Hi Niki, i know exactly how you feel..i am due my surgery on the 28th of this month and often have fearful thoughts. Will i survive the surgery? Will some aspect of it go awfully wrong and leave me regretting going through with it? Will something happen that leaves me unable to work? What if it doesn't work?
Then i sit myself down and remind myself why i'm doing it in the first place, and realise i'm more fearful of what the future will bring if i continue the way i am. So, like everyone here, i will deal with it a piece at a time, and value the support of these good folks as i make the journey.
On a more flippant note, i've just spent this evening loading music and creating playlists on my iPod, for my hospital stay...lol. It felt as if it brought it all that little bit closer....i'm the kind that's eager to get things done once i've made a decision..lol
I'm sorry i can't offer practical advice at present, but i can certainly empathise
