slars04

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About slars04

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  • Birthday August 27

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  • Gender
    Female

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  • Surgeon
    Dr. Matthew Pittman
  • Hospital
    Delnor Community Hospital
  • Height (ft-in)
    5-07
  • Start Weight
    265
  • Current Weight
    199
  • Goal Weight
    145
  • Body Mass Index (BMI)
    31
  • Surgery Date
    02/13/2017
  • Surgery Type
    Gastric Bypass

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  1. You might be having a reaction to the aspartame in Crystal Light, combined with overload. That stuff tastes good going down, but not so good coming back up, in my case. It can also cause diarrhea. As for the eggs, I agree that they can be hard to digest. My nutritionist said only egg whites, no whole eggs, and only a quarter cup at a time at most. They can still be hard on my stomach. I am encouraged that my stomach can already tolerate more and different foods. I still use a protein shake if I can't get in enough protein, and that is almost every day. Do you think you might have eaten too fast? I notice I pressure myself to eat faster than I should when I am at work, or if I think (operative word here is "think") someone is waiting on me.
  2. FYI: You can get Premier Protein Caramel shakes at Meijer.
  3. Now I just want ribs.
  4. Last night, I was described as "filterless" by one of my husband's friends. Another said "nice" was not a word he would use to describe me. I have two letters for him. F. U. lol Apparently they have nothing more interesting to talk about than me. I think I'll take that as a compliment.
  5. Well, you can lose it like that and learn to cope, switch addictions, or eat over it like we used to. I only say that because I am a few weeks further than you and those episodes are getting less frequent as all the feelings I stuffed down with food are bubbling up, screaming to be processed. You sound like you are right where you're supposed to be at just over a month out. This can be an ugly business - I notice many of us are not big fans of feelings. You are doing GREAT! P.S. My grand moment of the weekend was while giving Cletus a bath in our 10 x 6 bathroom. Cletus is my 90 lb lug of a German shepherd, who is the sweetest natured dog I know. He also loves the water, so that makes this all the more ridiculous. We're doing the bath thing and because he is a long-haired shepherd, I use conditioner to get all the hair out more easily. He has been putting up with me for 20 minutes now (he was really dirty) and he sees his opening. He jumps from the tub full of conditioner and starts to shake. I lose it. I attempt to wrangle him back into the tub, but without a collar and with him all lubed up with conditioner... you get the idea. I start SCREAMING at him. He stops dead In his tracks, just looking at me with his sad, scared eyes, like "Mama! What do you want?" As you can well imagine, my shrieking does not get him back in the tub. I have a moment of clarity when I catch myself in the mirror and see to my horror that I have morphed into a shrew. I stop, do a quick prayer, gently open the door and go get his slip leash. I calmly re-enter the bathroom, put his leash over his head and lead him back into the tub. While it still looks like some weird Law & Order SVU episode when we're done, we manage to finish up without incident. I scared myself with how mad I got. I know it was not about Cletus. Everything I have held back with food is coming out, some of it sideways. I have to forgive myself and learn from it or the guilt and shame will paralyze me.
  6. I am so excited! 8 more pounds and I'll have an overweight BMI instead of an obese one. Maybe then I can get my primary care doc to take "morbid obesity BMI 40.0 - 44.9" off my chart for good. I started this journey with my PCP on 10/12/16. I was depressed, demoralized, and disgusted with myself, and he was so kind to me. That has not always been the case with other physicians. So many people in and out of the medical field just don't get food addiction. This is a dude who doesn't get really excited about anything and he was so amped to recommend WLS with my surgeon, I thought they were dating. With someone so cautious in my corner and nudging me to move forward, I knew I had to at least look into it. Thank Heavens I did! This is AWESOME! I weigh less than I have in 25 years. I can walk the dog, garden for a couple of hours, Heck! run errands, etc., without having to stop for a good, brisk sit. My BP is 106 / 67 and my blood sugar is NORMAL. I L-O-V-E love this!
  7. A quick update: Yesterday at my 3 month check, I told my surgeon what had happened and he was visibly shaken. It was heartbreaking and moving at the same time. I do not regret having surgery and now I am more comfortable with people knowing about it. I'm so glad I could tell my doctor what a difference he's made in my quality of life. It is comforting to know I have a team of people that really have my back, both here and at the office.
  8. I, for one, am glad you brought this up. I went for my three month follow up yesterday and one of the first things my surgeon asked me was how I was doing mentally. I told him I'd had a few moments of rocking myself in a corner, that my crazy had taken on a whole new level, and he said: "That's pretty much expected. A lot of people who get weight loss surgery have used food as their primary coping mechanism and when that's taken away we see issues they'd previously kept buried bubbling to the surface." He then asked me about how my husband and friends were doing with it and if I had any outside support. I told him that people who did not have a weight issue were the most genuinely supportive and that some people were rather hostile and/or aggressive in their questions. I said my husband was doing better with everything, and that I was a bit surprised at the vigor with which my family kept pushing food, particularly my mom. "We see that a lot, too. Our patients families and friends feel threatened and try to undermine our patients' weight loss. It's really important to get time face to face with someone who doesn't have a personal stake in your recovery for support." I told him I both wanted and despised the attention I'm getting. We laughed when I said that I wouldn't have been physically attracted to me at my previous weight, so why would I expect other people to be. I was prepared as well as I could be for issues coming up, but it's like trying to prepare yourself for a move, a job change, or a death - you can think your way through all of it but your feelings are your feelings, and you can't prepare for those beforehand. I have struggled with the thought "I can't eat __________." also, and had to change it to "I don't eat _______ because ________." Sometimes I still feel like I lost my best friend, and thinking someone outside of me is saying I can't eat certain things makes it worse. It's just semantics, but it has made a difference in how I view my eating. I do get your frustration at the station, however. Yesterday, I was trying to grab lunch prior to my follow up and could not find anything appropriate to eat IN THE HOSPITAL CAFETERIA WHERE MY F-ING SURGERY WAS PERFORMED! lol I feel your pain. I fear I will always carry a lunch pail and sometimes I just don't want to. I suppose it is a small price to pay to be alive and healthier than I have been in 30 years. You have been at this longer than me and your numbers show that it is working. I commend you for putting it out there. Go YOU!
  9. I am having issues with this, still. I do eat solid foods, but I find some things so unappetizing now that I can't eat them. Tuna, for one. It also stinks up the workplace. I am reintroducing things that have made me sick, and some of it is working. My body does not want to keep chicken down, and eggs are touch and go. Fortunately, I have found I can eat fish without much ado. It's weird; one day something is fine, and the next I cannot get it down. Others have mentioned this and they said to reintroduce those things several weeks later and see how it goes. If I'm drinking as much as I should, I have no desire to eat. I even forget about it. Bizarre. This thread is a good reminder. Don't wanna be known as the Dreamwhip Lady. I remember that crap as a kid. It was worse than Kraft Spaghetti.
  10. I have been having the same issue and I have been back to work for 3 months. Lol. My doctor wants me on real food for every meal, but right now I would not get all my protein and liquids without my protein shake smoothie in the morning. I still have a hard time with getting enough fluids, but it's getting better. I have gone to protein bars to help, but many of them are too sweet and that is a slippery slope for me, so those are emergency rations only. I agree with other members: If I didn't drink my smoothie in the car and at school, I wouldn't make the time to eat a solid meal in the morning.
  11. My husband and I were in a pretty negative spiral for a long time (think decades) and even though it has gotten better in the last 2 years, I was hesitant to tell him what was going on. I decided I was doing the surgery and got almost everything prepped prior to bringing him on board. It really doesn't matter whether your husband is on board or not. Certainly it would be easier, but they don't have to understand how our heads work in regards to food. You are done being overweight and you are not trying to get your tubes tied in the 60's. You don't need his approval. I didn't realize how I looked for my husband's approval for everything, and how I kept expecting him to be enthusiastic when I know he is pessimistic by nature. Being fat for so long, I questioned my worth and my abilities. That kind of dependence is a turn off and he was sick of so much neediness. I expected him to support me when I wasn't willing to fight for myself. I know you did not want your husband to find this information and I'm hoping he didn't rifle through your bag to find it. That being said, can you look to your healthcare team for support? This is probably not a popular point of view but your husband may be thinking he's heard all this before and now you're going to go through major surgery and still not get the results you want. He may have seen you start other things and not follow through. He has a point. The people who are successful on this site (I have not been around long enough to be one of them) have changed every aspect of their dealings with food and they are transparent with their eating. Not everyone who is thin is a success - some people are very unhealthy, although they have lost the excess weight. I was one of those who thought WLS was cheating. I didn't understand that it was a means to success, and that I would have to put in effort for the rest of my life to get and stay healthy. I don't know why I thought this way. Maybe because I had tried traditional methods so many times and failed. Maybe I was jealous. Now I think the idea of this being a cheat is stupid. If I had cancer, I would certainly use the most aggressive means I could to treat it. Morbid (which means "causing disease") obesity is a progressive illness as well, and some of us just don't get better without going full boar. I have no regrets, although I did have a food dream yesterday. Lol. You can make this whatever you want. You can believe whatever you want about it and your husband's reaction to it. He may have underlying concerns about your safety that come across as him being a [email protected] Decide you are going to be a success story. Be your own champion. Go for it! You can do it! P.S. When my husband realized this was really happening, he came around.
  12. I have been upset and brooding over the past few days. I wasn't close to him, but someone in the recovery community I participate in died last week from the disease of obesity. He got pneumonia and was taken by ambulance to the hospital where he was put on a ventilator. His body couldn't take it anymore and he died several days later. He was 30 years old. My husband knew him much better than I and had started talking to him about me and the option of medically managed weight loss / surgery. I was going to meet with him and take him to the informational meeting that my surgeon holds monthly. I was too late. Addiction is so powerful. I am disgusted that my own first response was to want to find food to comfort myself. I didn't do it at the time but I have done it several times since, without even thinking about it. I am off that train now, but Geez! Someone I know dies of obesity and the first thing I want to do is eat about it. I I have a lot of work to do, especially with my head, but at least I have time to do it. I need all the help I can get and I'm so grateful I have the opportunity to reach out and take it. All my whining about the issues before and after WLS is such selfish bull$h!+ when I think about this. His mother is devastated. I hope I never have to go through that. It never seems right when a parent buries a child. I got a much needed attitude adjustment; I just wish it wasn't at such a high price.
  13. Reflux is very serious. It can erode your throat to the point of irreversible damage. It isn't something to take lightly or hope will go away. Ask your surgeon to show you the numbers. My dad ultimately died of reflux. He messed around, wouldn't take medication, and got esophageal cancer. It was ugly, painful, and not something I would wish on my worst enemy. His doc told us that the likely cause was reflux, alcohol consumption, and smoking. (BTW, he had quit smoking and drinking alcohol 13 years before he died. He popped antacids like candy, but didn't see a gastro until it was too late.)
  14. I am not the poster child for self care. I went back to work 5 days I was released from the hospital following gastric bypass, and school the next day. It would have been better to have 2 weeks off due to fatigue and the adjustment to the new diet. I have a sedentary job, so that was not the issue; it was more the brain fog at school. I don't even remember the couple weeks after surgery and I have no clue how I passed. That being said, I had no pain after the first week and the only restrictions I had were lifting over 20 pounds and no exercise other than walking for the first 2 weeks, and over 40 lbs the next 2 weeks. My biggest adjustment was (and still is) eating right and getting enough fluids. I would have liked to have been able to take more time for the reasons BurgundyBoy listed. I am just getting into exercise now as my school schedule was so hectic. It would have been great to get that routine in place out of the gate. My employer's buy-in is moot for me, but I can understand wanting that if you plan to be with your colleagues long-term and you want their support. I am not sure, though, if staying home longer would have been good for me mentally. I have bouts of depression anyway, and I've yet to disembark from the emotional rollercoaster that is early WLS recovery. Without the distractions of work and school, I might still be rocking in a corner.
  15. My surgeon said I was not eligible for the sleeve because I had esophageal reflux. He said the sleeve would act like an acid cannon and burn my throat, whereas the bypass is actually the surgery done for GERD that doesn't respond well to medications. BTW, the reflux is totally gone.