North Carloina Fires and sad events...
Ok so, I live in VA and the smoke from the wildfires in North Carolina is about to kill me... GOD, Please give us (and them) a good 2 day constant down pour! I can't even imagine how the people who live in the immediiate vincinity are dealing with it. The burning eyes, the headaches, the constant sneezing and counghing... I'm getting really over it...
While I am bitching and complaining about the smoke, I got some very sobering news today... My co-worker's sister just passed away. What make this so sad is that she had brain cancer it went in remission and her and her hubby wanted a family. FINALLY she got pregnant, only to have it end too soon and she delivered a very preemie baby girl, on the side of the road in route to the hospital... flash forward 2 years the baby girl is thriving wonderful big and beautiful... no lasting effects from her prematurity, a true miracle (in fact they named her Miracle)! To top it all off she is going to be a big sister! Her baby brother was born about 6 months ago, also premature, after a 3 month hospital stay he is now home and thriving following in his big sisters footsteps. Well, during her pregnancy they found that the tumor had come back and being that she was pregnant there was nothing that could be done that would not compromise the pregnancy. Which was out of the question for her, she would not put herself before her child. After the delivery of her son she was told the tumor was inoperable and quickly spreading... Sadly she passed away last night, leaving a devastated husband and two small children who will never get a chance to know their mother. Everytime I think of those poor babies without there mama I cry. I didn't even know her but felt like I did when I would talk with my co-worker about her, and being the mother of a "micro preemie" myself I could totally relate to her and what she went through to ensure those babies had the best shot at life. In the end she sacrificed herself for her babies. I have so much admiration for her and sympathy for the ones who lost her. She fought the good fight and in the end she lost but with dignity and grace. It dosen't seem fair... Here I am having an elective surgery so I can be healthy and can enjoy my son and be the kind of mom that he deserves and then I think of these 2 little babies that don't have a mama anymore becaue of a cruel turn of events that were beyond her control, and I am going under the knife electivly??? WTF am I thinking??? Rationally I know that this is going to make me healthy and active and in the long run a better mom becaue I will be able to do things with my son that to date I have not been able to do. God willing I will come out of this with little to no complications, but I worry about would happen to my son if I don't wake up? I am all he has, since his father is not in his life. I'd be lying if I said part of the whole thing was not sheer vanity. I do want to look better, but mostly I want to feel better... I justify that I am doing this for my health and my son, but if (God forbid) I am taken away from my son and this world it will because I elected to have this surgery. This woman was taken away from her babies becase she chose to give her little one life instead of treating her cancer sooner... I am so down. I admire and respect this woman so much, and my heart goes out to all her loved one and those precious little miracles, and I feel selfish for asking for prayers for my self that I will come out of this safely
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My baby boy, OUTSIDE in his Elmo undies! OY!!! 
~Rachael~
"I like PINK! Pink is my signature color!"
Lap RNY 7/9/08
Highest/ Current/ Surgeon's Goal/MY Goal
287/222/175-180/150 or less
!!!! 72lbs to go till goal!!!
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