Okay, let me start this off by saying I am 15-16 weeks along and I have still not seen a doctor. There are things preventing me from getting regular medical care, but in the event of an emergency, I can always go to a walk in clinic or emergency room, so I've not fussed about it until now. So at the end of this, telling me to talk to my doctor isn't going to help, as I don't have one. I know I'm going to get all kinds of hellish wrath because of this, but please understand, we just don't have the money they're asking for in advance, and I don't know what else to do (other than go back to California, get on medi-cal and go through the rest of the pregnancy without Andrew....which isn't an option).
About a week and a half ago, I noticed while completely at rest and not upset or excited, my heart was beating rather
hard. Not necessarily fast, but hard. DH took my pulse and confirmed that while the beat was a little higher than normal, the rate was within normal levels, but yes it was in fact beating hard than normal. As we don't have a spare blood pressure cuff lying under the couch or a pillow somewhere, we have no way to know what it actually was.
Each time I noticed it feel like this, I put myself on bed rest....it got better.
Like most people, I get dizzy when I stand up too fast. Maybe more so because I'm pregnant. However, Friday, Saturday and Sunday, something happened that has me really really scared.
Friday, DH and I decided to take a walk around the mall. He wanted to go to the game store and pre-order a new game he's been wanting that comes out in November. While we were there, I noticed my heart acting up and I was having a hard time breathing. I left the store and sat down. It got better, I attributed it to walking too fast.
Saturday, DH and I were at the grocery store. I gradually became aware that I was having trouble breathing at the same time I noticed my heart beating harder. Not much longer after that (maybe minutes), I felt really weak, felt like I was burning up (took off my jacket), and started seeing grayish spots in front of my eyes. I rested against the shopping cart and tried to ignore it. After walking a few feet, I couldn't ignore it any longer. DH suggested I go get a bottle of water and sit down. I made it about 10 feet before huge white lights began flashing in my eyes and I had to sit. Lucky me there was a bench in front of me. After a few moments it passed.
Sunday, DH and I were at Wal-Mart (I see a pattern forming here
). The same thing started happening. First thing I noticed this time was the hot flashes, then the breathing, then weakness, then the spots. I leaned against the cart until it passed.
This afternoon, my daughter and I were out running errands and I could feel the hot flashy thing starting, so I sat down immediately. So after it happened today, I started doing some thinking about past pregnancies. Here's what I came up with...
1. With DS, my blood pressure was elevated, but within normal limits, so my doctors never felt it a cause for alarms (did I mention I saw military doctors for his pregnancy *grumble grumble*).
2. They were concerned about how fast my heart beat was though. My resting pulse rate was between 120-130...occasionally jumping to 140.
3. My hands and feet swelled something awful with that pregnancy. I attributed it to the heat (September baby) and that I was overweight and never mentioned it to my doctor.
Over the past few days, I've been reading up on these symptoms. Most of them point to pre-eclampsia. But all the books and websites say it doesn't happen until post 20 weeks. I did see one site today that said it
can occur earlier, but it's rare. In a twin (or greater) pregnancy it's more common to be diagnosed early, same goes if you've had it before.
So here are my questions...
1. Am I paranoid or right to be thinking it could be pre-eclampsia?
2. Is it possible I had it undaignosed in my last pregnancy?
3. Since I think there's a strong possibility I'm having twins, could this be a factor?
4. Should I stop twiddling my thumbs and voice my fears and tell DH to take me to the clinic?
5. Do I need mental help?
Paranoid, or genuine problem?
Good lord woman.............
GO to the fricken clinic woman!!!!! This is not just about how you are feeling this could have an effect on the baby/babies well being as well and tell Andrew that the money for that game needs to be put aside for the doc not the game even if it was only $ 10.00 to reserve the game for November...sorry but in my stage I bitch at everyone about everything!! I yelled at 2 of my honeys friends yesterday at the Charger game about their shoe laces being half untied and to tie them before they fell. I know...I know....lol....but seriously he needs to get you on some type of medical or to a free clinic some kind of health care or observance is better then none you need blood work done to check your levels you need something!!! Where do you plan on having this baby in the bath tub?? forget the dumb game tell him christmas is coming or to wait for his birthday the baby is priority # 1. Sorry Andrew but it was a moment of rage which not being on my effexor kinda happens every now and then and i am only 10 weeks I told my honey I just want to apologize now for the rest of the pregnancy cause I am and sure I will be bitchy.
but I really, really hope you are able to go to the clinic and get this figured out. Please continue letting us know how you are doing. I love watching your avatar change with the days/weeks that go by and I think about your new little one(s) and root him/her/them on.
Why is going to CA out of the question.
These things shouldn't be taken lightly go see a doc, and if you have to come to CA to get on medical so be it. I'm sure Andrew is an understanding man and wants what best for you and his unborn child. Not trying to be mean just trying to give you a little reality.
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