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triciaknox · 10-03-2004, 08:36 PM

Well, tomorrow night at midnight I check in. I have gone the whole gamut of emotions in the last few weeks, but now I feel kinda of dazed and empty, or maybe it is just drained. My bag is packed, I have the house cleaned up, I think I am ready. Tomorrow I am actually going to work a full day too. If I sit at home I will go nuts.

With all the prep going on for this I forget at times that tomorrow is "Freedom Day", otherwise known as "The Divorce is Finally Final" day. Woohoo! I will celebrate it with a salad for dinner. <grin>

One thing I have gotten from constant reading of this forum is that most of you have people in your life who are in total support, and people that don't support your decision for WLS. In my life there is a person very close to me who doesn't support my decision, and this has bothered me a bit for she is my sister. She put comments to me that she had heard that I would have to go to the doctor every 3 months from now on. I responded back that I have severe asthma, I already go every 3 months so that is no big deal. Then she hit me with the fact that I would be on vitamins for the rest of my life, well, better vitamins than prescription drugs for health problems I said. Okay she says, no more cookies, candy, cakes, or pies she says. And I say, that is a possibility, but food is NOT my friend. It feels like it, but if my friend has gotten me into this shape, this condition, where I hate how I look, how I feel and I don't want to go out to do things then it is NOT MY FRIEND. I didn't hear anything from her for a bit after that, then I talked to her Saturday. She admitted that she is a bit jealous, she wants the surgery but her doctor is dead set against it (I told her to change doctors) and her insurance won't pay but for about 1/2 of the surgery from what they told her. That one I will work on. I am just glad that she is starting to come around, starting to understand why I am doing this. There is hope.

Okay, I know this is long, but thanks everyone for being here for me when I have needed you in the past. Not sure how much I will be on tomorrow before heading to the hospital. The roller coaster is getting ready for boarding, let the ride begin!

lealphachienne · 10-03-2004, 08:47 PM

Live by example, she will come around eventually.

The next few days will seem like an eternity. I cleaned the house just before I left to check in. I couldn't sleep and was so wound up with excitement. It was nice to come home to a clean place and not have to worry about dirty dishes for a week or two.

triciaknox · 10-03-2004, 09:49 PM

Well, I did errands galore this weekend. Picked up cat food, cat litter, etc even though I didn't really NEED it yet cause I will need it in about 2-3 weeks and won't be able to lift those heavy litter containers then. Got all my vitamins, rx's etc picked up, got some sugar free jello, clear soups, fruit juices, water, etc. Got all my laundry done, cleaned cat litter, etc. Nervous energy maybe??

watergirl · 10-04-2004, 06:56 AM

We have a support group meeting Tuesday night, if you think you'll be up for visitors, we'll come see you around 7:45 p.m. tomorrow night. I wish you peace throughout today. We'll see you on the losing side soon! God speed on a safe and speedy recovery.

Americanwoman397 · 10-04-2004, 07:42 AM

You know my Aunt has done the same thing to me but she called it cheating. I finally found out this past weekend it was because she wanted the surgery to and the military wouldn't pay for it. I'm glad you and your sister can work through this because you will need all the support you can get. Just make sure you tell her when and if its meant to happen its going to. Meaning if she is meant to have surgery then she will. I bet once she sees you come out and doing so well she will push for it more.

I hope everything goes well tomorrow and I can't wait to hear how good you feel being a loser..LOL

Christina · 10-04-2004, 11:52 AM

Tricia,

Good luck to you on your surgery date tomorrow.. wishing you a safe and speedy recovery..

P.S. Not trying to criticize.. but want you to be well informed.. juice after surgery should be diluted or not used at all. It may make you sick with the sugars in it. There are varieties of light ocean spray juices and whatnot that you may be able to tollerate.. just wanted you to know so you don't get sick unnecessaryily..

triciaknox · 10-04-2004, 12:14 PM

Hi All,

Thanks for the notes. Christina, the juice I got is the Fruit Excellence, basically a water with fruit juice in it, sweetened by Splenda. I also got some sugar free Grape Juice, but feel sure that I will have to use 1/4 of grape and 3/4 of water on that one. It is always too strong for me!

As for visitors, well, come on by. If I don't feel up to it I will tell you and know that ya'll will understand!

Karen Wright · 10-04-2004, 05:38 PM

Tricia.......thinking about you!!!! Everything is going to be great! I wish I could come say hi while you were in the hospital but I will be there in spirit!!! Make sure to have someone keep us posted on your journey!!

Butterfly · 10-04-2004, 06:09 PM

Hi Tricia,
We're all rooting for a successful and speedy recovery. I'm so proud of you for speaking up for yourself. Many times, we keep quiet as to not ruffle any feathers, but you had so many excellent points to make to your sister. Please email me if you need help with her insurance stuff. I've been in health care for over 15 years and know the questions to ask, etc. I'd be happy to help.

As far as visiting you tomorrow, we will understand if you are not up to visitors. Just knowing that we came by will help.

Relax, enjoy the attention you are getting and we'll see you on the other side of "Loserville".

Aubsters · 10-05-2004, 01:27 PM

Tricia-

Just wanted to say I'm thinking of you. Tonight is my big check in night. This time tomorrow I'll be in lala-land. Just like you hopefully are right now. Take care and have a speedy recovery.

Aubrey