Late night...new to site... and feeling depressed - Page 2 - ThinnerTimes

LizardQueen · 04-17-2005, 12:31 PM

Post as ofte nas you need to! That is what we are here for to support each other! I felt the same way! I know all about GERD. Thankfully, that is no longer a problem for me!!! Keep your chin up! Send me a private message if you need to talk!

Amber

bingoklee · 04-17-2005, 07:40 PM

Depression is totally normal, before, and after the procedure.
When I had my first one done, I almost walked out of the hospital, right before the surgery. Afterwards, you ask yourself, why did I do this, how am I going to live on this diet.
Just tell yourself you did it so you can live! I believe in this surgery so much, that I am having it done a second time. ( I had complications after losing 60 pounds, when my staples opened, caused by an ulcer, It is rare)

Anyway, I urge you to keep fighting, keep believing that this will help you have a longer, happier, and healthier life, cause it will.

Just put the depression, fears, what ifs, and everything else aside, and fight for this, fight to live!

Billyd · 04-17-2005, 08:23 PM

You are going to hear alot of that on this site. It is the best advice. You need to do something because from what you are writing you need to do something before something happens to you. I am 5 days post op. I know that I can not speak for the people that are farther out but my wife is almost 9 months out. And I know she would not trade what she did for anything. I will tell you I was ready to walk out the day of surgery. When I woke up I wondered why I did it. When I was fighting all the complications and the crap that goes along with being in the hospital I wondered why I was doing it. But I know it is the right thing. I know that overall it was this or die from all the other b.s. I know that thru life you make choices either you make them or they are made for you. One thing that every one on this forum will tell you. You have done something. Whether you have the surgery or not you have done something. Never give up. This is a tool. It is NOT the easy way out. This a lot harder than giving up and just waiting until you dont wake up someday. Then your obit just says you died in your sleep. Do something and you will feel better about yourself.

wish you all the luck and all the wisdom you need to make the right choices.

NYNMD · 04-19-2005, 06:56 PM

A little late, but thanks to all who responded.

I'm feeling a lot better today. I'be been off carbs for the past two days and it feels so good. I think I'm truly addicted to carbs. My body just gets so bloated and miserable. Two days off carbs and I feel so much better.

Oh well, talk to you guys soon. Thanks again!

virgo · 04-20-2005, 08:39 PM

hello everyone, well Monday is fast approaching and I am getting nervous and scared at the same time that the doctor will say that I am not "fat enough for the surgery" is this normal or am I going crazy. On top of that I have someone that is giving me a hard time for wanting to have the surgery and to be thin and happy. Has this happen to any of you? I just tell them that I have the right to have a life where I am not in pain every time I move and to be able get my clothes in the thin women section of the store and not in the back of the store in the fat women section if they even have a fat woman section. I am wrong for wanting to be happy or am I just be selfish like I am told I am. I want a life before I am to old to have a life. Does that make sense?

Virgo
5'3"
250/135 goal

Koren · 04-20-2005, 08:54 PM

Hey Billy, Congratulations.

I just went to dictation today and am getting a lot of new feelings now. Being scared is just one of them.

Glad to hear you are getting better everyday. I am working at losing 10 lbs as assigned but I am not having a great deal of luck. I do well for a few days and then back slide--story of my life but know I can do it. Two times I have lost half of my body weight only to gain it back. Have added exercise to the routine and hope it helps with a speedier recovery--if there is such a thing.

Keep us posted. Hang in there.

anthrgdgrl · 04-20-2005, 10:48 PM

What is dictation?

Butterfly · 04-20-2005, 11:39 PM

Hollie,
Dictation is when your provider has received all of the tests and paperwork needed to write up your file to send it to the health plan for approval.

Hope that helps.

JennaM · 04-20-2005, 11:52 PM

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Originally Posted by NYNMD

The more depressed I get the more doubts I have. I know this to shall pass. I can't wait tell operation day, than I can move on to the next phase. I know I must heal my mind and love myself no matter what.

I'm sure it will take time, but I'm just wallowing in self-pity right now. Thanks for the support.

I have so been where you are describing. I struggle with depresion and self doubt. I am a little over 5 monthd post op and it has been an emotional rollercoaster. Phycically thingd are going great, I was blessed to have my surgury go well. Recovery wasn't a walk in the park but I had it easy compared to some others whose stories have been shared, Depression is no joke. I hope thst you have someone ( a propfesional that you trust to work with. ) I'm having some stuff coming up right now that scares the crap ouy of mr, do I stuff it and wait for it to blow up later? Or face it now? Scary shit. I have to decide, whst hurts more holding it in and letting it negativly affevt my life now, or deal with headon, no msater how much old pains come up and work towards being free. I'm in marital counseling, but i need my own Dr or other profesional to work with. right now I am on a path of doing things toi imrove myself, I'm scared that the old me the self-saboture me is gonna throw a wrench into the positive things I got going right noe. The last lady I was seeing for individual sessions, I dsidn;t feel we "connected" I have some heavy issues from childhood, sexual abuse, insest, mental trips from my mom, she was not mentally healthy while raising us. Then all the guilt I have for the choices I made in my life. I've done some pretty horrendus things. Lots of guilt and shame here. I have decided that I need ti deal with it, so I am in the proccess of finding the right "match" with someone I can work with , that won't make me feel...I don't know what I'm saying, I guess I want someone that has been there heard it all and won't be too shocked, yet can help me heal. I'm tired of my past shit biting me on th eass and dragging me back into the mire. I been in the muck so much sometimes I want to go wallow again cuz it's familair and comforting in a sick way. I just haven't found my guide, mentor, whatever title he or she has to help me on my journey to a better place/space. I hope some of may get what I just said. I'm not having much luck finding a fit where my ins has directed me. Time will tell.

Keep on keeping on and know that we who have been where you are, are here for you.

NYNMD · 04-21-2005, 04:21 AM

Dag, you hit the nail on the head.

I am dealing with the same type of issues. Abuse, incest, emotional pain, and other crap. On the outside everyone thinks I'm a strong person. Kim can solve everything and I do a very good job at pretending. I need a professional. Trust me, that person has to be a real good one. I've talk to a professional in the past, but they referred to the old "write a letter to your dead mother" technique. Bye-Bye!!! I need someone real and that can get through to this tough exterior. That's not easy to fine. Not only that I'm married, my husband is wonderful, but I'm giving him a very hard time. I've always given men a hard time. Just mean and ugly, not showing real feelings and dismissing him. Bad girl!! This is probably the first time in 3 years that I've been faithful to one person.

Enough!

Oh well, back to my life. Have a good week.