pre op emotion - Page 2 - ThinnerTimes

okiegrl · 01-15-2006, 06:48 PM

Miryam - You are in my thoughts and prayers. I can understand your feelings regarding surgery...switching between excitement and utter terror. Your mom is watching over you and will be with you every step of the way.

singman · 01-15-2006, 07:14 PM

You're mom may not be here physically, but she's always with you in your heart, and in your memories.

I lost my dad back in 1991 to cancer. He never said he loved me until he knew he had terminal cancer. I go to his grave and he's not there. But when I'm doing the kinds of things we used to do together I feel his presence. It probably seems strange to hear a man admit things like this.

You're not freaking out, just reaching out. Deep down I wonder about the "What If's" tomorrow. My life is in God's hands and he will guide the surgeons and the staff. I'm not a religious nut, but I've had a chance to do some serious inward reflections these past few days.

Hang tight, hug your family, and don't forget to tell them daily how much you love them. :-)

HAMPTON5555 · 01-15-2006, 07:23 PM

Everyone has said so many encouraging things I hardly know what else to add.

Just know that we here at the forum have all gone through the tests of life.
Some the same and some different.

I am happy you found the courage to reach out to us and know you are in our prayers and the strength of many are with you!

It sounds like your mom was a wonderful mom and that you are an incredible daughter. She must be so proud of how you have taken over and she would understand more thabn anyone how you deserve to take care of your self now!

Huggggss!
Rain

looking ahead · 01-15-2006, 07:37 PM

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Originally Posted by Myrr03

I just needed to reach out today...

I am 2 1/2 weeks before surgery and I've been doing pretty well emotionally until today. I jsut totally freaked out. I felt like i was blind sided but the amount of emotion that came over me. I was afraid, and sad and scared. I know the story is a little long, but i feel the need to share:
My mother died 7 years ago and I've been very involved with raising my siblings ever since. These last three months have been the first time in 7 years when i am only taking care of myself and i'm not worrying about anyone else. it's been a new experience for me.
Today, as i was talking to someone who had a GBP several years ago, she mentioned that her mom stayed with her in the hospital and i burst into tears thinking that I'm alone. Yes, I have great friends and an aunt who would do anything for me, but for the first time I truly felt the loss of the caretaking my mom would have given me. I know that my friends and my aunt will be there for me and one of my younger sisters is in school in town and she will come, but its not the same, and i can't seem to stop crying.

I guess i'm not writing for a solution, but i just felt the need to share and connect. thanks for letting me vent.

Miryam,

I will say a prayer for you that God will give you peace. I do feel the same as others have said that you'll feel your Mom's presence the day of your surgery and even when you get home.

Myrr03 · 01-16-2006, 08:43 AM

I'm at a loss for words to covey how much i appreciate these words of support. I read each of your posts and took them to heart. I will keep looking back at them as this roller coaster of emotions passes over me.

thank you for sharing your stories, kind thoughts and wishes.

I know that i will get through this part and move on to the surgery... and start my life.

My mom's name was Kathy. i wanted her name to be part of this too.

thank you