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About Stephtay

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    Vertical Sleeve

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  1. @Clickin @Res Ipsa @BurgundyBoy Big thanks to all of you. I really appreciate it! I hope I am picked too. But if not, finding the courage to apply was the biggest accomplishment for me. The first time I remember not liking my body I was 9 years old at summer camp. To borrow a quote from The Dead, "what a long strange trip it's been".
  2. I'm a sleeve and I was never told to eat fat free or low-fat. As others have said, fat adds flavor and once you take that out processed food in particular seem to have more sugar and carbs. My diet is mainly protein and fat.
  3. I applied to be a nude model. (How's that for an opener?) I have a friend who is an art professor and she is looking for a nude model with an "interesting" body for her figure sculpture class. I think my body is interesting considering I was once quite fat, lost weight and then had plastics to remove some of my excess skin. In clothes I look "normal" out of clothes my body tells a different story. I have been thinking about applying for while and it was a thoughtful and considered decision. Whether I'm chosen or not, I'm glad I applied. I had to think long and hard about the residual shame I still carry for allowing myself to get so fat and having a body that is a mix of tight and loose skin, scars, stretch marks and unblemished areas.
  4. So sorry Tom! Big hug!
  5. Congratulations - your results look great!
  6. It's never too late for protein.
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    Yay!!!! So excited for you! Stay away from carbs and your liver will keep shrinking! I'm with you - losing was never my problem. Keep it off was the issue.
  8. Me too! I say, "in my online support group . . . ."
  9. These are my favorite threads!
  10. If you get to your goal weight, you will.
  11. It's a bit chilly where I live today so I pulled a dress out of my closet I haven't worn for several months. Jan was probably the last time I wore it. I put it on and didn't even wonder if it would still fit me. In my pre-op days, if I went more than a few months without wearing something, it usually didn't fit. It wasn't until after I was on my way to work I remembered the dread I would feel when putting on something I hadn't worn for a while. So many of my old thinking patterns and fears are gone!
  12. Excellent point. For just this reason I don't eat doritios or carrot cake. If a food makes my brain light up like a Christmas tree, I don't eat it. It's not worth it. My food demon gets all excited and we have fun for a bit and then when I stop eating, I will keep obsessing about that food. If I don't give back into the cravings, I then get really angry and fantasize about wearing my big motorcycle boots to the grocery, tossing all the bags of doritos in the aisle, and stomping all over them. Because if I can't have them, I don't want anyone to have them. My food demon is an insidious tiny jerk.
  13. I still really enjoy food. Vacations and special dinners are times I allow myself to eat sugar and carbs. A couple of years ago in Paris I ate chocolate and pastries every day for a week. It was wonderful! I have learned what I eat today I will crave tomorrow. So, when I choose to eat sugar, I have to remind myself that tomorrow (and maybe the next day) I will have to white knuckle it through the cravings. But once I'm through, I'm fine again and sugar doesn't appeal to me. Just tell yourself - "not today" to whatever it is you are craving. Within a day or two you'll be fine. Don't beat yourself up. You haven't failed and you ARE doing really well. I think occasionally falling off the wagon is just part of the process. It is how we learn to live in a way that works for us post op.
  14. You didn't come across as judging. It's a valid question - where do people go when they leave TT? I think there are quite a few of the long-time members that still come here but may not post as often as they used to. For a couple of years I posted daily and then stopped for a while. I'm more back into it now. It ebbs and flows for me. I can think of a handful of frequent posters who started having trouble of one kind or another (weight gain, martial issues, substance abuse problems) and stopped posting. And, I can think of many who been very successful, no longer needed TT and moved on. And, we do have people who stop posting and then come back because something changed in their life and they needed support again.
  15. I have a trainer. I've had several over the years. I either meet them through the gym or get a referral from someone I know. My two cents is find someone who will really listen to you and not just give you their standard routine. Also, most trainers want to talk about nutrition. That doesn't work for me. Talking about food makes me want to eat and then my inner rebel kicks in and I act like a brat. My current trainer doesn't listen to me when I tell her my tendinitis is flared and I need to avoid certain upper body exercises. So, in two weeks when my package of sessions with her is finished, I'm not renewing. I've already found my next trainer. Your trainer works for you so talk to a few before you try one and see if you think they might be a good fit. My current trainer told me for breakfast every morning I should put 8 ounces of water in a blender with a whole lemon (seed, peel, the whole thing) and 4 tablespoons of olive oil. I should blend that up and drink it. I looked at her, blinked twice and burst out laughing. I think I said - "That will never happen but thanks for the suggestion." She doesn't know I've had WLS but I did tell her I'd lost over 100 pounds 3 years ago. Connect the dots - someone doesn't lose over 100 pounds and not learn something about nutrition! Of the 7 or 8 trainers I've had over the years, most were a good fit for me so don't let my current experience deter you.