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    Vertical Sleeve

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  1. Just doing a little research to see if there are any ultra marathoners on here, and ran across this. (wondering how to fuel and hydrate for super long distance) There is so such thing as fat adapted running, where you don't need to eat a lot of carbs for distance running if you generally avoid carbs already, or you start avoiding them again in your training. Limited good carbs are helpful, but you can fuel your running on things like avocado, protein, nut butters, etc. It can be researched on line with a simple google search. Have you found something that works for you? I don't always avoid carbs, so I am not necessarily a very good example of fat-adapted running, but if you have found something that works since you posted this, will you update on your experiences? I'm looking for distance running fuel as well!
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    Size 6 dress!! Woot! Rockin' the sexy witch look.
  3. I am approaching new territory! My original goal for myself was to lose enough to get me under 25 BMI, which is less than a pound away, and I'm freaking out a little. I like my body, I like what it can do now, I am running almost daily, I can outpace my 8 year old twin boys, I can hike, I can bike, I'm looking forward to ski season this year. My real goal for this surgery was to get my life back, number on the scale be damned. In that regard, my surgery has been a complete success. I currently weigh 150.8, and a bmi under 25 for my height is 149.9 or less. I could reach that number in a day or in a week, or in a month with normal fluctuations. Just a little background, I have struggled with weight my entire life. I am almost 38 years old, and the last time I weighed 150 was 9th grade. I have never been this weight in my adult life, and I don't know how hard it will be to maintain this weight. I am 6.5 months post op, and I feel like I have the "losing" part of this process down. I understand it, I know what works for me, what I can and cannot eat to see results. Here is the part that scares me. I have never been able to maintain any weight, healthy or not, ever that I can remember. I have always been gaining like crazy or trying really hard to lose, but just staying the same is all new territory for me. I am scared of this territory. How do I know if I'm at a good weight to start the maintenance process? When did you know enough was enough? I'm tempted to keep moving my goal 5 or ten more pounds down, just so I can keep the status quo and know what I'm working towards, but I can't do that forever, especially as it's getting harder and harder to lose, and as health is my ultimate goal, so being under weight is also undesirable. How do I start trying to maintain when I'm so scared that upping calories or eating more will result in total failure like it has every other time in my life? I know this is different, I have a new body and a new tool for maintaining. I have been working with a therapist for the last year and a half to get my head in the right place to deal with the challenges that come with having the surgery, losing, and having a new body, so I have someone to help me, but she hasn't been there like so many of you have. How do I ease some of my fears over the inevitable transition that is nearer than I ever thought it would be, and what should I keep in mind to be successful in maintenance? TIA for any stories and advice!!
  4. Hi! So it's a good problem to have, I know, but how do you handle the questions from well-meaning people who just don't understand the surgery or its effects? Stuff like "how much more weight do you want to lose? How much farther are you planning on letting this go? How much skinnier do you need to be? I'm worried about how fast/how much you've lost! I am nearing a reasonable goal weight, and I do look much better than I did pre-op, but I am still in the "overweight" category on the BMI scale, though only by less than 10 lbs. Ive slimmed down to what I would consider a "normal" weight and I feel great and and more active and happy than I've been in a long time. But I don't want to have to explain that to every well-meaning person who rudely asks about my personal weight loss. I also am a little tired of fielding concerned questions from people who are close to me and I feel deserve a right to ask such things because they love and care about me and are my support system. Any snappy lines or standard responses that you've found useful in such situations? Thanks!
  5. So it's been a while since I visited this site, I've been busy living my life to the fullest! Just uploaded some recent pics, updated my stats, and went through photos trying to find a good before picture. I didn't have one. Lesson to everyone, as much as you hate your "before" look, take before shots. I spent so much effort avoiding the camera I have very few pictures of myself at my highest, but how good it feels now to not recognize myself in the ones I do have. I recently had a vow renewal/wedding I never had to celebrate 20 years together, and I felt so amazing! I looked great, felt great, enjoyed my party and the company, and the next day went to the amusement park and rode all the coasters with no fear of not fitting in the seats and enjoyed my time there with my children. I am so grateful to this surgery for giving me my life back and giving me a confidence and joy that I have never had before. I'm so happy with my results, and so happy with the new me, and for the first time ever in my life, just so happy!! I don't yet consider myself at goal, I would like to lose maybe 20 more lbs, but if I lived the rest of my life right here, I know I would be healthy and active and ok.
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    down 110 lbs from highest, over the course of 13 months.
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    Wedding! Down 110 lbs from highest ever
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    5 months post-op, one year after starting WL program in prep for surgery. Down 110 from all time high
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  10. I have made it to two months post-op. 35 lbs down since surgery, and almost 75 lbs down since beginning this journey on August 1, 2014. Well, a little past that. I have had some slow weeks, some weeks not losing, some days losing big. It is definitely a process. I am finally finding the real me again, and she wants to come out and live life! I am exploring new activities, opening up to people more, and living life more fully, and for that, the surgery already counts as a success! I ordered a dress for my vow renewal event in September. I was nervous, and really guessed at the size I would need, since the event is two and a half months away. I ordered two sizes smaller than I am now. Now that it's here, I'm only a size and a half away from that dress. Good news is, I can get it on, zipped and everything. There are lumps and bumps that need to melt away, but trying to get the thing on isn't laughable, as it would have been just months ago. It is a gorgeous dress, and I am so looking forward to looking gorgeous in it. It is stunning, and forgiving of many different body flaws, and It's everything I hoped it would be when I first laid eyes on it on-line, and took a leap of faith buying it. My food intake has increased to a level I can live with. I have enough energry to go about my day, with some left over for intense spin workouts or long walks. I have many things to work on still. Even though I know it is an issue of mine, I still haven't mastered patient and mindful eating. Too many of my meals are eaten on the fly, running out the door to drop the kids off at school then into work just making it on time. Or a string cheese or boiled egg snarfed down in the car on my way to a Dr. appointment over my lunch hour. I am sometimes making my stomach a little unhappy by eating too fast, or too much, when some mindfulness during meals would be a cure to that problem. I have a hard time slowing down, and appreciating the fuel I'm putting into my body. I've been telling myself for weeks to stop multitasking while eating, and have done nothing to actually make a move toward doing it. The things that save me are the fact that I no longer have the serious cravings for sweets/junk/fast food like I did before, and I no longer have the space to eat too much of anything. At least the food choices I'm making on the fly are more or less "safe." I am beginning to see my world opening up again. I have classes I'd like to take and hobbies I'd like to resume. I want to take fly-fishing lessons with my sons. I want to go to the climbing gym. I want to get tattooed. I want to jump out of an airplane. I want to go on a date with my spouse that isn't just dinner and a movie. I want to go backpacking. I want to go kayaking. I want to explore more of my world, both urban and wild. And I have already done many things I wouldn't have dreamt of doing in my 260 lb. body. I went on an airplane and didn't have to pray the seatbelt would fit. I tried paddleboarding for the first time. I wore a swimsuit at Lake Tahoe in front of people, without a cover-up. I bought a skirt, and wear it just because it's comfortable. I don't want to just exist, I want to truly live life. And for the first time in many years, I feel alive and happy. I have lost and gained a LOT of weight over the years, but this is the first time in my adult life that I am actually hopeful that real, permanent change can be mine, and I am seeing the weight that kept me from really living fully for so long melt away like snow in the sun. Likewise, the cloud of depression and guilt that has followed me around for many years off and on, is also melting away as I turn toward the sun.
  11. Thanks for the input everyone! I saw my doc this week and we reduced my dosage, and we will recheck in 3 months to see what my levels are. I didn't expect my thyroid issues to resolve with this surgery, but if they did that would be awesome! For now, smaller dosage, and my cholesterol numbers look much better too, though he kept me on that med. hopefully I can give them both up someday.
  12. Hi! Any fellow post-op sleevers who take thyroid meds? I take levothyroxine, have for years, .137 mg dose, and just had my first lab work done since surgery in April. I don't see my primary doc to discuss results until next week, but I looked up the results before the appointment so I can go over them and have questions prepared if I need to. January results for my tsh on the same dose I take now were around 1.5. This time they were 0.15! A ten times difference! I expected meds to need to be adjusted, my cholesterol med perhaps, but I'm very surprised to see my thyroid levels change so drastically this time around. Any similar experiences post op? Any explanations? I'm almost thinking it has to be an error! I don't feel crazy abnormal, but being less than two months post-op, what is normal anyway? Insights or experiences anyone? I wonder what the doc will have to say about it next week.
  13. I am six weeks out from my sleeve surgery, and find that that full feeling is definitely there. There were some guidelines from my docs office to help recognize it too, though. Obvious are feelings of discomfort in the esophagus, and burping. Not so obvious signs though are a sneeze, or a sudden runny nose. The runny nose thing I have experienced. Eating along, (no cold or other contributing factor to a runny nose), and with one bite a good way into my meal, it's like someone turned on the waterworks, and I need a tissue. That has actually been a good tell-tale sign. I know if I eat more, It'll feel really uncomfortable. Especially about 10 minutes after I stop. I can eat until I feel full, and ten minutes later, when everythings settled and registered, I feel over-full. You will find your sign of "full" easily enough.
  14. I told the people I work with in my immediate department because I knew that my being out for the surgery would affect them, and my supervisor pretty much told everyone else at work. As a matter of fact I was sitting in his office working on a computer in there and he stopped and talked to a woman out in the hall all about me and my decision to have surgery, and they both said how they could never do that to themselves, and blah blah blah. I think he felt a little sheepish when the 15 minute conversation ended and he walked into his office and I was right there. I was really apprehensive about telling everyone, and having everyone know, but I've also not had any negative reactions to my face, and lots of words of ecouragement. I was worried about others' reactions and and opinions, but having someone else "out" me made me realize that I could also hear lots of encouragement and celebrating from others, and hear from many people how they wish they could be brave enough to do it to. And I can help those people make a positive change in their lives. And I am strong enough to put the smack-down on anywone who has an opinion I don't want to hear.