debbio

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About debbio

  • Rank
    Newbie
  • Birthday 08/13/1963

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  • Gender
    Female
  • Location
    Indiana
  • Age
    53

Information

  • Surgeon
    Jonathan Mandelbaum
  • Hospital
    Franciscan St. Francis
  • Height (ft-in)
    5-05
  • Start Weight
    250
  • Current Weight
    189.2
  • Goal Weight
    155
  • Surgery Date
    10/07/2016
  • Surgery Type
    Vertical Sleeve
  • Surgeon
    Jonathan Mandelbaum

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  1. Love your outfit, Shrinking Violet!!! That black and white jacket is so cute!
  2. I LOVE your post!!! Especially: <<<2. Daily decisions to "start a new lifestyle." In November, I decided to do the 5 day pouch. It was "ridiculous this far post-op." Then, I decided I would live and Atkins lifestyle. Reality check: Atkins plus carbohydrates isn't Atkins. It was "too hard while I'm in school." >>> AND <<<But, if I cram the food into my mouth super fast, the calories somehow won't count..... There's not even any logic in that one.>>> AND <<<... we whine about how fresh food doesn't taste good enough because we don't get the taste of cheesecake with every bite...>>> Cracked me up the most, because I have said those exact things in my head countless times!!! How do I archive this post? I am still pretty new at this. Thank you for being SO frank! Debbi
  3. Thanks for your suggestions and words of encouragement and empathy. I will return to them when I am feeling unsure during my journey toward strong and healthy living. Debbi
  4. (I am cutting & pasting this from another topic, because I inadvertently high-jacked it.) LadyFI, I am so glad you posted this. Especially your not liking feeling vulnerable when you're at a smaller size. My stats are similar to yours, albeit I'm only 5 months out from surgery. I have been treading water at 185-190 for several weeks now... making poor food choices (sometimes even when it hurts my stomach)... sort of afraid to get into the 170's. That is the weight at which I start attracting attention. Keep in mind I have no fashion model face, but my family and friends will start making comments as I go down through the 170's into a normal BMI... some positive, some negative. When I have been at a lower weight I have not only wondered if I had not been just as desirable at a higher weight, but it's made me very angry because I KNOW I have not been as desirable! The conundrum is this: I physically FEEL better when my weight is near my normal BMI; however, the increased looks from men, the catty/snide comments and looks from women, even the kind comments don't feel SAFE to me. My knee-jerk reaction to these is NOT a good one. My mind and body don't know how to accurately interpret them; therefore, they are often incorrectly internalized. I feel much more vulnerable. It's as if the extra weight is a fence ensuring my safety. When I'm heavy no one notices me... giving me the comforting feeling of being invisible. Others, on the whole, seem to be nicer to me when I'm heavier. When I'm at a healthier weight I feel as though I'm parading around naked. I have tried repeating to myself your words, <<<"I am learning that it is okay for me to be a small person. I am working forward too towards lossing the rest of this weight. I love me no matter what the scale reads. I love me no matter what anyone else thinks. I want to be healthy.">>> but to no avail. Any insight is welcome. Thanks, again, Lady Fi. You may have opened a can of worms for me, but I needed to open it so I can keep moving forward. Debbi
  5. Lady Fi, I am so glad you posted this. Especially your not liking feeling vulnerable when you're at a smaller size. My stats are similar to yours, albeit I'm only 5 months out from surgery. I have been treading water at 185-190 for several weeks now... making poor food choices (sometimes even when it hurts my stomach)... sort of afraid to get into the 170's. That is the weight at which I start attracting attention. Keep in mind I have no fashion model face, but my family and friends will start making comments as I go down through the 170's into a normal BMI... some positive, some negative. When I have been at a lower weight I have not only wondered if I had not been just as desirable at a higher weight, but it's made me very angry because I KNOW I have not been as desirable! The conundrum is this: I physically FEEL better when my weight is near my normal BMI; however, the increased looks from men, the catty/snide comments from women, even the kind comments don't feel SAFE to me. My knee-jerk reaction to these is NOT a good one. I don't know how to internalize them. I feel much more vulverable. It's as if the extra weight is a fence ensuring my safety. When I'm heavy no one notices me... giving me the comforting feeling of being invisible. Others, on the whole, seem to be nicer to me when I'm heavier. When I'm at a healthier weight I feel as though I'm parading around naked. I have tried repeating to myself your words, <<<"I am learning that it is okay for me to be a small person. I am working forward too towards lossing the rest of this weight. I love me no matter what the scale reads. I love me no matter what anyone else thinks. I want to be healthy.">>> to no avail. Any insight is welcome. Thanks, again, Lady Fi. You may have opened a can of worms for me, but I needed to open it so I can keep moving forward. Debbi
  6. I just wanted to say hi and I am being inspired by and enjoying reading your posts. Debbi