Julie-R

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About Julie-R

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    TT Master
  • Birthday 01/03/1973

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  • Gender
    Female
  • Location
    Tampa Florida
  • Age
    42

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  • Surgeon
    Dr. Alfredo Fernández
  • Height (ft-in)
    5-07
  • Start Weight
    237
  • Current Weight
    130
  • Goal Weight
    140
  • Surgery Date
    01/23/13
  • Surgery Type
    Gastric Bypass

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  1. 9 days Sober and feeling better each day. Very proud of myself! 

    1. duffman27

      duffman27

      One day at a time Julie - you can do this. Duff

    2. Cheesehead

      Cheesehead

      Way to go.  Sometimes it's one minute at a time but they all add up.  You are on the road to better health..

    3. bellamoma

      bellamoma

      keep going!!

  2. Good morning everyone today i borrow a simple beach dress size small from my daughter. We both love to shop and can wear some of each others clothing. I'm actually smaller than her. But that's ok because she is a lil thing herself! The jewelry and shoes are mine and we both have pretty much the same taste. Mine though i'd say is a little more reserved at times HAHA! Have a blessed day all....You all look amazing. <3
  3. I don't do Facebook because all my family, and others i don't wanna see, are on there. Plus for me it's just too intrusive. I know TT is somewhat of a social site too. However, it's a safe place to come gather education on health, and get together with like minded friends on WLS. I feel safe here even though i do know it's an open site and photos do show up in google. Though i did test my real name and no images show in google....Ty Jesus. Only way my pics from TT will show in google is if someone puts in my TT screen name. So now i feel more comfortable posting photos, plus long ago Cinwa told me you can right click on your photo and see if your pic has been used anywhere, which to me is a huge relief. I'd never want some person using my images as their own on some disgusting site etc. Back on point....I woke up at 2am with some lingering withdrawls. It's very difficult getting over it. I do have medications to help me through it. Though it's rough not getting a solid nights sleep. I have to be up at 5:45 to get ready for work. Working 7:30 to 3 at my office job, then 4 to 8 at the pool job. I work the office 5 days a week and the pool 3x. I enioy both and meet lot's of interesting people lol. Today is my first day back in the office since detox. I am so ready to tackle all the work that is surely backed up a mile high! My boss does know i did detox at the office. However no1 else knows, as i asked her to keep it between us. She is a very understanding lady and she always compliments me on my skills. I'm just so happy to be alive Tom. I really could have died if i hadn't gotten help when i did. I'm still in shock and angry at myself for allowing the alcohol to take control. I eat healthy when i can eat, stopped all those obsessive behaviors and got 2 wonderful jobs. I also have a nice home, great kids with excellent jobs and my daughter starting college this fall. There was no excuse for me to be such a loser and sink so low into the bottle over my marriage. Sad or not...I should have begged my husband harder to do counseling with me. I did try, but he also has PTSD and is active duty military * Navy Chief * and he can be quite difficult to deal with. Anyway, i did the detox because i had to. No1 forced me and it was the right thing to do. I'm feeling better each day, and i'm still like WOW...all this time it was the alcohol that was making me so sick! I was to the point of 4 days in a row with no food. All i had was booze and light version of V8 fusion juices. I lost 6 pounds last week and that scared me too. I need to stay in the 130s because i am tall. Anything under that and i look sickly. So yea, i do have a long recovery and lot's of hard work ahead. Plus i have to build trust and respect back with my daughter and husband. I'm not expecting them to right away and they shouldn't. But ya know what? My sweet Angel of a daughter told me today......Mom i am so proud of you. * Tears here, but also smiling, cuz i have an amazing kid *
  4. You worked your butt off lil gal! I remember all those walks in the snow and all the snow shoveling. You have always worked hard and been honest when messing up. You're a constant inspiration to me and many others. As those before me mention. You do not look like the same person at all. I personally think you have a beautiful personality and kind spirit. You've helped me and many others, so i just wanted to say thank you and congrats.
  5. I'm glad that you're doing well Tom. I am doing much better myself and honestly have several professionals helping me stay on the right path. I'm also very lucky that my daughter was understanding and forgave me and hugged me so tight when i told her i was going to detox. I have a long road of recovery....but i am strong and can do this. I just hope anyone out there struggling with any addiction transfer can get help and not beat them self up so much. All ya have to do is reach out and i promise there is always going to be someone there to care and help you along the way. Have a good evening my friends. I'm going to bed as gotta be up for work in the morning. Hugs to all <3
  6. I live near Macdill AFB! Bayshore is a beautiful place and wonderful area to go walk or biking etc.
  7. My body has a long way to go in the healing department. My throat burns,tummy onfire and my red blood cells are huge! I was told the count was over 100 whatever that means. Not to mention the damage my liver and pancreas has taken. Hope in time me eating clean and staying sober, it all heals. If not than it's all my fault and i should have known better. Also wanna note that i am in the process of seeing a new therapist. I just need someone to talk to and to help me stay on the right path. I want so badly to do the right thing and be a good example to my daughter. I am just so heart broken over what she had to see. But ty for replying as all who reply helps me so much.
  8. Ya know this habit totally snuck up on me. I only tried alcohol after i lost all my weight. Had one glass of wine and it hit me like a bomb within min. It felt nice to get that buzz so cheaply! I thought wow! I can have one or two glasses and there be no consequence and stay within my calorie limit for the day. But then i started having major problems with my marriage. I became depressed, angry and i turned more and more to the comfort of that bottle. For the last 2 years me and my husband have slept in different rooms. That made me withdraw into myself even more and use it as an excuse to get loaded. I've learned there is no excuse to abuse your body. We only have one and once you destroy what's inside...there is no fix. So i am just posting how i feel on TT in hopes it helps anyone else who is going through this in secret. All i can say is it never stays a secret for long. And once that secret get's out and people who love you realize you lied to them....there is just so much anguish. I'm lucky that my family has forgiven me and loves me enough to help get me through this. Also i am happy to report that my husband slept with me last night! It felt so good to be held and made to feel important again. I've been so lonely and tired for some time. But since i completed detox and have did AA 12x now in the last 6 days, things are looking brighter.
  9. You're correct. It was very difficult to come here and talk about my pain. What hurts me the most is my 18 year old daughter found me on the bathroom floor vomiting/shaking and crying. I was withdrawling from alcohol, as i wanted to stop on my own. It just was too difficult and my body wasn't allowing me to do it without professional help. I realized i could die, because if one drinks as much as i was it's very possible to die from withdrawls. It hurt me so bad that my daughter had to see her mom a total failure and train wreck. I have made amends with her and my husband. I'm working hard to gain their trust and respect again. It will take time...but i can and will do it. They're the most important people in my life. Ty so much for the touching reply. Hugs
  10. TY Tom. I know you've had struggles too. Mine got really bad and i've never in my life got so bad as i did recently. All i can say is i am NEVER touching it ever again. It makes me sad to think what i've done to myself and to my family. Thankful i have a wonderful support system in place and that my family has forgiven me.
  11. Been through a lot as of late. But i have got my act together and feeling fantastic and proud of myself.

  12. I have chosen to come here today and come clean. I just completed a 6 day stay in a detox program for Alcohol addiction. I am 7 days sober and have TONS of support and seeing doctors for depression and anxiety. I have ulcers in my pouch and in my throat from all the alcohol i consumed. I have to be scoped soon to confirm it. But i am certain i have them as i vomit all the time and have burning pain in my throat and belly. I am on several medications and doing EXACTLY what my doctors have ordered. I feel so ashamed ,embarrassed and SUPER ANGRY at myself. I am better than this and have always been a strong willed person. Doctors and the professionals at the rehab center told me that it's becoming a real big problem with gastric bypass patients as in alcohol abuse. I thought i could handle my drinking and just have a glass or two and that be cool. But before i knew it that wine went to liquor and i won't even say here how much i was drinking because no one would believe me. Plus i wasn't eating and i was maintaining for a year! Then suddenly i started having severe belly & throat pain and i started dropping weight and found myself so tired i couldn't hardly get out of bed. I can promise you all i will never touch alcohol again because it has nearly killed me. I want to live and be happy and be there for my family. Alcohol in my opinion is just TOO DANGEROUS for the gastric bypass patient.....ESPECIALLY if you have somewhat of an addictive personality.Thankfully, I was brave enough to seek help before the alcohol killed me. My liver and pancreas, pouch,throat has taken a BEATING. I am better than this folks and this lil lady has learned some hard lessons these last 3 years out from RNY. Today i am concentrating on getting my insides back to a healthy place and my mind. I truly am way better now and praying hard for strength and forgiveness from all i've hurt from all my impulsive and destructive behaviors. I did not lie when i came back to TT when i said i am better, because i am not near as bad mental wise as i was 2 years ago. I just let the alcohol take over for a little bit and like i said...I took steps to correct it. I am a happy person and love life and want so badly to do the right things. So here i am pouring out my heart and soul and hope others can learn from my experiences. Please people if you know you have an addictive personality.....DON'T EVEN DARE PICK UP THE BOTTLE. Love and respect to all - Julie
  13. I did exercise from day 1 of my surgery. For me that was my thing and not knocking anyone who hates exercise. I fully know you don't have to exercise to lose weight, as it's what you put into your body that matters. However i do know that if one can find time to add in a little bit it is proven that it can add some years to your life. Plus give you more energy and it's a great mood lifter LOL. I don't exercise anymore because i have two jobs and just too busy with that and home duties. Once in a while i do take a slow walk around Tampa bay, but i don't go to extremes anymore. Congrats on your weight loss LVGhostGirl!
  14. Very cute sweetheart!
  15. Morning to all and wishing you a healthy and blessed day! This is another Charming Charlies outfit. Got the dress on sale Reg 35 bux but i snag it for $15.00 and the shoes too on sale got for 6 bux and the jewelry necklace,earrings and 4 rings totalled 58 bux. The rings do not turn your fingers green and they stay looking nice for least a year if you take care of them properly. I plan to go today for another new outfit HAHA...Addicted! BTW dress is size small and still a bit big on me!