Hey all, sooo as far as pain goes I’m almost to 100% better. The only thing really bothering me is the right side where they pulled my stomach out But everything else is good! Which I’m so happy to say because I was pretty miserable!!! As far as the diet goes, I’m still really having a HARD time. Just liquids is killing me.... I can’t wait until next Thursday when I start puréed/soft foods. A LOT of the time I feel like giving up but I know I can’t... I don’t even take it day by day, it’s more like minute by minute.... I was a snacker, so imagine that. And also I feel like now the liquids aren’t filling me up, I constantly feel hungry.... I thought that this would help me not feel hungry like everyone I know who got it... but I guess for me it’s different which is making this 10x harder.
I cried in the bathroom today. 3rd time since the surgery. I feel like I jumped into this too soon and wasn’t ready. I also feel like I made myself believe I was doing this for the right reasons , but I just did it for the wrong ones... I also feeel like as soon as we can go to a regular diet and my stomach is fully healed in 4 months like surgeon said, I am going to go back to my old ways and this would have been for nothing... idk. I’m all emotional right now
Lastly, I been looking for a therapist to help me through this. I live in San Diego California if anyone can recommend someone?
Once again, thanks for listening. This is the only place I feel I can be honest