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swtsalvadorean · 10-23-2009, 04:08 PM

I had surgery september 17th... since then there has been nothing but complications!

Im sorry this is going to sound like a nasty complainy thread but really I have no one else to share it with so unfortunately T-T is the only place I feel comfortable enough to vent!

I feel like I made a mistake by having this surgery at age 25... I have so much left to live and to think about living the rest of my life on pins and needles is not a fun way to live.
before surgery I was a vivid and lively person now all I could think about is whats next! Ive been in and out of the hospital due to dehydration and vomiting. I have literally spent the last month in the hospital. I havent been able to return to work or even start my journey and even though I've lost almost 47 pounds In less than a month I dont even feel excited about it! I so regret doing this to myself! I feel like I should have tried harder on my own!

I've had every test done that you could imagine and they even removed my gallbladder while I was in the hospital but the still cant find a reason for my vomiting...I am so scared that I'll have to live the rest of my life like this. Again Im only 25!

I know Im still early out and Im trying to be positive but its so difficult since this surgery has taken so much from me!

I cant wait to feel normal again and I fear that may not come!

again sorry for being complainy just felt I needed to VENT!!! and breathe!

swtsalvadorean · 10-23-2009, 04:10 PM

I forgot to mention they have me on a damn PICC line at home.... I have to carry this 20 pound bag around with me all the freaken time! its a pain in the butt... right now its the only thing keeping me out of the hospital!!

FatButNotHappy · 10-23-2009, 04:46 PM

I am so sorry you are having such a terrible time. That really sucks.
Have you ever felt good? Was there a time where you were fine or have you literally been sick ever since the surgery?

I hope they find out what is wrong soon.

kantonucci · 10-23-2009, 05:00 PM

Sorry to hear about your complications.

I am pre-op and these are the things I am trying to learn about prior to surgery.

I really hope you feel well soon.

mommato6 · 10-23-2009, 05:04 PM

Oh Linds, I am so sorry!!!! I hate to say this, but what you are dealing with is what I fear so much. It isn't reversible so if it doesn't go right then you must be wondering what now!!
I am SO very sorry, I wish I could say something helpful, I hope there are people here who have had a similar situation and it resolved it's self and they are fine now and can encourage you!!!
HUGE HUGS

mistymee · 10-23-2009, 05:20 PM

It is completely understandable how you're feeling regretful right now. Hopefully they will find the source of your problems and you can start to feel better.

Have you had a second opinion with another doctor, yet? I hope so. {{hugs}}

jenn75 · 10-23-2009, 08:06 PM

I don't blame you one bit for feeling the way you feel, and you shouldn't be ashamed or feel like you're just complaining. You've been sick and it just hasn't gone the way you thought it would, and that's normal to feel all kinds of negative feelings. What I wanted to say is that I hope you are able to go to a support group, or even better, counseling. This is something that's necessary for everyone...even those of us who haven't had any complications thus far, so I'd imagine how much more important it is for you at this time to be talking to someone about your emotions and fears based on your progress and complications so far.

I wish you the best for a speedy recovery from these issues!

LoriAnn925 · 10-23-2009, 08:11 PM

Sorry to hear about your problems. I hope they figure out what's causing everything and get you on the road to recovery.

noholes · 10-23-2009, 08:20 PM

I know you are scared and the dragging around a picc line is a pain, but- that thing will make it so you start to heal. Now, with the pic- are they allowing you to eat anything by mouth? I was kept away from anything by mouth(not even any water) so if there was a leak, it would not have any "other things" entering the space and messing up the healing process. Next question: if you are not eating, do you still vomit with the picc? If you do, then they should be giving you some type of anti-spasmodic med because the vomiting can cause other problems.
You can get over this and it will get better. I know its not a perfect situation righ tnow, but it will get better,
Any H

hollycerniglia · 10-23-2009, 09:27 PM

I hope you feel better soon. I'm so sorry you have had such bad luck.