My thoughts on being scared...
Before surgery I woke up every day in fear of my life. My routine was mundane, I was miserable. Every day I was fearful of having a heart attack. Everything ached, my back drove me nuts, and I would come home everyday and look down at my swollen ankles and feet. The thought to bed another night with my Darth Vader Mask for sleep apnea made me sick to my stomach. I kept thinking how can I go on like this? I did not want to be a burden to my kids when they started pumping out grandchildren. I wanted to be a helper instead.
I have been very fortunate, and endured no complications. My blood pressure is great now, I feel great, and would not have changed a thing.
Being nervous or frightened about surgery is normal, but be prepared for a new life. The old life will need to end. The tool helps a lot, but you still have to do the job.
I wish you all the best,
Jeff
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