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About slars04

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  • Birthday August 27

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  • Location
    Outer Suburbia, Illinois


  • Surgeon
    Dr. Matthew Pittman
  • Hospital
    Delnor Community Hospital
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  • Current Weight
  • Goal Weight
  • Body Mass Index (BMI)
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  • Surgery Type
    Gastric Bypass

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  1. I am sure this is more than you ever wanted to know about Poop Pills, but you eat someone else's encapsulated poop because they have the needed bacteria to fight C Diff. that your colon doesn't. It's sort of an immunological transplant, if you will, usually done because someone has had repeated C Diff infections and the traditional treatments (antibiotics) do not work. Probiotics won't replace or grow the needed bacteria to cure it at that point. It's actually kind of awesome.
  2. We called them Poop Pills in micro. Who knew encapsulated turds could be a treatment instead of a punishment? Reminds me of the credits in "Polyester." They (poop pills) can cure C. diff, but I do not want to be the first in line for this. Much prefer yogurt to enhance my flora.
  3. I made it! I am officially overweight. BOOM!
  4. I am baffled as to why your doctor gave you a sleeve knowing you had GERD. Has he given you an explanation? You deserve answers.
  5. Food aversions are real and they suck. It's some primal thing to make us avoid things that will poison us, but Yikes! It is very hard to overcome. I have to wait about 3 weeks and then MAKE myself try some things again. Like chicken, beef, and eggs. I am trying to be patient, but I am getting pressure (and rightly so) from my healthcare team to eat as much "real" food as possible. I don't want to live off shakes, yogurt, and pudding either, but I sure don't want to yak in public. I didn't realize how much dehydration affects my ability to swallow - if I don't get enough fluids it feels like I have a lump in my throat. When I get to that point, I'm pretty dry and I don't even want to drink. I still have to think about drinking enough every day but generally speaking, eating and drinking are getting a lot easier and more automatic. I know you are talking about dumping, and it seems I've gotten off topic. Again. Oops...
  6. One of the biggest reasons I did not have my surgery sooner was that I did not want to give up Coke Zero. #%$? When I think of it now, I can't believe I valued a beverage over my health and quality of life. It takes what it takes, doesn't it? I have heard people say on the forum that their only regret is that they wish they'd had surgery sooner. I thought that, too, but then I realized I wasn't ready mentally until I was willing to make the changes you are choosing to do now. I just ran into someone who had bypass last year and has actually gained weight. Yikes! To think of putting yourself and your family through all of the pre and post-op bull$#!+ and then to gain weight. Devastating. You are doing exactly what you need to prepare yourself for the changes ahead. Keep it up and you will do fabulously.
  7. We had our surgeries on the same day. Best Valentine's Day EVER. You're doing fantastic.
  8. Thanks! I feel like I'm taking you and everyone else on TTF with me. What a great feeling!
  9. Thanks! I have had issues with putting myself out there in the past. Many times I blamed it on my weight and my history, but it was fear and inertia more than anything. That damn procrastination and perfectionism. I have finally realized I need to ask for what I want. To go for it. The worst people can say is no.
  10. Thanks, Gretta! I did some more digging and Eggface is the chairperson of the event. How cool is that? I will give you a full report!
  11. I'll be on a retreat with about 30 - 35 women this weekend, many of whom I haven't seen in quite a while. I'm not sure if I will tell them about my surgery or not, but I am going into it with the idea of making it about the weekend together instead of me and my weight. Just saying "Thanks!" and moving on. That is not always possible with this group, as they are obsessed with food and weight. I am aware of that in most recovery groups I'm involved in; the transfer of addictions from "bad" addictions like drugs or alcohol, to more socially acceptable ones like food, caffeine, meetings, TV, or the internet. All of this stuff will kill us, some compulsions just more slowly than others. I really don't want to get preachy or self-righteous; I get cocky and I fall. Big time. I SOOO do not feel cured of my eating obsession. I am still learning so much about myself and my relationship with food. Humility is the key, and something I find I know little about. I have the reminder set on my phone, but I don't pay attention to it. BWAHAHAHAHA!
  12. I'm nervous about seeing several of my obese friends this week (people I haven't seen since before the surgery) but that is all about me being self-absorbed and overthinking things. I really am in a good place. I am also going to be more vigilant with the vitamins to see if that takes care of the blues I've been dabbling in. Low Vitamin D makes me even more negative than usual. lol
  13. I was recently notified that I won a scholarship to attend the Your Weight Matters National Convention in New Orleans in August. Man! They're giving me a room, the registration, and flight reimbursement. AWESOME! I figure my food won't cost the farm now that I've had my bypass. The convention is an event sponsored by the Obesity Action Coalition and looks really interesting. I'm a newbie. Has anyone participated in this before? Anyone in or around New Orleans who wants to meet up? This is what I wrote to twist their arm: I have been overweight or obese since I can remember. One of my earliest and most hurtful memories is being told at age 9 that I looked just like my grandmother, who at that time was 5' 3" and well over 300 lbs. I was shamed for my weight as a child by my family and supposedly well-meaning relatives, teachers, scout leaders, and myriad other adults in my life. No one seemed to understand that I wasn’t doing this to myself on purpose. I needed help and a plan. I used food as a crutch, hoping it would be my savior from abuse, my comforter, and it became my nemesis. Obesity, yo-yo dieting, and food addiction have stolen my most precious asset: time. All the time spent thinking, planning, fantasizing about food and all its rituals could have been spent doing things for others or taking care of myself. Obesity has also robbed me of relationships, my health, and quality of life, even while living what to others looked like a full and active lifestyle. I sequestered myself from people I loved due to embarrassment, withholding myself out of shame and the memory of previous humiliations. My weight made it next to impossible to be there for my children. I was devoted to them, but never fully present due to my self-consciousness. Obesity is such a selfish disease. It makes us think we are worthless and unlovable as we are. In turn, our preoccupation with self-pity and shame only facilitates the cycle of punishing and rewarding ourselves with food. We treat the problem with the cause and berate ourselves for not losing weight or getting healthy. People tell us we should be able to do it for our kids, our spouse, or our health and when we can’t, we either give up or try some other crazy scheme to lose the weight for good. Societal perceptions that we are dirty, lazy, sexless, stupid, and undisciplined abound, which feeds the nagging self-loathing many of us live with on a daily basis. The most painful situation I have ever encountered, however, was that of watching the torment my son endured while struggling with his weight as a child. He ultimately lost over 100 lbs as a teen and has maintained that for 5 years, but self-esteem issues still surface occasionally because of the bullying he experienced while obese. Obesity and the lack of understanding surrounding it have nearly destroyed me physically, mentally, and spiritually, until I was finally able to break free after some wonderful psychotherapy that prepared me mentally for the challenges and triumphs of weight loss surgery. I want to attend the 2017 Your Weight Matters National Convention because I want to be an agent for change in how people think about and treat obesity, health maintenance, and weight loss in my community, my profession as a nurse, and the world at large. I want to empower other people to change their health for the better and to know that it is possible to succeed, even after a lifetime of struggle. I want obese/overweight individuals to know that they are worth fighting for. Specifically, I want to provide support, understanding, education, and tough love to individuals whose morbid obesity and co-morbidities are killing them. I also want to connect with other members of the obesity recovery community who have as much passion for it as I do. I, too, need support along my journey. I need the strength of other like-minded individuals as I work to change beliefs and hearts. I don’t need to reinvent the wheel when there are so many great minds out there, and I would love to pick their brains and share resources. To be in one place and able to make connections with all these leaders in the field where the sole focus is the treatment of obesity and health maintenance going forward would be amazing.
  14. It seems like you have this right now anyway. I did, too. Ultimately the decision is up to you, but I have not regretted the choice to move forward.
  15. Except for posting in the right forum. Lol