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Highlandlass · 10-23-2009, 09:43 PM

I'm really sorry to hear that your experience has been so sour. No wonder you are regretting your decision right now. As hard as it might be, try to keep positive energy running through you and look to the day when you will feel more normal. My heart goes out to you and I hope for a quick change in your health. (((hugs)))

jerseygrl684 · 10-23-2009, 10:03 PM

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Originally Posted by swtsalvadorean

I had surgery september 17th... since then there has been nothing but complications!

Im sorry this is going to sound like a nasty complainy thread but really I have no one else to share it with so unfortunately T-T is the only place I feel comfortable enough to vent!

I feel like I made a mistake by having this surgery at age 25... I have so much left to live and to think about living the rest of my life on pins and needles is not a fun way to live.
before surgery I was a vivid and lively person now all I could think about is whats next! Ive been in and out of the hospital due to dehydration and vomiting. I have literally spent the last month in the hospital. I havent been able to return to work or even start my journey and even though I've lost almost 47 pounds In less than a month I dont even feel excited about it! I so regret doing this to myself! I feel like I should have tried harder on my own!

I've had every test done that you could imagine and they even removed my gallbladder while I was in the hospital but the still cant find a reason for my vomiting...I am so scared that I'll have to live the rest of my life like this. Again Im only 25!

I know Im still early out and Im trying to be positive but its so difficult since this surgery has taken so much from me!

I cant wait to feel normal again and I fear that may not come!

again sorry for being complainy just felt I needed to VENT!!! and breathe!

If you need some insight, read some of my posts... I understand completely where you are coming from. Instead of the 24 hr picc hookup with the TPN, can they just do a 12 hr one... I did mine from 8p-8a... or 10p-10a.. I also invested in a HUGE tote thing from Forever 21, i would go out with my friends at the time and put the bag in there.. it was sturdy enough and I got to feel normal every so often

http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_B6J6nGs6VwA/SXXsqj38CaI/AAAAAAAAO8A/7h_E46DD6gg/s400/Nautical+stripes+hobo+$1480+at+forever21com.jpg

But really, reach out to me or read my stuff. I knew/know what you are going through, but I hope and promise for the both of us that on our 30th birthdays we are gonna sit back and laugh at the memories of the hospitals and times past.

pricklypear · 10-24-2009, 03:25 AM

i know how you feel. i'm 25 too and had the surgery, and i spent a little over 2 weeks the first month in the hospital. they eventually found i had a stitch in my new pouch that has caused a pretty large and deep ulcer. i'm just now getting my energy back, but was pretty depressed. still on pureed food. i had surgery just a few days before you. the TPN will help a lot - and you will eventually start to feel more like yourself.
i hope they figure out what is wrong soon. it seems like once they figure out what is wrong, they can work pretty quickly to correct it. jersey has some great ideas and i bet she would be a good source of support for you as well. take care.

blevy · 10-24-2009, 11:06 AM

Awww one of my surgery sisters is not feeling good!!! I really hope things get better for you!!! Don't forget I'm here if you need to vent!!!!

BibiH · 10-24-2009, 11:44 AM

Hi there,

I am really sorry to hear you are having such a hard time of it. Hope that the doc's work out what is wrong soon so you can start enjoying those 47 lbs you have already lost!

Life will be good again. Hang in there!

swtsalvadorean · 10-28-2009, 10:05 PM

sorry for the delayed responses....

first off I'd like to thank everyone who responded with support, it is greatly appreciated!

Mistymee, I have had a gastroentronologist (sp) do an endoscopy thats as far as a second opinion goes because of my insurance network! he said I have a narrowing of the anastomosis and that he suggests dilation however my surgeon is hesitant to do so becuase he feels it will defeat the purpose of surgery!

Noholes, I have started taking things by mouth and it has'nt been pretty... Its so hard to keep anything down and the amount of food I am eating is far from enough to sustain me for a whole day! plus more than half the time I feel so much nausea I have no desire to eat!

Jerseygirl, Thank you so much for offering support .... and I really hope that your right!!! by our 30ths well look back and laugh at this! the bag Idea is great I didnt think about that instead of this ugly black backpack... everyone stares to try to figure out what the hell it is!
the pharmacist just called me today to tell me their sending a 12 hour pump... I am happy about that! but by the looks of it, it might be a couple more weeks before I come off this thing!

Anyways thanks to everyone for your responses.... I truly felt guilty for feeling regretful about such a "wonderful gift" I guess I was just that one in a couple thousand with complications!

I know things will get better, at least I am hopeful they will! like I said before I just want to feel normal, and I hope it comes soon!

FatButNotHappy · 10-28-2009, 10:10 PM

Hi there. i was hoping you were going to say you were HEALED and doing great.

My mom had the same problem as you are talking about right after she had surgery...and her surgeon didnt want to do the dialation either. his reasoning was because he wasnt certified to do it in Ohio yet--he was waiting to get some accreditation or something from Pennsylvania. ANYWAY, his delay just made my mom soooo much worse. I think you should demand that they do it. Even if it "defeats" the purpose of surgery, at least you would be able to get some food down and FEEL better. MAKE them do it.

Keep in mind, I am preop and only am speaking from my experience with my mom and her complications. I really dont know very much.

swtsalvadorean · 10-28-2009, 10:25 PM

i know i hate that he is so hesitant!!!! i guess that i should have mentioned he also didnt want to do it cause i wasnt six weeks yet!

VALLEYGIRL · 10-29-2009, 12:16 AM

I hate to hear you feel so bad, but i was about to think i was the only one who still felt terrible and wished i had never done this. I am 7 wks out from rny and was diagnosed with an ulcer in post op week 4. I take the meds they give me, but every bite i eat makes me nauseous. I am back at work, but its difficlut when you are always sick and weak from not eating. I too wonder if i will ever feel lgood again? I feel quilty for complaining and don't join in threads much, because everyone else seems so positive and happy. I will keep you in my prayers, and know there is someone else out here who understands!!!!!

swtsalvadorean · 10-29-2009, 01:21 AM

Thank u I will do the same for you!!!

I can't imagine being at work feeling this sick!