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    Gastric Bypass

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  1. I work at a hospital. In fact the very same hospital in which I am seeing the Bariatrics team. While I work in a different department Bariatrics is still part of the same directorate. I am a hallway away from where the Waiting list coordinator/Managers/Secretaries sit. I've been to meetings with them often and I know them well enough to say hello when I see them. I quite regularly see my Bariatric consultant and a few of the other practitioners just around as part of the work day. Luckily the entire team is very professional and would never let anyone else know that I was on the waiting list for a gastric bypass. But sometimes I still feel quite awkward. One of the reasons is that I am quite a private person. I have only told about four people I have decided to have this done. My Husband has told his family because we are very close to them. But at work, I just don't want everyone that I work with knowing everything about me. I worry sometimes that my work colleagues will find out and I would rather not face their judgement. Its possible that they could be fully supportive but I'm not sure they would. One of them has made her views quite clear about WLS in the past and the other had a band but had it removed and speaks very badly of the Bypass in general. I guess its just something on my mind a lot and I worry about. I did manage to speak to the Bariatric waiting list coordinator and she said the guesstimate I was given of April was pretty optimistic. Its more likely to be the start of Summer. Which I am okay with. I thought April seemed a bit soon and I have no problem waiting my turn. Besides it will give me a chance to try and lose some more weight before then.
  2. I was really happy when I found this forum. It was so refreshing to have points of views from all sorts of people. A lot of them struggling with the same things I have my whole life. I lurked for months while being too shy and or too scared to post. I finally drum up the courage to introduce myself. Received a really warm and loving response. I decided to subscribe to my welcome thread to prompt myself to stay active in this community. So today while I was at work someone posted some pretty derogatory remarks in that thread I was subscribed to. As you would expect the mods were right on top of that and the posts were deleted and the user (I believe) has been banned. Unfortunately since I had subscribed I still got a copy of the posts in my email in-box. I skimmed the first one but deleted it instantly because I don't need that sort of negativity in my life. The user all sent me a PM but luckily I never got to lay eyes on that only a notification for it. I'm strong and I've been around the internet for a long time. So I was not an ounce bothered or upset by it. But I do worry that I have gotten a taste of what I might have to experience post weight loss surgery. There does seem to be a stigma surrounding it. One of the reasons I have told very, very few people that I am going to have a bypass done. I have read on the board to prepare some stock answers. I'm still pre-op but I am certainly going to start thinking of some now. I am not going to let all this chase me off the board but I will certainly hesitate to subscribe to threads from now on.
  3. Congrats!!
  4. Hi Gretta! Its nice to know that there are others out there with the same hopes and fears. Hugs
  5. Thanks for the warm welcome! Looking forward to being involved in the community here.
  6. Hello everyone. Been lurking for awhile now and decided to stick my toe in the water. How I ended up here: About two years ago I started having some serious problems with my vision. I was seeing spots in my vision, having dizzy spells, and head aches. After a scary trip to the emergency room I diagnosed with intracranial hypertension. This is a condition that means I retain too much spinal fluid around my brain. It can lead to swelling of the lenses in the eyes and could lead to loss of vision. I have a feeling you know where this is going all ready. After all the tests came back and I was diagnosed I was told to lose weight because that can help. I was so angry to hear the doctor say that. At the time it felt like it was the worst possible thing they could have said to me. Honestly, I know its not. There could have been a lot of things wrong with that would have been worse. But still I couldn't help but feel so betrayed by my body. Lose weight?! LOOSE WEIGHT!? As if it was something ever so simple. I have tried everything to lose weight. You name a "diet" and I've probably done it. I've been successful in losing weight but never keeping it off. I've even tried "eating normal" whatever that might be. The struggle has been on going for so long that I just didn't know what to do any more. Well, I tried. And tried again. I did all the things I thought I was supposed to be doing. I've lost big amounts of weight in the past and it always goes back on. I returned to my neuro-opthamologist even heavier then I was before. He could sense my distress and he referred me on to the bariatric team. It felt like a pretty drastic step to me. Weight loss surgery was not something I had ever considered before. Probably because my uncle had weight loss surgery and there was real negativity surrounding it from my family. The bariatric consultant was pretty no nonsense and while cautious I have to admit I like what he had to say. Before I knew it was I was seeing psychologists and dieticians. Then in October 2016 I was added to the waiting list to have an RNY Gastric Bypass. I have been told I am likely to have a date around April for my surgery. Most days I am a hundred percent certain this is what I want. I know coming out of surgery I will have the very best tool I possibly can to help me lost the weight. Other days I am really scared and wonder what the heck I am doing to myself. And I am so that I will have this surgery and I will still fail. Or that what has always happened to me will happen again. I lose but in a years time it will all be back. I guess its only natural to be nervous and worry about things. I've talked about them a lot with the psychologist. She seems to think I am in a pretty good place in terms of weight loss surgery. Anyway just wanted to finally throw myself into the fray here. My husband is really supportive and is always happy to talk to me about WLS but it will be nice to be in touch with some people who are going through/have gone through this.