., I was the lowest weight I’d ever been as an adult and I felt like I could do anything.  Then I met the love of my life in August 2013.  I stopped running and allowed processed carbs and sugar back into my life.  I gained 64 lbs. in just over a year.  I own that 100%.  I like to joke that the size of my rear is equal to my level of happiness.  I am happy with my life.  I’m just not happy being 246.6 lbs.

 

Fast-forward to July 2016.  I had finally talked myself into WLS and asked my PCP for a referral to the bariatric program.  I must have talked myself into and out of having surgery a dozen or so times.  Once I made the choice to go forward however, I truly felt like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders (no pun intended).  My argument against the surgery was that it was taking the easy way out.  Intellectually, however, I know this is wrong.  The surgery is just a tool.  I still have to make the right decisions about what to put in my mouth and to exercise.  There isn’t anyone doing those things for me.  So, for anyone to say this is easy, that is just misinformed.  If anything, it’s harder because I will no longer be able to eat any food in any amount that I wish.  I’ll have to be disciplined like never before.  I’m okay with that.  I like rules and structure, so I feel like I’ll be successful.  This is the last time I want to lose this weight.  I’ve been battling my weight for almost 30 years and I’m ready to be at a healthy weight for the next 50 or so years.  God willing.

 

This week I have my psych appointment and then only have an EKG and labs to complete before I can meet with the case manager and get my surgery date.  I was told to lose 12 lbs. before I could proceed in the program and I have lost 16 so far and hope to continue losing up to the day of surgery.  I will be a success story.  Failure just isn’t an option.  I remember how invigorating it feels to cross the finish line of a race and I want to feel that way every day.  It may sound cliché, but I want to be healthy and fit more than I want to eat junk that is not good for me.  Here’s to a successful journey.  If you made it this far, thanks for reading and thank you for your support.  This forum seems amazing in that regard.

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Welcome Paula! It sounds like you've put a lot of thought into why you're having WLS. I hope you find the information and support you're looking for here. :)

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Welcome to TTF, Paula :) It sounds like you're in a great mental place to be doing this for yourself right now. I can totally identify with many of your struggles. Great job on losing weight in pre-op, btw. I definitely believe it's a good idea to set yourself up with some behavior expectations before the big day so you can continue with healthy eating rather than making an abrupt change, since there are lots of other abrupt changes you'll be dealing with. Looking forward to hearing how you're doing as you progress.

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Welcome Paula!  You seem to have done research on weight loss surgery and what to expect. This should make your first few months after surgery easier.  

I have never regretted having my RNY gastric bypass, except that I waited so long to get it. The surgery allowed me to become thin, healthy and much more active. 

We are here to support you. :)

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Welcome! Ahhh Phentermine. Several of us have lost on Phentermine only to regain. Surgery isn't the easy way out - there is no easy way to lose weight and keep it off. But, surgery makes it easier to lose and keep it off. Most of us were scared. Many of us went back and forth with to have/not have surgery. For me, it was the best decision I ever made. Congrats on making your decision and we are saving a seat for you on the loser's bench!

 

P.S. Your relationship with food will change in a way you will no longer want to eat the way you used to. You still might want some of your old foods but I can't think of one person here who laments that they can no longer eat 2,000+ calories in one meal. 

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The times I was on Phentermine (yes, I tried it more than once) I thought it was amazing to actually decide whether or not to eat instead of just mindlessly wolfing down as much as possible.  I really felt like I finally understood how my husband and son both could eat a few bites of even their very favorite dessert and stop when full (I know, weird, right!?!).  Unfortunately I had terrible headaches on it and whenever I went off of it I promptly gained back all plus some.

I cannot tell you how much WLS has changed my life...it is just amazing.  You have done the research, you're committed to sticking with a healthy lifestyle and you understand it's not magic.  I think you're headed for success!!

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Welcome! So glad you're not just lurking anymore!

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Welcome to Thinner Times Paula - I look forward to following you on your journey.

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18 hours ago, Fit2Fat2Fit said:

...I do have terrible low back pain/sciatica from the additional weight.  That is the biggest reason I want to have the surgery.  I am in pain all the time, cannot sleep, sitting for long periods of time is very painful (I have a desk job) and even walking for exercise is difficult.  My doctor said having WLS and getting the extra 81 lbs. off will do wonders for resolving my back pain.  This cannot happen soon enough for me....

My back pain was terrible. Now 95% better with 70 pounds down (am bigger guy). Even if I don't lose another pound this is a major major positive change in my life. Go for it!

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Thanks, all, for the warm welcome!  My mindset is pretty focused right now and I plan for it to remain that way.  After this Thursday things should move pretty quickly and I'll be in surgery before I know it.  I've read through so many of your posts and taken your advice to heart.  I'm really trying to eat as though I'm post-op already (i.e., protein first!, 64+ oz. of water daily, no sugar or white carbs, observing the 30/30 rule, small bites and chewing thoroughly).  I'm even doing full liquids a couple times a week so I can get used to it.  It's really not too bad.  I even quit drinking coffee which was very, very hard for me to do.  I didn't want to go through withdrawal from caffeine as I'm trying to recover from surgery.  That would be miserable.  I've been so angry at myself for allowing myself to gain weight again.  It's just exhausting doing this yo-yo thing.  I now know my limitations and deal breakers.  This is the last time I'll ever have to lose this weight.  I'm so inspired by all of your successes and I hope to follow in your footsteps.  Thank you! 

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Posted (edited)

12 minutes ago, Fit2Fat2Fit said:

I'm so inspired by all of your successes and I hope to follow in your footsteps.

And I am inspired reading YOUR post.  You've got this Paula!  I'm looking forward to reading your updates/posts.  Welcome to the rest of your life <3

 

Edited by TammyP

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29 minutes ago, Fit2Fat2Fit said:

Thanks, all, for the warm welcome!  My mindset is pretty focused right now and I plan for it to remain that way.  After this Thursday things should move pretty quickly and I'll be in surgery before I know it.  I've read through so many of your posts and taken your advice to heart.  I'm really trying to eat as though I'm post-op already (i.e., protein first!, 64+ oz. of water daily, no sugar or white carbs, observing the 30/30 rule, small bites and chewing thoroughly).  I'm even doing full liquids a couple times a week so I can get used to it.  It's really not too bad.  I even quit drinking coffee which was very, very hard for me to do.  I didn't want to go through withdrawal from caffeine as I'm trying to recover from surgery.  That would be miserable.  I've been so angry at myself for allowing myself to gain weight again.  It's just exhausting doing this yo-yo thing.  I now know my limitations and deal breakers.  This is the last time I'll ever have to lose this weight.  I'm so inspired by all of your successes and I hope to follow in your footsteps.  Thank you! 

You are on it! Good for for making the changes you have! 

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You are so on top of it! I know you'll be a success!

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1 hour ago, Fit2Fat2Fit said:

Thanks, all, for the warm welcome!  My mindset is pretty focused right now and I plan for it to remain that way.  After this Thursday things should move pretty quickly and I'll be in surgery before I know it.  I've read through so many of your posts and taken your advice to heart.  I'm really trying to eat as though I'm post-op already (i.e., protein first!, 64+ oz. of water daily, no sugar or white carbs, observing the 30/30 rule, small bites and chewing thoroughly).  I'm even doing full liquids a couple times a week so I can get used to it.  It's really not too bad.  I even quit drinking coffee which was very, very hard for me to do.  I didn't want to go through withdrawal from caffeine as I'm trying to recover from surgery.  That would be miserable.  I've been so angry at myself for allowing myself to gain weight again.  It's just exhausting doing this yo-yo thing.  I now know my limitations and deal breakers.  This is the last time I'll ever have to lose this weight.  I'm so inspired by all of your successes and I hope to follow in your footsteps.  Thank you! 

You have a great plan and the right approach for weight loss surgery. :) 

I too was tired of being overweight and tired of yoyo dieting.  I do not miss any foods, since I can eat them in moderation now that I am in maintenance and, more since I ate more than enough pizza, hamburgers, fries, onion rings, and ice cream in my youth to satisfy me for a lifetime. :D

Obviously, there is lots of inspiration to be found here - I find it on a daily basis. 

When I was in the first few months after my gastric bypass surgery, this was my go to video when I need to be inspired and remember the transformative effects of weight loss surgery:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pR5US9XTpxc

We are here to support you.  Remember, failure is not an option.

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Welcome !  Good luck!  Surgery day will be here in no time!  

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Posted (edited)

Hello!  I had my psych evaluation yesterday and it was fine.  I was a little worked up because I didn't know what to expect, but it was a waste of my energy.  I had to fill out a questionnaire and then the doctor just went over my answers.  Took about 30 minutes. Next step is to complete labs/EKG then I get to meet with the case manager to schedule my date.  I was told they are scheduling surgeries for mid-August so my choice of a September 11 surgery date is guaranteed to be available.  Yay!  I can now visualize all of this.

Edited by Fit2Fat2Fit
Felt like I was being whiny

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On 7/25/2017 at 1:26 PM, Fit2Fat2Fit said:

Thanks, all, for the warm welcome!  My mindset is pretty focused right now and I plan for it to remain that way.  After this Thursday things should move pretty quickly and I'll be in surgery before I know it.  I've read through so many of your posts and taken your advice to heart.  I'm really trying to eat as though I'm post-op already (i.e., protein first!, 64+ oz. of water daily, no sugar or white carbs, observing the 30/30 rule, small bites and chewing thoroughly).  I'm even doing full liquids a couple times a week so I can get used to it.  It's really not too bad.  I even quit drinking coffee which was very, very hard for me to do.  I didn't want to go through withdrawal from caffeine as I'm trying to recover from surgery.  That would be miserable.  I've been so angry at myself for allowing myself to gain weight again.  It's just exhausting doing this yo-yo thing.  I now know my limitations and deal breakers.  This is the last time I'll ever have to lose this weight.  I'm so inspired by all of your successes and I hope to follow in your footsteps.  Thank you! 

Welcome @Fit2Fat2Fit! Please don't be angry at yourself for gaining weight. Every single person on this forum knows what it is like to lose and gain. Many times the weight gain is out of our control. Please be kind to yourself as this is a long journey. There is no point in being angry. You are taking positive steps to change your life. Huzzah!! 

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