i need to vent....:( - ThinnerTimes

ready4change · 07-21-2007, 09:19 PM

hi everyone... i just need to vent a bit...
its been over a year now since my bf and i broke up, and i miss him so much, just cant get over him..... we were together for a year and 7 months, however it was a bit of a long distance relationship, but it was so great.... we talked in the morning, at night before bed.... we knew what we were doing at all times, sent gifts to each other and he sent me flowers, and i just felt so complete... when something bad or good would happen he would be the first i would talk to about it.... i went to visit him in NY for a week and it was so great, then a month and half after i came back we broke up... he couldnt handle the relationship at that time, he was looking for a job, starting his career, had very low self esteem.. etc... anyways, he didnt feel the same way about me as i did.( i think my weight had a lot to do with this) he wanted to stay friends but i told him that i dont even want to talk to him because i knew it would be ver difficult for me, i was so hurt.... and it was a night mare, after talking to him every single day i was down to nothing..... time went on, and we did ended up talking once in a while.... and when we would talk he sounds like nothing ever happen ( i mean the break up) and its just so painful.... he would dissapear out of my life for a month or two, i would start feeling better and feel like i am moving on and he come back into my life..... ah.... i am just so sad right now..... i keep telling myself that i dont need him and that there are plenty of other guys... but i cant tell my heart that...

thank you for listening... i needed to share it with someone

LyndasRoom · 07-21-2007, 10:48 PM

I'm so sorry your heart is hurting {{{Nikki}}}

ready4change · 07-21-2007, 10:50 PM

thank you Lynda,
some days its better some days its worse you know... i dont want to feel this way but cant get it out of my system

LyndasRoom · 07-21-2007, 10:57 PM

I know, hon, but you're so young (sorry, it's true). Your surgery is coming up in just 3 short weeks. Your life is about to go through some amazing changes, both physical and emotional. A whole world is about to open up to you. You'll have such confidence you'll positively glow. Do you have a good support system for when you're going through this? besides here? You never know what will happen. I do know what you mean about getting it out of your system...it's so hard.

ready4change · 07-21-2007, 11:04 PM

thanks Lynda, i really appreciate you being here

well i decided not to tell anyone about my wls surgery besides my bro, sis in law and my mom. (mybro had wls a year ago) so yes, and they will be in the hospital with me , I also attend local support group here, and i love it. Since i am not telling people about my surgery its good to go there and here, and talk about it with others.

as for my ex... in the back of my head i know that he is not right for me, there were few reasons, but just cant get over it... i mean i know it takes time... but its been over a year... frustrating....

i do agree that i have this big change in my life comming up, hopefully i will have enough patience and not to get frustrated that i am not loosing weight fast enough...

jessicaQT · 07-21-2007, 11:17 PM

I'm so sorry you hurting. <<<<<<BIG HUG>>>>>>>

Blueyz · 07-22-2007, 12:10 AM

I am sending cyber hugs to you. I don't have any sound advice, but I do have hugs and support for you. I hope things get better for you. You deserve happiness and I know from past experience that there is a Prince charming out there for everyone. It took me awhile to find mine.

Love and hugs to you.