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    St. Mary's
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    Gastric Bypass
  1. Wow, what an amazing trip! It is inspiring to hear about your successes when I'm just 9 days post op and trying to think through a day of meals when I go back to work or eating out for the first time. From reading on your blog I can tell you are an experienced traveler, but I think you are very courageous to go on a such a long trip, so far away, with so many unknowns. And then to lose weight on top of all that?! Thank you for sharing it here - beautiful pictures!
  2. Sounds like I'm going to have to carve out some time...
  3. The chocolate egg white protein conjures up images of Easter basket goodies!
  4. I know what you mean - since I've been on these 5-6 small meals, sometimes in the evening I'll find myself thinking, "it's been awhile since I've had anything to eat, maybe I should get something" even though it's not time and I'm not hungry. I think I just always acted on all those impulses before. Stocking up on cheese sticks and sf popsicles for when I'm actually hungry in the evening in the future. I had an umbilical hernia. I think I would be completely pain-free at this point if it wasn't for that part of the surgery, but I'm glad to have it repaired so I can gradually add back more types of physical activity once it is completely healed.
  5. Thank you - I've not tried Carbsmart so I will check it out. I was actually using Fairlife and forgot that it was lactose-free. My issues were probably related more to it being the first day off clears and getting a little too much foam on top...now I'm a foam-free pro!
  6. Yes, my stomach was pretty rumbly the first day I started protein shakes. I used regular milk that day so it could be a lactose issue or just too much air in the shakes or just early on in the process. I'm getting better at it as the days go by. I thought the protein powder would settle more if I didn't drink it right away, but I've been making them a bit in advance and it mixes back in well with a little stir, then I skim a little foam off the top and I'm good to go.
  7. Thank you @delilas I'm really feeling great. Ventured out to the store today for more supplies and supplements so that felt good. Less pain meds, getting protein and water in without an issue so far. My dr's plan requires full liquids the second week, so I'm having soups, yogurt, etc. in addition to protein drinks. I try to avoid artificial sweeteners so I was a little worried about the protein drinks but I came up with a recipe that is working just fine for me. 2 oz unflavored kefir, 2 oz unsweetened almond milk, 2 t PB2 and a scoop of unflavored Unjury. That was a big relief to figure out. Tomorrow I see my PCP and then my surgeon the next day. The only thing I'm at all concerned about is if all is well with the hernia repair. I'm super aware of it when I'm walking and so I just want to hear that that's all normal and that I haven't overdone it or anything like that. Fingers crossed!
  8. Thank you, @BurgundyBoy. The patient booklet from my doctor's office has a reflection page in it to use to plan what I will do the first time I'm faced with a situation that I would have dealt with previously by eating emotionally. So far the list consists of going for a walk or a sf popsicle (not!). Hopefully my list of strategies will expand.
  9. I'm required to take the calcium citrate in 3 doses of 500 mg each spread out throughout the day. Is all at once an option for yours? Wondering if there is a cap on how much calcium can be processed at one time.
  10. Thanks @nestingdoll - that hadn't occurred to me until after your post.
  11. Any tips on how to make protein shakes that are well-blended but have minimal foam/air bubbles on top?
  12. Deciding to undergo WLS is one of the biggest decisions I'll ever make in my lifetime. The mental journey that accompanies this process is so very interesting. I'm finding that it is not just about the food choices; it is a deeply personal experience that creates the need for much self-reflection in order to have the maximum chance for long-term success. Here are some things I've uncovered about myself in just a few short months (I am lucky in that my insurance situation is such that once I was motivated enough to go to an information meeting, following the steps made this a relatively short process, compared to what I've read that others have had to endure...feeling very fortunate on this). I have spent a large part of my adult life utilizing socially acceptable constructs to allow me to hyper-focus on food. I have been a vegetarian, not a vegetarian, cookbook collector, a food politics advocate (say no to GMOs!), a CSA (community sustained agriculture) participant, a farmers market faithful, pinterest recipe queen (having categories as specific as Scones), a foodie, a canner, and the family member who loves to host big family gatherings and express my "love" in the form of massive, delicious meals that people couldn't stop raving about or eating. My identity, aside from my profession, has been almost completely wrapped up in food. While it seems very obvious now, I never realized I was doing that until now. While my aforementioned best friend, Food, and I were keeping ourselves busy, I was at the same time isolating myself and neglecting my health. Over time I felt less and less worthy of spending time, energy or money on self-care, and that I shouldn't subject people who weren't family to have to spend time with me. I felt like my body didn't deserve to wear things like jewelry or make-up. Clothes had become as utilitarian as possible, both from lack of options and interest. The more diet plans one tries and the older one gets, the harder it is to gear yourself up for another one. We know where they end up, ALWAYS with a net gain. As I contemplated whether to have the surgery or not, this was a huge deciding factor. The pre-op diet was very easy for me; I did not feel deprived or hungry (I should disclose that it was only 8 days long compared to the months or longer required by some drs or insurance companies I've read about on TTF), but I kept having the thought that if I can do this now, why can't I just do this without the surgery? Since my surgery, I've noted various situations or encounters with food and thought, had I not had surgery and was just on a restrictive plan, I would have gone off of it at these points, reaffirming that this was indeed a tool that I needed. I had to face the fact that I have successfully accomplished most of the other goals I have ever set for myself and the weight loss battle remained elusive. What were the chances that someone with a middle aged metabolism and a long history of unsuccessful eating programs was going to succeed without this bigger step? Less than 5%... The odds not in my favor for going it alone, I decided I needed to go for it even though I have spent the majority of my life seeking alternative medical solutions; my chiropractor was essentially my PCP for most of my life. I did a lot of research, read blogs and forums, watched YouTube videos, had a moment when I found out about the probable hair loss and a few other things, but ultimately made it to my surgery date feeling ready, calm and dare I say, excited about the possibility of success. My surgery and hospital stay went very well. I was surprised at how it felt to be cared for by nurses, my husband, my friends and family. That is usually the role that I play, so receiving that from others felt foreign at first and I had to reassure myself that I was worthy of that care. I have found that the intense focus on caring for myself after surgery, the routines with meds, nutrition, exercise, are contributing to that rebuild of worthiness as well. So my next step is to properly frame a new relationship with Food. It can't be eliminated; so it must be dealt with. Instead of depending on Food to help me fit in to areas in life I thought I wanted to be in such as food preservation groups and best meal preparer for those in need, it must take the role of providing some of the care I need to take of myself. It has to provide true nourishment and not be exploited as a temporary emotional buffer or way to focus on eating without signing up for something gross like a hot dog eating contest. Today is my first day off of clear liquids. Starting today I get to choose each and every day what the new food relationship will be.
  13. Wonderful post - a few people have worried that surgery will change who I am...you are so right about how they are really asking if it will change how they will perceive and categorize me for and in conjunction with themselves. Wow, very well written post. Thank you
  14. Home from the hospital and feeling pretty good. Had a shower and am sipping some broth. Was actually able to get some sleep in the hospital last night as well. So far, so good!
  15. Passed the leak test although they left me laying flat for ten minutes after having me drink the barium and I almost got sick. Took me half the day to regroup from that. But needing less pain meds now, sipping clear liquids and hoping to be discharged tomorrow. Then the work begins building a different relationship with food. So glad to have this group for help!