izanmanyzanz

Well, plans are made to be broken right!!! Well we started our celebration on the 4th with plans to have in roll into the 5th with a huge party for my daughter and nephews birthday and our anniversary. Now for the list of things to go wrong:

1. No one in family can make it, as most live out of state and funds for gas are way to little.

2. My nieces in California call, crying hysterically that their grandmother they just met last year, has gone stark raving mad and has lost control breaking and tearing up things in the house. They are scared and want to come back home. (NOTE TO YOU GRANDMOTHER, if that is what you want to call yourself. I know you come on here and I want you to know that those girls will always be my concern and I will butt into their lives when and where I see fit, especially when they are being mentally abused by you.)

3. After argueing with said Grandmother, I preceded to try to calm down and stop shaking. Where did I turn to, my damn addiction to food. We were bar b queing. I ate three bites of a hot dog, was not thinking and did not chew as I should have.

Now number 3 is why they tell us to eat slowly, be aware of what you are eating and why and to take your time and chew correctly. To pay attention to your food and not to get caught up in the conversation or distractions.

I ate about 5 pm. At 11 pm could not take in a breath without thinking I was dying for sure. The pain in my right upper abdomin was unbearable. Thinking it was my gallbladder, decided I better quit thinking about money and get my ass to the ER. Well here comes the fun part. I was bent over in pain could not stand up straight. I have to precede to drive my self to ER as my husband and BIL are drunk beyond belief. They are falling up the stairs and off the seats of the picnic table. I am dying, I thought. My husband thinks he can drive me to the ER five blocks down the street. Yea right, I only felt as though I was dying, did not really want to die with him driving. So to drive the 5 blocks it took me 15 minutes. There is not a damn parking space in site so have to park in lot across from hospital and walk a half block. People thought I had been stabbed. I felt like I had been stabbed. Laying on counter, sign in ER and told I have to wait. Now I understand that their are people alot more serious than me, but damn couldnt you bring me some drugs or something. Shit I am puking in your trash can, I am dying. Finally you call me to triage. What kind of shit is triage when you are screaming in pain and cant answer a damn question. You take me to room, get a line going, take my blood and leave me screaming. Med student comes in, asks same damn question, how long have you been hurting? Why does this matter? Give me some damn pain killers and something for naseau now. Oh I am sorry, she says, I have the wrong form, exits to never return. In comes DR 15 minutes later, same questions. Still no meds. In comes xray tech, wait a damn minute, how do you expect me to move from bed to bed and stand up for a freaking xray when I am dying here. Where are the meds? Oh I will just take you and we will be back in a few minutes, I can't seem to find your nurse. HELLO, I am dying here. Hyperventilating and shit. So off to the xray. Finished and here I am back in this room I am dying here people. Give me some drugs now. I ring the nurse again, I want something for pain now and something to stop dry heaving all over. I will tell your nurse. 30 minutes later and in he comes. I am sorry I was busy and did not have a chance to look at your orders. Let me go take a look.
Ok Izan, stop, focus on your breathing you can get through this. You have been through Kidney stones 3 times you can handle this.
Then, it happened. As fast as my pain came on, it went away. You are probably thinking she finally got her drugs. No!!!!! Well not for another 15 minutes at least. Then came the dilaten?? and reglan. Now I feel better for sure. Now 1 1/2 hours later in comes the DR. How are you feeling? He precedes to sit down and carry on a 30 minute conversation on GBS. UH HELLO< I have had the surgery already, and I know all about it. Then he tells me it looks like I must have gotten something stuck in the hole of my stomach that caused it to block up and start swelling. Needless to say, damn hot dog. The bbq beans I had, blocked, the protein, blocked, the vitamin for the evening blocked, the sf cool whip and strawberry, blocked. All blocked and swelling in Mrs Thumbkin. She was screaming for me to stop drinking water. Well I guess I dont know it all. It had passed, and I feel better. I am really sore on my left side and some on the right, but I am alive and feeling better.
Never argue with someone and turn to your addiction. It will not work out for the best. Official ER report states Gastric Bypass dysfunction. What ever that means, oh well I fell better.
Thanks for listening to my rant and rave. I think I will go back to bed now. I hope you all had a fantastic 4th of July.

RebeccaNV

Mine was mild compared to yours. I'm glad that you are feeling better. So, what is up with this grandma? Where are the nieces now?

Rebecca

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izanmanyzanz

thanks for replying rebecca. The nieces and the grandmother are in California right now. Hopefully they will come home soon. I hate to hear them cry.

SweetSouthern

I've had episodes like you talk about and I have a major problem tolerating solids, so I have to eat when I'm alone or in a quiet place. If I eat in a restaurant or around a group of family members where the environment is really busy, I have them trained to not talk to me or expect me to respond while I am eating. I tone them all out and focus. They must think I'm a freak, but I really don't care. Eating is a chore for me and I have had this pain you describe TOO many times to do otherwise anymore. It's just how I have to eat now and I am used to it. I don't try to eat when I'm upset either, (guess that's a good thing so I can't turn to food in emotional crisis) because I get this feeling too as if my pouch is in a knot and it contricts down on the food and gives me this pain also. I have wanted to go to the ER a few times, but knew there was nothing they could do and I'd just end up more miserable through it all than I did at home, so I ride it out. I'm sorry you had such a horribel time. It is NOT fun to have this kind of pain. I'm happy you are feeling better.

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izanmanyzanz

thanks trina/ The only reason I went to the ER was that I was positive it was my gallbladder. I have had the feeling of something stuck before but it has always been in the middle or the left side, never the right side. I guess I will know if it ever happens again. God I hope not. I have always tried to pay attention and be diligent about my surroundings and conversation while eating but this time it got the best of me. My nut says it is so important to be distraction free while eating. I now understand with a great deal more respect than before.

Phoenixfire

Izzybear,
Unfortunately I know a grandma like that. And I have a daughter that's been at her mercy in the past. It was HELL, and I feel for you sooooooo much. That she comes on here and reads is such an f'ed up thing to deal with. I'd encourage you to use the PM option to make the most out of the site and keep her self-righteous crazy eyes out of your business.

You learned one of those dang lessons the hard way and it was a nightmare I wouldn't wish on anyone. I'm so sorry to hear that. But hey, look on the bright side: YOU'LL NEVER MAKE THAT MISTAKE AGAIN right? Right!

I'm glad it wasn't something more serious (gallbladder needing surgery) and I hope that your pain is quickly diminished. The emotional eating is one that is a bitch to deal with, and it sounds like you've become very very familiar with the outcome of choosing that option eh?

My heart aches for you, for the grandmonster (that's what I call my mother) and for the painful lessons postop.

I'm sorry to hear of your struggles, and hope that something intervenes to make your girls stop crying. It can happen. I made it happen for us, and it wasn't easy, but it did happen. I'm going to believe it will happen for you, and I hope you believe it will for you too.

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izanmanyzanz

I guess the saddest thing is for my SIL. She found her mother again after many many years. Her mother came to Colorado, visited for a week, and talked her into going to California with her. Said she would take care of her and the kids, help them lose weight and be there for them. Well it is anything but that now. The mother/grandmother said if they moved out there, that my SIL wouldn't have to work and she would make sure she got well with all her health problems. The mother now insists on them paying well over their share of things, and says they are not going anywhere when they mention leaving. Yes, my SIL got gbs, yes she is doing fab with her weight loss, but my nieces are still the same, and my SIL still has many problems health wise also. They have to worry every single day, what eggshell not to step on this minute because she exploded on the last one. The mother/grandmother has had gbs too and has done great, in fact she referred me to this site. But it seems she has many more demons to deal with than the weight she had put on and has now taken off. I just wish I could make it better for the girls. They don't deserve to be treated the way they are right now. They have been through alot in their lives and this just seems like the topping on the cake, and to boot from your own blood relative.

Godsblessedme

wow Izzy what a weekend! i'm sorry you struggled and ran to food, i agree with phxfire you wont do that again right? we live and we learn. We're not perfect. Even those that "think" they are just because they've "been down that road before" Whew glad that it was nothing more than what sounds like a small blockage and then swelling up now keep up the fluids and try to just do fluids at least all day today girl

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izanmanyzanz

Oh yea, I am definitely back to paying attention while eating. The sad part is they ran 3 bags of fluid one with sodium two with sugar and I have gained another damn 5 pounds from it. I know it will come off as it was just fluid but depressing to say the least.

LyndasRoom

Izzy,
It is indeed a wild ride, and we never know wht turns it will take. Glad this episode is over for now. I hope you had a relaxing Sunday.

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