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About Karimeaway

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  • Birthday 11/02/1977

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    Dr Doucette
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    Vertical Sleeve
  1. So very pretty!!
  2. I love this post. I have a real fear of pizza and cake. I'm not saying that I'm never going to have them again but right now that's what I'm saying and I'm okay with that. My addiction is going to be different from other addictions. I can have halo top icecream and it doesn't make me want to lose control but I can have m&m's and I want to snort, inhale, and figure out how to inject them in blood stream. My relationship with food was seriously perverted and on some levels it still is but I'm working on it. Food really did soothe me emotionally. I didn't realize how much until I didn't have it to do so. The one thing that really brought me comfort was also killing me. So now I have to figure out healthy ways to bring comfort. Thanks for posting this. It was great!
  3. I really wanted to have a huge announcement before I posted but I decided to go small with this one. I wanted to say that I’m under 200 pounds for the first time in decades but I’m still 2 pounds away from that victory. I also wanted to tell you that I’ve lost 100 pounds but I haven’t. I guess I could tell you all these things but they just wouldn’t be true…..YET. I’m going to keep on keeping on. The under 200 pound thing is kind of a big deal for me. Some of you would have a heart attack if you were 150. I get it. I know 200 still has me in big girl status and I’m okay with that. I just want to be able to say I’m One hundred and blady blah pounds. It’s frustrating to see the scale stall when I’m putting the work and effort into getting it off. Even through the craptastic wait for the scale to drop, I’m learning things. I’m thankful for that. It’s bad when you don’t see results. However, it’s really bad when you close everything out and soak in your pity. I’m just not going to do that this week. So what am I learning?? Well the first thing I’m learning is you don’t live a healthy lifestyle to be rewarded. You live a healthy lifestyle because it’s the right thing to do. Do I want to see that scale go down? Yes. Do I like exercising on a daily basis only to see the scale stall? No. I do want the outcome. I want to tell you that in two weeks I will have lost 100 pounds by eating healthy and exercising. I’m not sure of the when though and I've got to be okay with that. That cannot be the reason why I do what I do. That cannot drive me. If it does drive me, then no wonder I’ve gotten off the beaten path one too many times. I understand that I have to be open to see the positive even when I feel completely negative. I’m not saying it’s easy. I’m not saying that you won’t have to dig deep to find something positive but guess what, I have to pull the seat closer to the steering wheel when I drive, I picked grilled chicken over pizza a week ago, and this weekend I took a picture where I don’t have a gut. This does not mean it’s not discouraging to see the scale stall. For crying out loud I’m 2 pounds away from being under two hundred pounds. Why am I doing this? Why is this so important? So often we lose sight of our why. Or our why becomes something that it shouldn’t be. I want to do what’s right because I desire to do what’s right not because of a number or a size. I want to walk and eat healthy because it’s the right thing to do. I’m sure that most of you do but if there’s just one of you out there who isn’t then let’s change that. Stop looking for a number to bring you joy. Some looking at a size of clothing keep you on the straight and narrow. Pants go out of style and when they do where is your mindset? Please let me say that this is a learning process for me. I’m not saying that my mind thinks this way all the time. However, I’m just hoping that soon all of this will sink in and when it doesn’t I’ll have someone like you to remind me of this post. The second thing I’m learning is that you can never be too prepared. Too prepared for what you may ask?? ANYTHING! Are you going to a birthday party with cake? Be prepared. Are you depressed and feel like you can binge on anything with carbs, be PREPARED. Are you going out to dinner to a restaurant that you’ve never been to? Prepare!! I say this because I struggle with this. I recently went to a restaurant with family that was a southern cooking delight. If it can be fried, they served it and they served it well. I’m not even going to be cruel by telling you all the delightful sides that they had but let’s just say they would make Paula Dean scream BUTTER YALL! If I had known before I walked in there that I was walking into such deliciousness, I’d probably stayed at home. Does that make me sound snotty?? I’m okay with that. Thankfully I prayed before walking in and even though I was bitter, I ate my grilled piece of chicken and stewed in my bitterness for 20 minutes as everyone else ate their country fried country goodness. If you are going somewhere that you know you’re going to be tempted to eat something that is garbage, then either don’t go or bring your own less horrible garbage. If you go to a birthday party with cake, chances are if you don’t come prepared, you will have your cake and eat it too. Seriously, you might feel lame bringing in outside food. I get that! I feel lame. . But seriously carbs kill. Can I get that on a shirt? Or maybe Carbs don’t make friends and REAL friends don’t make carbs. I can’t keep crackers in my house. I can’t keep popcorn in my house. I’ll be honest with you. I buy goldfish for my son’s lunch but I make sure that they are prepackaged so that I don’t have to touch them or look at them. Have mercy on that little fish’s soul if he brings home any strays in his lunch box! I know I sound crazy. What kind of lunatic would eat leftover lunch from a preschool lunch box. THIS LUNATIC!!! I have to make sure I buy prepackaged stuff or I just can’t let it in the house. If I know I’m in a crazy way about food, then I dial a friend. I have one friend that I go to when I feel crazy about food. Am I mad? Am I depressed? Am I having my monthly time?? It doesn’t matter the reason, just have your friend that you can tell if you are feeling crazy. Whatever your addiction, this time will come and you need to make sure that you’ve got someone who help you come out of crazy town. Make sure your friend will help you clean up your mess and not just talk about it. Just get prepared ya'll. Life won't do it for you! So while I’m not below two hundred, THANK YOU TWO POUNDS, I’m better off than I was yesterday. I can’t say that I’ve lost 100 but I can say I’ve lost 92 and I’m okay with that too. I’m not giving up and you don’t give up either. The struggle is real and sometimes it’s big and sometimes it’s REAL BIG but it seems a heck of a lot easier when you’re not going through it alone.
  4. Yay! Yay! Yay! So happy you made it through without too many hurdles. Hope each day gets easier and easier!
  5. I'm on the go all the time so as I don't understand being trapped at a hospital, I do understand being at the mercy of take out sometimes. I get a grilled chicken breast at just about any fast food restaurant. Now if you will be tempted to get something else then stay the heck away but now I just know that's what I'm getting. McDonalds has a grilled chicken breast for $2.00. It may not be the healthiest piece of meat but that's my go to. I go to Chick-fil-a often and get the grilled chicken nuggets from there too. Sometimes for me just confessing it helps me bring light to the problem and then I can move on. I hope that you are taking this opportunity to just move on from the mess and make better choices. Give yourself some grace for your son being in the hospital but now it's time to make better choices and move on! Hope your son gets better!!
  6. There is so much freedom in this picture. 6 months ago I would have been worried that I wouldn't fit on the ride. Honestly I may not have. Yesterday I got on a free fall roller coaster and wow what a thrill. I have allowed my weight to control this adventurous heart way too long. As of this morning I'm 92 pounds down. I still have quite a bit to go but I'm thankful for every ounce that God has allowed me to lose! Thank you God for adventure, roller coasters, and fun family times!
  7. YES!! I'm so ready!! The impossible finally seeming like a possibility!
  8. As of this morning I was 3 pounds away from onderland! I haven't been under 200 in decades....DECADES! GO GO GO!! You can do it!!
  9. Thanks for all the responses. It didn't help that my husband and I had been arguing. I feel much better this morning and am thankful for all of you that commented. I'm just happy that I don't have to do this journey of life alone!
  10. Today I had to go up to my child’s school and watch the kids in his class during lunch so that his teacher could have a duty free lunchtime. I sat at what I felt was the cool kids table because that is where my child was sitting and after all I do have a cool kid. They are four so anyone who says fart is considered cool. So I sat through all the poo poo, fart, and toilet talk and that’s when it happened. Stranger Kid asks me why my legs are so big. What do you say to that? Well I said God made them that way and just left it at that. He then proceeds to grab my belly fat. He’s four. I totally understand that kids that age can be brutal but there is something that takes me back to the pain of my past here. When do you ever get over being made fun of? Do you? I’m grown. He’s four. I should not be so discouraged by a four year old. I don’t have the urge to eat poorly which is wonderful. I do feel sad though. I’ve come a long way in the past 6 months. I’m proud of my accomplishment even though I still have a long ways to go. I some how feel defeated. I know this feeling will pass and fortunately it’s a feeling. I just had to express myself. I’m right at that “onederland” mark. I have about 8 pounds to go. It seems like it will take forever to get there but I’m praying it’s right around the corner. I cannot wait for the day where no one can make me feel like crap about my weight. Does that happen?? I hope that your day is much better than mine and I’m hoping that mine gets much better!
  11. My boys were 3 and 4. I needed a week with help. My husband stayed home with me the first week. I had a friend helping the the next Monday. Then I was on my own. I'm not going to lie, I was tired but I pushed through and you will too! Having back up support helps!
  12. Since having surgery my stomach has a mouth of it's own. Sometimes I feel like it talks more than I do in a day. When I drink or eat specific things, I get embarrassed because it's so stinking loud. I'm not sure what to tell you except that you are not alone. Weirdo stomachs unite!
  13. That head hunger is strong in this one! I missed bread for the first month or so but now I don't care at all. Pasta well that's a different story. Seeing the results makes it easier to eat the protein and veggies. I hope you keep us posted on your progress!
  14. My father died when he was 50 at 500+ pounds. It's too hard for me to watch! I've tried to watch it to get inspired but I just can't do it. However that is hilarious about the night gowns!
  15. Is this California?