New Christmas Perspective - ThinnerTimes

fisher1000 · 12-24-2007, 08:59 PM

My new Christmas perspective isn't really directly related to GBS...more related to our 10 month old, but anyway...this is what's on my mind tonight:

We are visiting family in NC and as I'm sitting here on the computer, my daughter is fast asleep in the next room. I'm sure the visions dancing in her head are far from sugarplums, more likely they have to do with tissue paper, Cheerios, and Dora the Explorer.

The surgery has made me much more pensive and I find that I get lost in thought so easily now. I've stopped considering the "what ifs" and am now enjoying the "what's next." My next upcoming thing is tomorrow, and I feel like I've spent my whole life getting to it. I've always loved Christmas...the whole season and everything associated with it. I love giving gifts and I enjoy seeing the smiles when you surprise someone special with just the right thing!

But never in my life have I been in the position of giving "Christmas" to someone. It's a completely different feeling than giving a gift. I'm about to give a lifetime of meaning and memories, and begin a seasonal path that will hopefully lead to a life spent being kind, caring, conscientious, and giving. I feel a little overwhelmed and emotional that I am getting ready to pass on to my child one of the things I've loved the most about life: Christmas.

Without the surgery, I think my time to share in this joy would have been borrowed, but now I feel a renewed sense of hope for a bright future...full of longevity and memories waiting to be created.

I hope you don't mind me sharing...I know this is all mushy, but I'm just feeling introspective, and more excited about Christmas than I think I've ever been.

Tonight's the night that I become Santa.

-Mike

PS...I hope you all have a wonderful holiday!

I'm attaching a picture that we took tonight at the Christmas service at my parent's church. In the picture are my Mom and Dad, as well as me, Liz, and Lily.

Toony · 12-24-2007, 09:07 PM

Dear Santa,

I know you're gonna be fantastic at your new job! You have the true spirit of giving and of Christmas. Your daughter - and your future children (hint-hint) are lucky to have a Santa with such a big and loving heart! You're doing your parents proud as you emulate your own childhood... attending to all the tiny details to make beautiful memories for your family!

I'm proud of you too... and so glad we've become such good friends!!!

katie

Lu Lu · 12-24-2007, 11:43 PM

Mike...

My little guy was 4 months at Christmas time last year. It was fun and special... but this year it was all the more. He is 16 months now and he was a little into the unwrapping of the gifts... but more so he was into all the family and action and wanted our undivided attention. My husband and I did not have a lot of money to spend on gifts for him this year. We decided to buy him a thomas the train tent. He was ecstatic when we set it up for him today. It was the most awesome feeling to see him so excited over it. He squeeled and loved every minute in it. It was so fun seeing him play in it. It was $20 and worth every penny. I put it away and am going to bring it out again tomorrow so the newness does not wear off too fast.

It is so awesome to be able to be a child through your own children again at Christmas.

Having read many of your posts... you sound like a true family man! Your wife and daughter are going to benefit so much from this change with your physical self. I cannot wait to be the Mom and wife I want to be to my husband and son. They mean the world to me and I want to be the very best I can to them... I can totally relate to you wanting to pass on the whole Christmas "feeling"!

Thanks for sharing your post!!

Merry Christmas Santa

Enjoy your two sweeties this Christmas!!