Hey everyone!
I stumbled across this forum a couple of weeks ago and it's great to see such a support group. I think I'm going to need it.
Tonight I go for the informational seminar from my surgeon. I'm excited, nervous, hopeful, nervous...desperate (did I mention nervous?).
I'm a phen-fen baby...lost 170 pounds about 6 years ago, lived at the gym 6days a week (wasn't working outside the home). Got my body together for the first time in my life--looked hot.....but didn't do so hot with the mind (and the marriage). Long story short..pulled the marriage together, went back to work, government pulled the phen-fen (I never had any medical troubles) and Igained all my weight back!
I feel like I finally have my head on straight, but no matter how many times I've tried...I just can't lose the weight again. I'm at the point where I'm fearful for my health...want to make sure I'm around for my kids and husband.
I'm disappointed in myself

in that I have to resort to surgery...but I don't feel like I have a choice. I will do this and I will be successful for my family and for myself.
The good news:

my insurance company says as along as my BMI is above 40 (currently 51), they'll approve. I just want to get the show on the road (so much for patience) !
Thanks for listening
330/160 (goal)